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20 revolutions round the sun | ve/they/she

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My emotions are all over the place. I hate myself, k hate my favorite person, k hate people in my vicinity

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I want to shoot myself in the head0

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he actually blocked me. it kinda hurts. i hate him but miss him still

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feeling territorial over food

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muscle spasm

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k told my partner k dont want to be bipedal. he responded a bi ped0phile? k told him k am one n he said "I know"

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feeling like km permanently starving no matter how much k eat km still hungry

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k feel like k permanently have an audience like all my thoughts and actions are broadcasted to spectators k cannot see

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k got "uncomplient with medical treatment" stamped on my records and was told to find another facility when k tried to switch doctors. What's your achievement?

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born to lash out in unbridled rage. forced to go "it's alright k understand"

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k had a bts stan on twitter use my pictures n catfish as me when k was 14

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k keep finding these words that describe perfectly how kve been feeling since a child but km too afraid to use them to describe myself

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sorry for having a default blog k wanna stand out like a rock

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doesn't want to be confined to labels because k feel the need to constantly explain myself. wants a label so k don't have to explain myself and just be apart of a community. doesn't want to be lumped into hate within that community. but solidarity! but but... shoot me

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k wish everything was monochrome

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this body is a vessel that k feel kve outgrown like my skin is too tight like k need to remove parts of myself

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idk if it's the cat in me but k am scared of birds