I'm just... really, really not sure if the persona I have established on this blog in any way resembles who I turned out to be.
I mean, I see my old posts, and... they just really don't seem like they're written by me, or by anyone I would ever want to be.
And I get it, people change, I was younger, etc. But I had a conversation with a friend recently that really made me think about a bunch of things that are really hard to explain. I was never as cool as I thought I was, but I was never as uncool either? I think I was unintentionally trying to cultivate an image that was... I actually have no fucking idea who I was trying to appeal to. I just want to try to find the person I actually am. I don't know how, but I do. And I literally don't know if the solution is to delete this blog. :/
