i honestly don't see the point of trying
not anymore
they say things will get better
just keep trying and trying
i don't want to be in this stupid cycle anymore
same result
over and over again
again again again
so tiring
so tired
so tired of trying so tired of reassuring self over and over again so tired of staying so tired of reaching out so tired of waiting so tired of believing so tired so tired so tired
such a whiny fucker
such a coward
can i just leave like every other people
like how they left
like how they left after they get tired of someone or something
like how everyone leaves when they think it's not worth it anymore
they will forget eventually
they will let it go eventually
they will stop trying eventually
they will
it's funny how they'll just shrug it off
like nothing ever happened
i should probably just stop
stop hoping stop dreaming stop with all the bs i keep telling myself
it won't happen
stop
after all they never take me seriously
so probably i shouldn't have taken myself seriously either
such a joke
everything is just a joke
i tried opening stuff like i used to do
and i feel sick
sick
so sick
nothing makes sense
so tired
i want to sleep
sleep
sleep
i want to stop the pain
i want it to stop
so tired
so tiring
i don't feel it when i'm asleep
so i'll just sleep
sleep
sleep
sleep until it's gone
sleep
