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My blog for anything I wanna post, hence why its general. Ask me anything <3

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uuuuggghhhh :(

Pains particularly bad today. Le sigh :((

Luckily its situated mostly in my left knee, but theres also some in my right hand, so its kinda hard to draw. Feels like I can barely walk, and it sucks moving my hands, but I managed to work out today! I've been meaning to do so for a while, missed my muscles and was sad they were weakening. Buuuutt it was hard since, ya know. My knee.

If anyone is curious what it feels like, Imagine people were playing tug of war with your arms. Pulling and pulling and pulling until it feels like your arms are gonna be ripped off. They keep pulling at that strength, never pulling hard enough to actually lose them, and then they stop. Theyre still pulling but its a little more bearable.

I guess you could also say I feel like a ball jointed doll with too loose strings, it sucks :( And my head hurts :((((

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Marrow concepts

Marrow is a lizardman, Jacque Clawd (Mimic) is a dragon

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Ima doodle I might finish

Non graphic body horror: multiple eyes, teeth, and (jellyfish) tentacles

For the first few months of Ima's life she was locked in a blank room with nothing but pictures of Evelyn. The jellyfish and fish are there because her soul is from a jellyfish (not getting into all that). She would go crazy if this were her life in the current part of the story, but luckily its not. At the time she didn't really have a personality, and since her only form of stimulation was looking at the paintings and pictures, she put all her effort into looking exactly like Evelyn. She already had a good base since her body is made out of Evelyn's corpse :P.

The guy on the right is Robert, Evelyn's father. He's the one who got the idea to make Ima (he has SUCH a bad way of grieving, not getting into it) In his eyes all he can see is his poor daughter recovering after a traumatic accident. He learns to stop calling her Evelyn though, once she decides her own name.

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Messed up the posting of this drawing, so im just gonna link the post I made in the small artists community

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Stupid wip of my bb Ima <3 She's for my story Mudfish, shes a "prophet" who was trained to detect other mimics. She's one of the scientists

Tada

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3 cars

I have 4 and a dog who thinks shes a car

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I FORGOT TO MAKE SOMETHING FOR 4/13 HELP

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Stupid caine filler post i made

Id take him to funky town <33 I love him. Hes such a loser /p

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Avoiding drawing that turn around so much i'm animating his design instead. This is the animation with no storyboard btw, i don't go in this clean first try. Ig you could say its a pepsicola animation but whtvr. I'm going to draw dave later since im lazy and also hand pain + risk of wrist pain <//3

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Stupid dave design is almost done btw

Daves design has honestly been the hardest to me. I draw him a lot but never in his gtier design, so i didn't know how to draw him. John was easy, KK was easy, but DAVE??? dave SUCKED. still don't know how to do the other trolls yet tho, oops. Rose and Jade don't have sketched out designs yet, still trying to figure out how to draw Rose, but their designs are prolly gonna be easy to (Since they're girls and I ADORE drawing magical girls, can't wait to put them in so many frills.

I'm prolly gonna do another animation practice since I haven't been able to draw, but thats going to be in a health update and not a monomag one. Basically my hands hurt.

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John's design is almost done :3

Almost done with Johns design, just need to make the final turn around and yeh :D! No progress pictures because I don't feel like taking pictures of notebooks.

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Item: A Crumpled Manual Rarity: ⏶ Common

Do you skip tutorials as fast as you can?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

yes >:3

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Bring The Hate Like an 808 sneak peak 1

Lil sneak peak of this god forsaken animatic. also its NOT stridercest, if you support that dni because thats grody. Lowkey my fault for doing a love song but I felt like it went along with my headcanons. Okur so basically Bro and Dave are like really dependent on eachother. thats it/jay.

Dave thinks bro is hot shit, supports him no matter what, etc and it gets to a point where everything is revolving around him. I mean we literally see this in the comic, Daves main hobby is his hobby because his brother thinks its cool. He 100% would never touch rapping if not for Bro. And all his other hobbies are revolving around bro to because while bro doesn't partake in them, daves main reason for doing them was to be "ironic" which was bros whole schtick.

Bro however doesn't love dave as much as dave loves him. He cares about dave but surely doesn't love him. And this is the thing people kinda ignore, Bro doesn't hate dave. Bro is a very morally grey character, he forces dave to fight him, tried to throw him off the roof when he was a baby, doesn't feed him right, etc. On the other hand, he cut a meteor in half to buy dave more time, gave him the only bedroom in their apartment, provides various things for him to pursue his hobbies, and besides jade he has the most devices, most of which being the newer ones. My headcanon is Dave is Bro's rock of sorts. He feels like he can't kill himself because he has a kid to look over. He doesn't do a good job at it but hey. In my head him not feeding dave is less him not caring about dave and moreso he just forgets. He probably doesn't feed himself either considering theres no food inside their apartment. Yes he's still neglectful and def shouldn't have a kid but he's trying at the very least.

