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MaDD, autism, ADHD, and NPD (and more but that's all i'm saying here)

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this is just where i talk about my npd stuff

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the symptoms of npd are discussed in only how other people perceive them, but only when they already decided that the person experiencing those symptoms is a narcissist.

the symptom "needs control in uncomfortable situations to feel safe" is in a *lot* of mental illness, but when it appears in npd? it's described as a desire to dominate others for the sake of their evil superiority complex.

needing constant reassurance from others is a symptom of a lot of mental illness too, anxiety disorders as a big one, but in npd it's described as manipulating people into being nice to them to feed their ego.

even just *masking* their mental illness is seen as a plot in the narcissist's evil plan.

all of these symptoms are seen as neutral as a baseline, until you decide a person experiencing these has a "bad" mental illness instead of something that's been watered down and quirkified. like autism, which npd shares a lot of similar traits with

it seems to a lot of people, npd is what you get when you're a *bad* autistic person.

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tags everyone should read

#thank you prev i love these tags a lot

omg. maybe i am smart

I think the other thing about autism and NPD is that, on average, autistic people are more narcissistic than the general population (and this doesn’t shock me considering how conductive masking long term would be to developing NPD traits). It’s crazy how even other autistic people will claim how they’re immune to narcissists or rant on about how much they hate narcissists

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#ask #anon

the symptoms of npd are discussed in only how other people perceive them, but only when they already decided that the person experiencing those symptoms is a narcissist.

the symptom "needs control in uncomfortable situations to feel safe" is in a *lot* of mental illness, but when it appears in npd? it's described as a desire to dominate others for the sake of their evil superiority complex.

needing constant reassurance from others is a symptom of a lot of mental illness too, anxiety disorders as a big one, but in npd it's described as manipulating people into being nice to them to feed their ego.

even just *masking* their mental illness is seen as a plot in the narcissist's evil plan.

all of these symptoms are seen as neutral as a baseline, until you decide a person experiencing these has a "bad" mental illness instead of something that's been watered down and quirkified. like autism, which npd shares a lot of similar traits with

it seems to a lot of people, npd is what you get when you're a *bad* autistic person.

#actually npd #actuallynpd #npd #there are differences in npd and autism for sure.#but the general public sees the overlapping symptoms and decides that npd is essentially evil autism

the way people talk about npd is how they used to talk about autism lol

#actually npd #actuallynpd #npd

if you have npd and have started some huge internet drama because of a wrongdoing you did, the best thing to do is apologize and log off.

any attempt to protect your ego from criticism in this situation will only cause the inevitable narc crash to hurt even more.

you don't even have to be genuine in your apology, just get the fuck off tumblr for a while.

#this is a vaguepost.#iykyk #npd #actually npd #actuallynpd

sodapillz

UHHH…. EXCUSE ME?!!??!!!?

sodapillz

She deleted the tiktok.

HIP HIP HORRAYYYYY 🎉

#and still people think that pwnpd are being overly sensitive when we say that using narcissist as an insult is ableist #when this is the average narcissistic abuse believer

scrolling through my own blog rn...my god am i right about everything! i should post here more.

Not sure what is more based: your blog or your username

heehee, thank you :3

#asks

This is a serious question, and out of curiosity-

You’ve mentioned in a lot of posts how you fundamentally consider all egotypicals to be inferior beings, and that even when they’re your friends, you consider them to be nothing more than objects for your own fulfilment-

In this case, why does it bother you if they’re bigoted towards NPD? In the same way that eg, I wouldn’t care about a mosquito’s opinions of me?

it isn't egotypicals. it is people in general. there are quite a lot of people with npd that i explicitly consider lower than me lol. and people with npd who i've also used as objects.

and to answer your question:

when people are bigoted it tends to negatively impact me in multiple ways. to put it simply.

if the *only* way anti npd sentiment impacted me was people saying mean things about me on the internet or whatever, then i wouldn't really give a shit. but it impacts how medical professionals will treat me, how the legal system will treat me. it is a form of oppression.

it is similar to fatphobia. hi, fat guy here. i love my body, but i can't love myself out of systemic oppression. doctors will still give me subpar medical treatment whether or not i love my body, or if i care about what skinny people think about me.

even then, if anti npd bigotry did tend to *only* manifest on a social level, that still negatively impacts me a lot too. as a real life example: my ex friend, who also had npd, used anti npd sentiment as a tool to isolate me from my former friends. how am i supposed to not care about that?

also, a lot of my npd symptoms can manifest as "i need everyone to love me", so people hating me, even when i don't like them at all, actually *destroys* my mental state. this isn't as bad as it used to be in the past though, thankfully. probably because i actually dealt with people *hating* me now, so i know how to emotionally deal with it.

