Phosphor Thoughts

[zegalba]

Owls create snow angel imprints while hunting in winter when they swoop down to catch mice or squirrels.

[maorisakai]

[ghostofcountries]

Hi there,im here with another story today.I know i didnt write something for so long but now im here.This is story of NotGentleman(NG) NG is a guy who is at our school,he is interesting,he seems very innocent and he talks very innocent.I dont know why but peoples usually dont listen him,he seems like he is thinking for something when you look at him.When you listen him,he is always talking with you,you are thinking he is deeply person but unfortunalety he is not.He seems deeply but when you learn his opinions you are getting dissapointed.He is just like any other boys.He says he loves reading but he only loves hard things,he is nasty and he is kidding with bad boys but he is trying to be one actually.He is too caare other peoples thinks but not in a good way.He moves like a gentleman,he seems like deeply lover but he actually loves fuck.Like how lots of boys love it.This is so obvious he got lots of problems with his family,maybe they are not big things or they are but he doesnt want to other peoples get information about him.But also he wants.And he is thikin about peoples,he has got opinions about you and if you are not like in his opiniouns he gets angry.He had a girlfriend,she was so cute.But when i first time see them,this boy will break this girls heart.Cause he looks like a gentleman and romantic but he is actually a little dark or he wants to be dark.But NG did it,he breaked up with her,he never seems like he loves her,he always seeming like he doesnt even give a fuck about her and he wasnt.Then he breaked up,probabaly little girl really get sad im not sure i didnt see her but im pretty sure she is sad.NG trying to figure it out who is he but i  think he cant findt it this is driving him crazy.He is not sure how he moves he seems careless but he is take care about peoples.NG is the man who you should stay away from him.Be  a friend,girlfriend not important but he breaks hearts.I’m sad who is love him friendly or something else.But he also moves so kind so he connects the peoples to himself... Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you…

[ghostofcountries]

Sorry,i dont write something here for long time.I’m gonna talk about Monster again.Monster really have got a big fobby.I really hate from school but this hate is not ordinary,it is a real fobby.I never like the school,highschool was a hell for me but now university is worst.Because now im far away from my family too,i didnt choice a close school to the city.University is on one end of the country and home is on one end of the country.Missing someone is sucks,especially when it is your family.I need them and they need me but im scared as fuck when they need me i wouldnt be there or when i need them,they wouldnt be there.It is not my first year but it is still a nightmare... Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you…

[ghostofcountries]

This is kinda different story.Because this is my story not all of it of course but just a little part.My nickname is Monster.I’m writing this cause i had a breaking point couple days ago.I’m usually not in suicidal thoughts or i guess i dont,i mean maybe i am,not sure about this.Whatever i had a really big fight with my dad,it wasnt little thing,it was about my future it was about who am i and who am i  not and it was also about my father.The father who never give his love to his daughter.And i lived a big anger burst,i dont even know how i did it but i find myself on windowsill.It was just about seconds,i was jumping but my father hold me.I didnt die,i dont even get any scars but my heart is not okay since that day.I cant believe i did it and i hate thinking again and again about it.Im also wonder about my parents thoughts,i mean they are seeming like they dont care about it but i cant know maybe they are.I’m in so deep thoughts and i cant save myself from it,i move so normal,im doing the things i always did but the words,the voices and the things i lived they are all in my mind.Yes,im Monster,this is a chapter from my life. Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you…

[ghostofcountries]

There is some peoples who really being your bestfriend when you dont really hope it.This peoples are full of suprises,i mean you are thinking she is shallow and maybe she is really shallow but you still love her whatever happens.Yeah,this is one of my bestfriends story so her nickname is BestFriend just like you guess.She is a little weird and she looks like a side charachter when you look from strangers eye.It’s like she doesnt has a story and joining someone else’s story.But she is not,she has a story.She wants improve herself but she doesnt know how is she gonna do that.BestFriend loving peoples even when they are really bad but if you get her hate she is not begging.BestFriend is judgemental but she doesnt accept that,she seems naive and sometimes she is but most time she is not.So when peoples moving like she is naive she understands everything and she is hiding this like a gun.For shooting this peoples when she needs and when they hurt her.First this is like harmless and even useful but she is acting like this everytime so this is uncomfortable (she is doing this for everybody,even bestfriends and family).BestFriend dont talking too much about her family and she says its everything okay with my life,i have no reason for being unhappy and my family dont have any problems.But we know she has problems,every family have got some problems.She is not hiding this because of defence,she is hiding cause she is shamefull,when you push her she is telling you what is her problems.BestFriend dont have a career plan,she is not looking at future and i think this will be a real problem for her.For a minute you are thinking she is clever and deeply but then she is destroying it so badly.You dont know actually,you need to love her or hate her.She hates her friends and who is around her,she thinks they are talking about her and making some rumors.She feels alone so she wants a boyfriend but she doesnt imagine like it’s a fairytale,she just wants cliches.May BestFriends has got some deep things but she is actually simple person. Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you…

