I just want to be skinny

TW: ED SH DON'T REPORT JUST BLOCK  SW: 56.6kg CW: 54kg GW1: 50kg GW2: 45kg UGW:36>

[skeletonmoths]

[wtfisgo1ng0n]

Body goal ✮⋆˙

[genesiswinters]

ED and Chronic Illness

Its been a very long time since I've been active on here. I have no idea what triggered it but I'm back. I wasn't truly in recovery. The thoughts were still there but I just wanted to indulge.

I would still try to diet and exercise here and there, but I started noticing things. Problems that used to be small years ago. And now are worse.

I started Uni and all of my physical issues started to worsen. I thought maybe it was because I was being lazy. But when I tried to be productive or active, I would just end up fatigued. Things that weren't that big of a problem in Highschool were suddenly my biggest enemy.

I would try to convince myself that I was being over dramatic. Maybe there was nothing actually wrong with me. But the more I had that mentality, the more I was proven wrong.

The next school year things were okay but I was still falling behind in my courses because my body wouldn't allow me to make it to class. I was fighting against my body constantly. I knew I was fatigued, but I didn't want to fail, or accept it.

As a result i would have moments where my body wouldn't let me fight back anymore. And it got to the point where I was asleep most of the day. Be up for only a few hours to eat. Then go right back to sleep. I had to withdraw from school because of this.

I knew this wasn't ED related because I was letting myself eat whatever I wanted and was trying my best to do what my body needed rather than what I wanted.

Whatever is wrong with me has gotten so bad I can barely lift things, barely run. Barely go up the stairs. I'm fainting and getting dizzy from doing the slightest things.

But I can't do any of that anymore.

So, trying to work out while my body is actively fighting against me is impossible. Im frustrated because I just want to be able to do normal everyday things. As crazy as it sounds, I want to clean, do laundry, the dishes. I miss cooking.

Maybe it was the lack of control I had over my life that made me relapse. But here I am again. ⭐️ving myself. Eating below 1000 kcals a day because if I'm gonna be chronically ill. At least let me be pretty while I'm at it.

[st4rvingsweetheart]

favourite low cal snacks go 🍌

[edgyleagueplayer]

f4tsp0 doesnt work on me bc idgaf about other ppl being f4t i only care about myself being f4t

[report-me-again-i-dare-you]

getting on tumblr like *cracks knuckles* "okay it's time to get serious about this disorder" as if I haven't been struggling with it since I was a child. if that isn't serious idk what is

[sugar--k1sses]

💜💜💜

[lucky55-50]

[glossy1leaf]

me checking the calories before buying smth

[444ch00mah-deactivated20260529]

Does anyone have tips on low c4l liquid f4st1ng please?

[violetteg1rl]

DONT FALL FOR THE DIET COKE PROPAGANDA!!!!

Im serious guys, stop drinking Diet Coke and soda’s all the time cause if you struggle with bloating it’s cause if the carbonation in the diet and sugar free sodas.

Try drinking green teas cause they are the best for bloating and digestion or any tea that gets you off soda.

Im not saying never have it, try lean yourself off it like have it once a week then a few times a month then once a month.

But it took me so long to realise Diet Coke was making me so bloated and making my face swell and give me stomach issues so if you have any of those problems it might be because of the diet sodas.

[genesiswinters]

This is why I chose not to use Diet Coke. Any type of soda always made me so bloated.

[luupylupins]

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[corruptmango]

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You will be skinny by Christmas.

Picture this:

Oversized sweaters make you look small and dainty.

A mug of hot chocolate warming your boney and manicured hands.

Friends shopping for gifts, knowing they can pick the smallest size for you and it'll fit.

Not needing to have "weight loss" as your New Years Goal.

Friends or family easily being able to playfully pick you up at the Christmas party.

Everyone pointing out how good you look at said Christmas party.

Eating all the yummy cookies and food and not worrying about looking like a slob.

🕯️you will reach your gw by Christmas🕯️

6 months is a long time, long enough for you to achieve your goals. Get to it.

[yoan1bo0n]

MEAL INSPO 🤍❕

Low in calorie 🫶

[e-l-l-e-purple22]

❄️The less you eat❄️

= The less hungry you are

= The skinnier you become

= The prettier you will be

It's simple maths. What's stopping you?

[genesiswinters]

Hey hey heyyyyy, i'm baaaack~

I finally got a phone. Originally I had been using an unblocked browser on my school computer 😅 but now I have a phone so that means I can be active again. I moved out of my house and I to the dorms for college so I started my habits again. I'm honestly excited to be back.

Anywayssss here is my dinner for tonight. It's the leaves of Romaine lettuce, one medium sized tomato, one third of a cucumber, a can of tuna and skinny girl Italian salad dressing. All of this counts to around 93 cals.

All in all I have eaten about 355 cals.

[genesiswinters]

My parents finally went to the store today. My sister and I needed so much stuff. I asked them to get me multivitamins and assorted peanuts as well as tea. I wanted the peanuts because I heard that almonds suppress your appetite and if you take the multivitamin in the afternoon you will be less hungry. If I don't want to eat the peanuts for lunch then I will make myself tea. And its my favorite tea, I haven't had it in a long time so I am very excited.