Important Update: Health, situation, a break and the future x
I hope you’ll forgive me for this mostly generic post. I’m trying to share a little update everywhere to let you know what’s happening, especially since I’ve had a lot of comments and messages lately being unaware that I’ve been sick and unable to create new content since June last year.
To recap, I’ve been struggling with severe health issues for a very long time. While I’ve always tried to find ways to live and work around my health the physical strain and stress of moving home in 2022 triggered new auto-immune conditions and other issues that have worsened through the last four years to the point where I just can’t function.
Last year my worsening health meant that work became more challenging each month. I reached a point where I was filming one whole day a month and it was taking so long to recover afterwards that I’d spend the rest of the month bedbound, trying to get better for that one day of filming the next month. It reached a point last summer where I couldn’t make it into my work room any more.
There’s a lot more to it than that but last summer I had to make the incredibly hard decision to step away from work until I could get my health back on track. I literally can’t do the things I need to do to make content. The times my health has been at its best over the past few years have always been when I’ve been able to eat and gain a lot, but food is expensive and as I ate less my health worsened until I couldn’t even eat any more. I’m really struggling. I hate admitting this more than anything. At this point I’ve lost almost half my body weight and I’ve never felt worse, either physically or about myself and my body.
There’s something more insidious going on with my health, something that’s been worsening for the last few years, not a part of any of the conditions I’ve been diagnosed with before. I have to get this diagnosed, treated and sorted. It’s taken a long time to get things moving but over the next couple of months I’ll be taking a complete break from work to focus on recovery.
I’ve tried to keep things ticking over until I was able to work again but even that’s become untenable. I’ve been working over so many different platforms as well as other work to make ends meet that trying to keep things ticking over is a full time job in itself. I’ve been scheduling some basic uploads across my platforms to try to keep things going but I won’t be around for a while after today, I’m really sorry x
As with any community there are good and bad parts to ours but so many of you have been amazing over the years, supporting both myself and all the other wonderful feedees and performers out there. Thank you for everything, and please keep making this community the safe, nurturing, exciting space it can be at its best. I would be grateful some positive thoughts, as well as hoping you might want to see whatever comes next. I won’t be GG any more, I’m beyond done with wearing wigs and being someone else. I want to find my own love for this kink again, as myself. I want to get my tummy and muscle back.
I need to get better before I can do any of that. I’m sorry that I won’t be around for the next couple of months. I’ve been trying to get this sorted for a really long time and this is my best chance at getting my life back.
Thank you once again for all your support through the years. Please be kind to yourself and others. Please keep breathing. I’ll see you when I get back 🩵🩷
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