stupid good dog

dog butch dyke thing, 36

[appleciderbutch]

you better not get that faux leather shit either

[genderbutch]

Yknow I don't really know how to talk about this but I genuinely think that I might be transmasc, not cis, but like mtftm

Like I've been transitioning for over a decade, but to me, being a woman wasn't the end goal, but a means to an end - a necessary stopping off point.

It's not a detransition in a traditional sense, I'm not cis - I never was, but rather I'm moving through a process. Like I made a clay pot and then before putting it in the kiln, I dig a bunch of rocks and shit that I missed out of the clay, ruining this pristine surface I've created - and intentionally leave behind divots and marks, and knowing that all of the fingerprints of my later modification will be clear to see on the pot after it comes out of the kiln.

That's what I want. That's who I am.

[genderbutch]

I spent yesterday evening doing a Warhound scene in which I was a captured rebel pilot being interrogated and then subsequently brainwashed into fighting for the Empire. Towards the end, I polished my Handler's boots (and a few other people's) and then spent the rest of the evening sat at her knees wearing a collar and a muzzle and getting headpats while she chatted to other people.

I think this may have healed my soul.

[genderbutch]

pls post more, youre cool

I've been busy writing a show for Edinburgh Fringe, but bet, alright

[genderbutch]

Yknow I don't really know how to talk about this but I genuinely think that I might be transmasc, not cis, but like mtftm

Like I've been transitioning for over a decade, but to me, being a woman wasn't the end goal, but a means to an end - a necessary stopping off point.

It's not a detransition in a traditional sense, I'm not cis - I never was, but rather I'm moving through a process. Like I made a clay pot and then before putting it in the kiln, I dig a bunch of rocks and shit that I missed out of the clay, ruining this pristine surface I've created - and intentionally leave behind divots and marks, and knowing that all of the fingerprints of my later modification will be clear to see on the pot after it comes out of the kiln.

That's what I want. That's who I am.