Journey to the Ballerino.

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“You cannot go back anymore. Everything that happened in your past will always stay there as you continue your journey in life. They will always be a part of you at a distance. They won’t distract you unless you look back and let the past consume you. They just exist to remind you how stupid, immature and weak you were before and how you overcome the storms in your life. They are the living proof that you matter, that you are now stronger and better. Don’t ever go back anymore, you’re now in a better place. Keep walking. Leave your past behind you.”

— E.J. Cenita (via wnq-writers)

[ggujuh]

To actually facing my problems and to a better future✨ - - So I’m not the best when it comes to being vulnerable in person or on social media..but we’re all just tryna better ourselves and have our own experiences in this thing called life,right? So a couple years ago I lost someone very special to me, to a nasty thing called cancer and I’ve kept it a secret to myself (aside from those very very close to me) for probably a decade now. I never wanted to feel pitied and my brain just tried to remember as least of that part of my life as possible. I never fully accepted that this was now my reality and it’s still really hard for me to. But everyday I cry to myself thinking about the things I could have done, why I didn’t do this then, why why why etc. I was living in the past and not letting go of he fact that that person is no longer in my life. I was fine when others were around but I didn’t realize how much it was weighing me down and how much of a sad person it was making me when I was alone. But regardless I kept ignoring this feeling because I kept convincing myself that I was fine and I was stronger than that. I would wait year after year for the pain to get a little easier and a little better but I don’t think the pain of losing someone so special in your life will ever go away and I will still probably cry or tear up everyday because he will always remain in my thoughts. I heard from somewhere that as a practice of healing and letting go, you physically let an object go and let your pain go away with it. And at the lantern festival today where everyone had to write something on their lanterns, I thought about letting go of this pain I’ve held on for so long that I’ve ignored. And not saying this practice actually works but why not give it a shot, right? And maybe it was all the music and the emotions from this festival itself, but it definitely had an impact on me. My thoughts had a shift in direction in making a promise to myself to let go of the past and the pain that I’ve carried by myself for so long and to really live my life with or without that person. So here’s to letting go, being more vulnerable, and starting a new promised chapter in my life. (at Plantation Field Horse Trials)

[ggujuh]

To actually facing my problems and to a better future✨ - - So I’m not the best when it comes to being vulnerable in person or on social media..but we’re all just tryna better ourselves and have our own experiences in this thing called life,right? So a couple years ago I lost someone very special to me, to a nasty thing called cancer and I’ve kept it a secret to myself (aside from those very very close to me) for probably a decade now. I never wanted to feel pitied and my brain just tried to remember as least of that part of my life as possible. I never fully accepted that this was now my reality and it’s still really hard for me to. But everyday I cry to myself thinking about the things I could have done, why I didn’t do this then, why why why etc. I was living in the past and not letting go of he fact that that person is no longer in my life. I was fine when others were around but I didn’t realize how much it was weighing me down and how much of a sad person it was making me when I was alone. But regardless I kept ignoring this feeling because I kept convincing myself that I was fine and I was stronger than that. I would wait year after year for the pain to get a little easier and a little better but I don’t think the pain of losing someone so special in your life will ever go away and I will still probably cry or tear up everyday because he will always remain in my thoughts. I heard from somewhere that as a practice of healing and letting go, you physically let an object go and let your pain go away with it. And at the lantern festival today where everyone had to write something on their lanterns, I thought about letting go of this pain I’ve held on for so long that I’ve ignored. And not saying this practice actually works but why not give it a shot, right? And maybe it was all the music and the emotions from this festival itself, but it definitely had an impact on me. My thoughts had a shift in direction in making a promise to myself to let go of the past and the pain that I’ve carried by myself for so long and to really live my life with or without that person. So here’s to letting go, being more vulnerable, and starting a new promised chapter in my life. (at Plantation Field Horse Trials)

[ggujuh]

To actually facing my problems and to a better future✨ - - So I’m not the best when it comes to being vulnerable in person or on social media..but we’re all just tryna better ourselves and have our own experiences in this thing called life,right? So a couple years ago I lost someone very special to me, to a nasty thing called cancer and I’ve kept it a secret to myself (aside from those very very close to me) for probably a decade now. I never wanted to feel pitied and my brain just tried to remember as least of that part of my life as possible. I never fully accepted that this was now my reality and it’s still really hard for me to. But everyday I cry to myself thinking about the things I could have done, why I didn’t do this then, why why why etc. I was living in the past and not letting go of he fact that that person is no longer in my life. I was fine when others were around but I didn’t realize how much it was weighing me down and how much of a sad person it was making me when I was alone. But regardless I kept ignoring this feeling because I kept convincing myself that I was fine and I was stronger than that. I would wait year after year for the pain to get a little easier and a little better but I don’t think the pain of losing someone so special in your life will ever go away and I will still probably cry or tear up everyday because he will always remain in my thoughts. I heard from somewhere that as a practice of healing and letting go, you physically let an object go and let your pain go away with it. And at the lantern festival today where everyone had to write something on their lanterns, I thought about letting go of this pain I’ve held on for so long that I’ve ignored. And not saying this practice actually works but why not give it a shot, right? And maybe it was all the music and the emotions from this festival itself, but it definitely had an impact on me. My thoughts had a shift in direction in making a promise to myself to let go of the past and the pain that I’ve carried by myself for so long and to really live my life with or without that person. So here’s to letting go, being more vulnerable, and starting a new promised chapter in my life. (at Plantation Field Horse Trials)

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