sweet return

pls follow @donechapel bc i dont use this actively anymore. sideblogs are just an artifact of the past these days lol

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

SPINNING. ITS HAPPENING AGAIN

👀

[harrystylesdaily]

helenepambrun.photography: Happy H Day!

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

also hi lol i just updated spinning after 4 years https://archiveofourown.org/works/3180197/chapters/45528547

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

hi lol i just updated this fic after 5 years https://archiveofourown.org/works/1146621/chapters/45522190

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

That makes me sad, and confflicted? Lol I guess I'll take it because I love you and your writing, wish you the best for it

welcome to my world

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

Will you ever update Spinning? I love you by the way xox I know it's been like 2 years but I check on your blog almost daily and noticed you changed youre icon so I hope that meant you were online, love you

wow, omg. daily?!! i literally love you. and lmfao i just changed my icon like 2 hours ago (@ohnoballoons beautiful edit) and tbh about spinning, i still think about it bc it was such a thing i devoted so much time to but it also like ruined me mentally to write it and i have never pretended to be able to finish a fic bc i like to torture myself. i was dumb enough to start writing and posting that w/out a plan or plot but then ppl read it and i got stressed out and dropped the whole thing and disappeared for my sanity

on the bright side i have been a lot more active on tumblr the past few weeks and have started reading fic again?? so idk, my guy, idk. in the meantime you should read save me, call me baby by @vinoharry bc i just read it straight through the night and fell in love w everything

[getfawked120-deactivated2023053]

there’s an art school boyfriends zarry au living in my head i might write drabbles or draw it out or something, but zayn’s new buzzed hair bein all kinds of colours just makes him look so artsy and cute and i just think of harry going over to zayn’s flat and even tho they were together last night, zayn’s hair is now white instead of green and harry’s just like ‘looks good’ and kicks his shoes off and goes straight to zayn’s room. he has an essay for his semiotics lecture due soon, but he kind of wants to get laid first then he’ll work on it. he loves that propped up against the wall is a painting zayn’s working on–all green and blue for now because he’s only got as far as underpainting, and it’s of harry, holding a cigarette and shirtless for a painting class. it makes the small room smell like oil paint despite the open window. harry’s sure they’re both going to die one night from the poor ventilation and toxic cadmium paints but for now they manage. zayn’s kissing harry’s neck while harry plugs his iphone into the speakers. ‘we’re not fucking to fleetwood mac again,’ zayn says, seriously. ‘i let you fuck me to misfits. AND boyz ii men. what’s wrong with fleetwood? stevie’s voice is so raw and–’ honestly what is this good night

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

I WANNA WRITE A NEW STORY I HAVE SUCH A CRAVING BUT I GOTTA FINISH MY OLD ONES BEFORE I START A NEW ONE OR ELSE ILL NEVER FINISH ANYTHING WTF

[ohnoballoons]

Excuse me i’m still expecting some closure on spinning

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

i knoW w  w w W W  W W Ww  w w ww w w w w w w w w w w w w ww w w w www ww ww  w i have no excuse i need to go on a cleanse and start fresh fuck

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

I WANNA WRITE A NEW STORY I HAVE SUCH A CRAVING BUT I GOTTA FINISH MY OLD ONES BEFORE I START A NEW ONE OR ELSE ILL NEVER FINISH ANYTHING WTF

[mischon]

Alyssa Monks - Morning After II (2014)

[lobbygrl]

THS IS A PAINTING

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

ohnoballoons YES but should I start off in March where I left it or should I write in a 2 month gap like stopping for this long was never my plan so now idk what to dO 😩

[ohnoballoons]

i’d like, re-read it, and see how i feel about it, if i were you. like, to see if it’d flow better with the time skip, or if you feel like there’s something important that just NEEDS to have happened in march??   idk i’m actually just happy to know you didn’t quit it tbh 

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

ohnoballoons u right u right I had a bunch of diff starts of what would come next back in March but none of them were good so I think I do gotta go back and read t all again

and OF COURSE I didn't forget it it's my fave thing to write!!!!!! school just happened lmaoo

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

ohnoballoons YES but should I start off in March where I left it or should I write in a 2 month gap like stopping for this long was never my plan so now idk what to dO 😩

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

bruv I CAN'T WAIT till you update it like how many days donu take between each chapter it's just wow and they FINALLY HAD SEX I QAS LIEK WOWZA I love bottom zayn to bits especially with harry HOW MANY CHAPS ARE LEFT I NEED TO PREPARE MYSELF

WTF I THINK YOU SENT THIS LIKE EIGHT YEARS AGO AND I JUST SAW IT IM SO SORRY

BUT im finally home I'm gonna start writing again so update SOON

[zarryandzourry]

I need some good zarry fic recs 😌

[marsellon-deactivated20210406]

Spinning by the WONDERFUL donechapel \ getyouwhateverthepayne

[ohnoballoons]

Spinning, by donechapel/getyouwhateverthepayne

”My therapist told me to start a journal. Congratulations! You messed me up so bad I actually need a therapist now.”

(gifs by 1ddoppelbangers, b&w manip by youreasontobelarry.)

[haroldmadness]

x

[getyouwhateverthepayne]

i started watching luther because of "spinning" and now i'm hooked so thank u !!

AHHHH omg this is incredible!!! it's my favorite show tbh idris elba is a god