[ghostofcountries]

Did you ever notice our generation or all of the generations are full of suicidal thoughts ? We cant be sure about peoples feelings never.But for me if someone really going to suicide she is not gonna talk about it or she is not gonna say she tried this.She can gives some tips but never so open.Whatever,let’s we meet another character,this is the story of LostGirl.She is very negative person,she only sees worst sides of the things.Depressed and she has no hesitate to tell something special about her life.She knows you or not,she is talking too much about her life.She likes attention and she is jealous about other girls,this is exactly her words,not my thoughts.But for me,yes she wants attention and get jealous other girls.She’s got really big problems about her family.Divorced mother and father,her family never been in love with each other,a marriage arrenged and her father hated from her mother,violence and really bad moves...So she is not seeing her father for years but she misses him but also she hates him,but she hates her grandparents and other family members either.Because they are sexist and they are trying to push her a cage,she actually lives in a cage.LostGirl giving this details to when she talks,almost every time.She is actually annoying the peoples cause she only cares about her problems and she always thinking she is living the worst things ever.She is also bisexual but she doesnt share this with everyone,she keeps this like a secret but she doesnt really care actually.About LostGirl,she always talking about she tried to suicide,she tried to jump from a high place,firstfull everyone listened to her cause everyone was worry.But then peoples thought,she is trying to get attention just like always she did and unfourtunately she is probably really doing this.She is copying the other peoples,she moves how peoples want,she says what peoples like.You cant understand what is LostGirl really thinking cause she is lying lots.She is faking or not about suicide but my eyes on her,trying to help her but sometimes im thinking just she is acting like she needs help.Im not cruel right now but sometimes peoples act like that,well we’ll see. Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you…

[ghostofcountries]

Hey,this is the story of Director.I mean this is not of course his real name,im not gonna write this stories with their real name cause i dont any damage for them.Im gonna use random names or nicknames for my real life characters.Like i said this is the story of Director.Some of you can think he is weird cause he is not like the other boys.He has a big heart but he seems very rude person or maybe uncareless.But he is not,he cares,he cares really to much.He is gay but he is not sure about his feelings,he doesnt like girls for now but he says its can change.First,he didnt accept this but then now he is know he is gay he doesnt get shame for this.Just some of his friends know that but if you look carefully you can understand he is gay.And he didnt say to this everbody at school but gossips are everywhere.Peoples talking and judging and kidding and he just smiles to them.But after school he is crying in nights,he is the most funny person you ever met and he is popular and he wants to be popular.He likes attention,he wants to be famous but he doesnt know how he can do it but got some ideas.Director dont want to share with his family cause he knows reactions but somehow he told everything to his father.But his mother,dont know everything maybe she can guess but she doesnt get all the parts.Director wants a good career,he want good grades and a life so far away from the city he lives.His life is full of problems,his family absoletely a disaster and his “gay” problems are killing him everyday and how people react to him.His self-defence is being rude and being vain.So when you dont know him,he seems like selfish person and he doesnt care anyone without himself.But all this things are not his story’s painfull part.His painfull part started when he is just a kid but he cant hate anyone,he knows everything wrong and he just said to this his father but there is already nothing.In this story,i got a part too,i know his secret and this is killing me either.His secret is too big and i cant handle with it anymore but there is nothing i can do,this is just a little very little part of his life.And maybe next days you can get the whole story but not now.Dont forget it maybe one day your story can be here,this is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you...

[ghostofcountries]

Hey,it’s me a people from one of the countries.Did you ever notice someone around of you who is really unknown ? That because we are putting someone out or someone putting us out.We never dont talk with them,even we dont want to eye contact with them,they are too much weird and a little creepy right ? We are moving just like the others cause this is the easy way.Sometimes we are thinking this is what they did to themselves,they are out of us cause they wanted this,but we are missing a point,why? Why they are out of us and why they want this? We are cruel,no difference between high school or university we are all just cruel.There is popular table and loser table on our worlds and we are so obsessive with these,we cant accept there is another table in there.We just care about us,only us in a very selfishly way.But there is peoples,they are in pain for some reasons.Maybe they are from another country,another religion,another skin colour,another political opinion,another soccer team,another music taste,another some of the bullshits.But this is us with all another things.We have to accept this even whole world didnt want to that.We dont have to sit on popular table or loser table we can create our table.And this is what i wanted to do,im gonna write everyones little story in here.Who i know,who i dont know,who is popular,who is loser,who is not any of this.Im gonna write all the ghosts around us,all the invisible things.Maybe there is gonna be none reading but this is gonna be the proof they are to exist in this fucking world.This isnt has to be my story,this isnt has be my friends story but this can be their story too.This is the story of everyone we see and we couldnt see.XOXO There is someone seeing you...