Ghosts He Buried

thoughts and memories

[ghostsheburied]

I miss the years when I thought my mother could do no wrong. Happy Mother’s Day, Ima.

[ghostsheburied]

Humans are mirrors

We smile when we see someone smile

We yawn when we see someone yawn

We walk in step with each other

And our hearts beat in sync when we’re close

When you love the right person, they can’t help but love you back too

It’s nature

[ghostsheburied]

Longing is the knife that threads through my ribs, pierces my soul, and steals my crying breath.

[ghostsheburied]

I have no more fingers to count how much I miss you.

[ghostsheburied]

Let me pretend this was my fault, and not some cruel twist of fate. For if my hand caused this, surely it could fix it. Fate has no healing for my heart but time.

[ghostsheburied]

He fell for me first,

But I’ll love him longer.

[ghostsheburied]

My regrets are the ghosts who sing me lullabies in the graveyard of my grief.

[ghostsheburied]

I am a mirror shattered beyond recognition

My visage is trapped in the cracks

Who I was lies in glass dust

My reflection is in pieces

[ghostsheburied]

“If losing you doesn’t destroy me, was it really love?”

- Rabbi Manis Friedman

[ghostsheburied]

I did it for myself

Not for love for myself

But because you loved me

More than I ever could.

You’d be so proud of me.

[ghostsheburied]

Your soul and mine met before creation;

My soul is in agony;

It’s lost without yours.

[ghostsheburied]

I’m going to make sure you know how much I appreciate you,

And how much you deserve,

And how happy I am around you.

I know you get uncomfortable sometimes,

But it’s a good thing for you to realize

That this is the baseline of what should happen

When people really care for you.

So stop accepting less.

[ghostsheburied]

I cannot dance

But neither can you

I sing in the shower

And dance in the kitchen

I told you:

“You’ll hear one day”

And you replied:

“I’ll dance in that kitchen with you”

[ghostsheburied]

“We have all the time in the world”

I thought it was this Earth

I was wrong, I am here but

An eternity separates us.

[ghostsheburied]

I am haunted by the futures that have died

Their blood stains my hands

I held their final breaths in my palms

Their souls seep through my fingers.

[ghostsheburied]

I loved you like the dew loves the leaf.

You fell gently from above onto me,

As fresh as the morning breeze.

I held you in my verdant embrace.

You could not stay;

You have returned to the sky.

In my autumn grief I fall from the tree,

Withered on the ground.

One day, will you come down

And kiss me again?

The sun that burned me

Prevents our reunion.

[ghostsheburied]

I see him in everyone I meet,

I see his hair, his smile

I hear his words over theirs.

My eyes are full of reminders of him,

But my soul is starved for his.