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SW: 220 GW1: 200 UGW: 115

[road-to-80lbs-deactivated202001]

Just me? Yeah, Okay.

Does anyone else just wanna say “fuck it I’ll be fat” and let yourself binge your life away but you also want to be skinny and underweight but you also just wanna be normal but you can’t and you just wanna get out of this horrible hole but you can’t and that makes you emotional so you wanna binge but you can’t binge because you’ll get fat? No? Okay.

[atriasortis]

ult masterpost

1. HYGIENE

do your skincare routine every single mornin' and night.

take shower everyday.

shave your armpits everyday.

shave your legs every week *less if its winter*.

brush teeth twice a day.

do your hair routine every day, including washing routine every two days.

always apply deodorant and perfume or perfume mist.

once a week do a whole spa routine. *nail care, mask sheets, peelings and more deep treatments.*

try to moistruize your skin everyday

2. APPEARANCE

always look presentable in public.

always when in public apply at least conceler, or bb cream and so on.

always dress nicely.

keep your hair done, even if just stretched or curled.

keep your nails filed and clean, better if painted.

always wear minimalistic jewellery.

keep yourself shaved.

3. ETIQUETTE

never speak too loudly.

never scream or argue with someone.

be delicate with everything.

be patient be polite and nice to everyone. always say hello to your neighbour teachers, friends when you pass on streets.

smile often.

never talk with full mouth.

keep your elbows off the table when you eat.

do small talk;

2. How to start? Here are some basic phrases: Have you done anything intresting this weekend? Im looking forwars for weekend. Do you too? Have you any intresting plans? You did so great today at class! Is something bothering you? You look worried/sad/tired You have so nice t-shirt/make-up/ hairstyle // I love your hair/make-up/ phone case etc. "just compliment someone it always works, you can ask them after where did they bought it, or where got inspiration if its hairstyle or make-up

Try to make people talk about what they want to talk, not what you want to talk. That will make them think, your intrested in their lives, and people just like to talk about themselves

4. Be warm, and try to make people comfortable while they with you, don't run out with you eyes try to lock your eyes with one your talking with

3. Be open and don't judge

5. Gesticulate. Don't stand with your hands not moving, and head stead. It makes you look stressed and unnatural.

6. See the beauty in every single person

7. Share your life with others, but try not to focus conversation just on you. Look at point

8. Build trust.

9. If you have things in common show them that, and talk about it. (my tip are TV series, I mean I watched probably every single show, so to find the one in common with somebody isn't that hard. Also kpop or oder music genre is thing you can converse about a lot. )

be a good friend:

reply to messeges.

2. Be a good listener, try to maintain eye contact, and don't interrupt.

Be a best friend to others at first.

1. think more about them than about yourself, be for them not for yourself*

3. Be honest

4. Keep what your friends say to you in secret.

5. Be loyal, and stand up for your friends.

6. Be supportive, try to give advice.

7. Keep messaging them, give them your attention.

8. Say nice things about your friends to other people.

9. Compromise. Never argue.

10. Be open.

pay attention to your family.

think before you speak.

be helpful.

dont complain too much.

dont overshare.

4. SCHOOL

at class always pay attention, try to write everything down, try to be active.

do your homework the day it was given.

do your notes after every lesson, be sistematic.

dont skip important lessons. be minimim 10 minutes earlier to every class.

always give your essays in first termin. do all extras.

go to dentist every 6 months.

study minimum for hour every day.

5. ORGANZATION

go to hairdresser every 3 months.

keep your room clean - vaccum every week and every two weeks change the sheets.

pack your bag day before classes.

every sunday plan your meals and outfits for the rest of week.

try to go out at least once a week.

try not to eat when alone.

dont eat anything until you dont count and write down the calories.

6. FOOD

drink at least one cup of green tea a day.

dont overeat.

eat between 500-1000 kcal

[ghostlybee]

oof

had a panic attack because i’ve gained about 3 pounds in the past few days :)) i’m so disgusted with myself like i can’t even i was making such good progress and now i’ve set myself back so much what the fuck

[ghostlybee]

i’m down to 203 and i like don’t see a difference between me at 207 and at 203 and it’s making me SAD

[ghostlybee]

my mom commented on my weight loss

my family used to always make fun of my weight even tho i was the smallest in the house. they always commented on my stretch marks and my stomach (i carry almost all of my weight in my stomach). today i was standing in the living room watching what my mom was watching and she looked over at me and she says, “you look so good!! you’ve lost a lot of weight!” and i just about cried right there

[ghostlybee]

i lost track of myself. i’ve been a little depressed and i have been binging a bit more and just not caring about my progress. i came back and i saw my photos and how far i’ve come and was filled with immense guilt. i told myself i wouldn’t go into my 20s at over 200 pounds and i mean that. i won’t disappoint myself

[sleepy-babbles]

Imagine..