#ask #anon #actually npd #actuallynpd #npd #cluster b #personality disorder #actually narcissistic #anon I'm not mad or anything fyi #this was a good question to think about and respond to

morbidbina

i feel like its not talked about enough that pwNPD split too and thats so dumb. when i try to do research on npd splitting i just get a bunch of ableist bullshit.

no actually my eyes dont turn pitch black and i dont start levitating and speaking in curses when i split

i don't even entirely disagree with people who say "narcissism doesn't equal npd", but i find them to be incredibly annoying, so i block on principle. doesn't help that 99% of the time they're actually ableist LOL

#actually npd #actuallynpd #npd #''narcissism /= npd so that means i can use narcissistic abuse and call people i don't like narcissists 💖💖'' fuck off and die

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NPD Resources Masterlist

[BPD]

The official resources masterlist for NPD. Includes all the links I've shared in the past and stuff I haven't.

Any posts I've linked about supporting those with NPD have been put in the misc section because I do not want to take away from what this post is really about, which is helping people with NPD, not the people around them.

Diagnostic criteria

NPD diagnostic criteria, rewritten by someone who has it

Official diagnostic criteria

An explanation of the diagnostic criteria

Recovery resources FOR the narcissist

NPD recovery resources

How to find therapy for NPD, common types of therapy and signs of an abusive/toxic therapist

Narcissist supply

What is narc supply?

Things that can give a narcissist supply

NPD stigma

The perception of NPD symptoms vs. how a narcissist might actually experience them

Why those with NPD have a hard time seeking help (spoiler alert: it's not because they're unaware)

A plea from someone with NPD (and some resources debunking common misconceptions)

Narcissism is not abusive / abuse is abusive

Debunking common myths on NPD

Common disproven myths about NPD

Miscellaneous

How to support someone with NPD

NPD Carrd (What is NPD, dpt skills and self-help)

Unravelling the connection: npd as a trauma response

NPD terminology (do's and dont's)

NPD safe blogs

@empath-abuse-awareness

@enigma-in-reality

@loverofmirage

@the-npd-culture-is

@nicepersondisorder

@theegosystem

@mischiefmanifold

NPD positivity so you don't have to go looking

Reblog to kiss a narcissist on the forehead

Reblog to tell your local narcissist that they're the best ever

Happy NPD appreciation day

Positivity for systems with NPD

Be normal about narcissists unless it's to give them love

NPD should be EPD (Epic Personality Disorder)

Of course I have a praise kink, I have NPD

Narcissists are so beautiful and handsome and wonderful

Positivity for narcissists who like sex

I love my narcissists

Aromantic narcissists are amazing

Narcissists I love you

Easy ways to spot a narcissist (it's not what you think <;3)

Narcissists deserve to be loved

As usual, if something needs to be deleted because it's wrong/comes from a toxic author/etc. please let me know. I tried to look on Google but all I found was ableist shit, so these are all found by your fellow narcissists on tumblr :)

Edit: If you have any resources, please send them to me through an ask or DM and i'll check it out/add it!

i think the worst part of being mentally ill is when you have no idea what made you like this.

"symptoms with no memories to explain them"

in my case. i wonder if i did this to myself. like, literally.

and i wonder if that would make me less sympathetic if that was the truth. if my personality disorder didn't come from childhood trauma or extreme abuse, but from me being an idiot and accidentally fucking up my brain.

when i was 14, i made a conscious decision to change my thoughts and personality. i grew tired and bored of my 5 year long pity party and self hate. so, i decided to change. to appear more confident and arrogant. whenever i would think bad about myself, i would block it out with self praise. doing everything i possibly could to hide away my insecurities and inferiorities. protecting my ego no matter what.

what inspired this all was when i heard a quote in a youtube video, "depression is just another form of narcissism".

i was just so tired.

and i wanted something new.

that quote became my new life purpose.

...

....

.....or maybe i was like this way for a long time. and the only thing that changed was how i presented my symptoms. i became more "overt", (as much as i hate that word...) as a way to cope with other stressors in my life.

there is evidence to support this too.

i had quite a few childhood experiences that were most definitely narcissistic crashes. and the way my parents raised me when i was a little kid was *perfect* for me developing a superiority complex. but that's all i remember when it comes to that.

(but maybe suffering from suicidal depression starting from the age of 9 is enough for me to develop a personality disorder. maybe that's the truth of this?)

(...but is it really that simple? would i be satisfied if that *was* true? would i *ever* be satisfied with *anything?*)

either way. i don't have any memories of abusive parents or traumatic experiences to explain why i'm like this. as to why i'm *this* fucked up. if i'm this mentally unwell, then surely there has to be a reason for it, right?

a lot of npd advocacy is, "we were abused too! npd is a trauma disorder that comes from abuse!"

what am i then, if i don't have anything to justify all of this? am i just an exception that should be hidden away because it makes the rest of the community look bad?

(even if i do have something major repressed. framing anti-npd ableism as bad *because* we apparently are all also victims of abuse isn't the right optics. anti npd-ableism is bad because we shouldn't be bigoted against the mentally ill.)

i just don't know why i'm like this. and i'm scared that i don't have a "good enough" reason to have developed npd.

#actually npd #actuallynpd #npd #cluster b #personality disorder #actually narcissistic