It kinda sucks that most songs about toxic/abusive relationships are about romantic relationships. Especially because I haven't found a song about toxic familial relationships in this style at all. Kinda forces me to find a way to twist the lyrics into a way that isn't romantic. It's the hardest part about this god forsaken song. Ofc I love it, I actually haven't gotten this far on any of my animatics before, I'm like halfway done with my sketch, but I don't want to have to use songs like this for family members. I have no clue what im going to do for "and if your damn fine, then i'll bring my love like a 909" because you don't call your family members hot, thats crazy. I thought about changing the lyrics into ones that sound similar, one commenter on yt thought the line said "and if youre dead, fine, then I'll give my life like a 909" and thats good, that fits them, but I don't know how to do that if I don't like adding lyrics to my animatics. I never have and I tried I did but I dont know how. anywho, im trying my darndest. I wanna finish the sketch tomorrow since it takes the longest in my process. I've been working on it on and off for about a month, most of the work has been done in the last week. You can see exactly where I went back to keep working on it because I changed brushes lol. Yeah I only did 2 frames gave up and came back like 3 weeks later my fault. I added some text, h8ted it, deleted the layer, and I'm never going back :3 If I do end up doing text I'll probably just add it like captions to the bottom in the end because I HATE doing cReAtIvE typesetting it's gen going to make me pull a dirk/j/j/j

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Monomag changeeeeee

changed the system of monomag, i lowkey wasn't fw my old system. before it was magic coin/crystal thing + cherished item = magical transformation. I did NOT wanna make that many items lol. I kinda got stuck at dave which was REALLY bad since i was deciding between him or karkat being the main character for the au. Rn it's a lot less complicated and a lot more related to my main inspo for the au. At the moment people who make deals with their respective higher beings (dark gods from derse, light gods (? clouds???) from prospit.) and get a coin/crystal thing which l8r gets imbeded into their skin if/when they accept the deal. Dave has access to derse dsomfg theres a sharp ahh pain in my left boobie im so srry this is gonna be wrtited so bad omfg HELP. Anyways, dave has access to derse, but isn't aligned with his god. Rose tells him to do the whole take off sunglassess schtick and then he's aligned. I'll actually make this make since later when im not in crippling pain like frfr WHY does my body hurt so bad send help :(

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It's Been a Year

It's been a year, simple as that. Technically 2 I guess but that doesn't really matter. It has been an entire year since I somewhat regularly posted on youtube. It was an uphill battle, still don't know how artists can pump out videos like that, and I don't think I ever will. Going through that journey made me realize youtube just isn't for me, yet I still post. Why? I belive the answer is that I still love the art. I was just looking through my old animatics, the ones I stupidly decided to color, and I was filled with so much joy watching my creations, seeing how far I've come, just looking at them. I've avoided looking at my channel. Regularly want to scrape it and disappear yet again. Yet for some reason I adore watching those old animations. This has been the first time in years that I actually went and looked at the art I made from just a year or two ago, instead of the art I made at the start of my journey, and all I can really say is that it has truly been a year. I found art I loved, art I hated, art I liked the idea of but couldn't execute, I found it all. And I was filled with so much adoration for all of them. I want to make art. I want to share art. I want people who love art to see my art, because I love my work.

I'll never want to be an artist. I hate art, I love art, and everything in between. I don't even know if I'll actually post more stuff, if I'll ever finish my project board, if I'll ever touch my wips, make my game, I don't know if I'll even have the mental capacity to handle any of them, but I want to try. I want to post art. I hate being seen but those drawings can be an exception. I don't even like making art for youtube, it's too much pressure, but I want to try. I want to try because after all the suffering, the turmoil, the rebirthed hatred for the arts, I still look back and love them. I want to post art for me to feel happy later, for me to cringe later, for me to love later. I won't make any promises, I've tried that all my life, but I will at the vary least try, as trying is all I've known.

Have a good day, and hey! In case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and goodnight.

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Monochrome Magical test animation.

This is pretty much how I want to start off his transformation. Also you'll never guess who inspired this. I'll give you a hint, they're angels who turn clothing into weaponry

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I feel like a walking corpse.

I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like I can feel myself rotting away, day after god awful day. I hate talking to people. I hate having to go to school. I hate the sound of my breath, the beat of my heart, why is this the cross I have to bear? I find myself thinking I wanna go home even when I'm already there. I hate the way I walk, the way I have to grip something just to stop myself from scratching, I hate that I scratch. I wake up everyday feeling dead. It's almost as if I'm a walking corpse, rotting and rotting and rotting. Yet whenever I ask for help, no one hears. I hate that they think I'm joking. I hate that I always make it a joke. I'm writing this for no rhyme or reason, just want to say it. I'm not ok. I'm really, truly, definitely not okay. The sounds around me are deafening, and I wanna go home. I wanna go home so bad, but I'm already here. I hate that I can never remember anything, I hate that I can never remember the things that help me remember, I hate forgetting the things I remembered to help me remember. I hate it here. It's like my brain is seeping through my ears, along with my memories, my hope, my will. I don't know if anyone see's the death in my eyes, the way I'm never really all the way there. I don't know if they'll ever hear the flies buzzing around me. I don't know if they'll ever smell the stench coming off me. I'm not sure if they're ever were there. I don't know if I'm alive, but I sure do feel like a walking corpse.

Oh well, nobody will see this anyways, they never do.

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um haiii your art is really good nd i really like it sjfkghdhsjsjdjhfhsb um bye *runs away*

Why thank you :D! <333 also that username is so peak oml