Imagine being able to wear anyone’s hoodie

Imagine being able to wear cropped tops and looking small rather than a potato

Imagine not being afraid you’re too wide to walk behind things

Imagine being able to be small enough to fit cute bras

Imagine being able to wear jeans and not have your stomach stick out

Imagine a cute boy looking at you because you’re attractive, not because you look like a blob

Imagine not sweating or being out of breath so much from just walking

Imagine the doctors not judging you for being overweight

Imagine looking good in nudes, and in bed

Imagine being able to go to normal everyday stores and being able to fit in their clothes.

Imagine looking into the mirror and not crying for once

Imagine being comfortable and happy with your body

[ghostlybee]

hello new followers!!

so i got a lot of new followers thanks to my progress pic post! i just wanted to say hello! i will answer any questions u have! if u want to DM me feel free!

a quick little about me

i’m currently 209 pounds, i’m 19, and i live in the eastern united states!

i’m always down to chat so as i said feel free to DM me and we can chat!!

i love u all please stay safe and drink water!!

[ghostlybee]

progress.

these pictures were taken 12 days apart. in just twelve days i lost 5 pounds and i look. so different. my progress has been a little slower than i was hoping but i’m getting there. i will reach my goal. i already look different, at least i think so. i’m here to tell u u can do it. u can reach ur goal. just stick to it. some days i binge a little and i was still losing weight. i’m still getting smaller. soon, i will be where i want to be and this will all have been worth it

[forever-hollow-cheeked]

Shout Out

To all those who have an Ed that

1. Have never passed out

2. Aren’t underweight

3. Have no “health symptoms”

4. People don’t ask about your intake

5. Feel invalid

6. Think they are faking it

💖I love you💖

I am so sorry that you feel this way. You are valid. You are not faking anything. You can always message me. I wish you the very best.

[dietnicoteen]

things i am capable of:

surviving on less than 800 calories for weeks at a time

eating 3000+ calories in one sitting

things i am not capable of:

anything in between

[aesthetically-thin-and-pleasing]

Shitty ED Things When You Start At a Higher Weight:

-It’s a lot harder to start fasting and restricting, you’re like, 10X more hungry the SECOND you even think of a fast (this applies to anyone in ED community, honestly)

-You daydream of even hitting 200 pounds, but then regret even wanting that goal because you feel it would bring shame among the ED community.

-You lose 60+ pounds and you can’t tell much of a difference other than in your fingers and MAYBE your wrists and face.

-IT IS STILL POSSIBLE TO FAINT, EVEN OVER 200 POUNDS, YOU CAN STILL FAINT IF YOU DO NOT EAT. I can’t get that one across enough.

-The shakes that happen because of the dramatic decreases in sugar, almost like a withdrawal.

-That horrible feeling when you finally decide to eat something after starving for a week, only to have someone comment on what you’re eating, immediately making you regret it.

-Trying to make yourself throw up, but because you’re heavier it makes it harder to breathe in between the spews, so actual vomiting is just rare.

-Feeling super happy because you’ve finally dropped a couple of sizes in pants, but then feeling guilty for being happy because you’re glad you’re a size 16 now, when you feel you should be lower.

-Struggling for so long (like, years) but not having anyone take notice because you’re heavier and you haven’t really lost that much weight, maybe you’ve even gained.

-The lack of concern from others when you don’t eat.

-Not feeling like your binge eating is a valid disorder because it’s the opposite of what everyone else thinks when they hear “Eating disorder”.

-Everyone’s. Unwanted. Comments. About. Weight loss. Even though you know literally everything about the “healthy way”, it still feels easier to just stick to your disorder rather than recover.

-“I’ll recover when I drop at least 50 more pounds, because then people will start to believe I actually have a disorder.”

This is honestly just a rant post because I feel like a lot of people on ED Tumblr don’t really recognize heavier set anas. We are here. We’re struggling too. We are just as valid.

[fat-sad-dissapointment]

damn....

[ghostlybee]

i’m almost below 200 pounds and it feels so fucking good

[repugnance]

I'm in control

☆ I'm in control because I don't think thinner is better. I really have a UGW and I'll stop when I reach my goal.

☆ I'm in control because all i do for weight loss is taking less cals, burning more. I'd never use chemicals to make me eat less.

☆ I'm in control because it's not just about being skinny for me. It's about loving myself and to be the best version of myself. And this version cannot shove food to her face every time she's sad/angry/bored.

☆ I'm in control because I'm aware of my eating disorder. I don't deny or ignore it. And this makes me the one who's controlling the situation, not Ana.

☆ I'm in control because I know what happens when you lose the control. I hope everyone who's struggling with ed gets the help/care they need before they got hurt.

[ghostlybee]

i’ve lost 2 inches in my waist in 10 days!!! y’all!! this is so exciting!!

[catceramic]

I✨wish✨I’d✨just✨starve✨to✨ death✨already

[ghostlybee]

calorie tracking apps

“bAsEd On uR tOtAl cAlOriE iNtAkE Ur nOt EaTinG eNoUgH” head ass. let me count my cals in peace u bitch