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Hi i'm Alex. I'm 24. They/Them. Married. Local trash. I fuck shit up & I write

[ghosttfucker]

anyway my whole family has covid and I'm fucking stressed.

[ghosttfucker]

I just want to stop feeling so fucking depressed. so fucking empty.

[rachaelanthoney]

[alltimesos]

“are you ok?” no but I’m funny

[maureen2musings]

…

shreddin_kevin

[ghosttfucker]

how does one stop comparing every little move that i do to how far ahead everyone is from me ?

[evermore-fashion]

Chotronette ‘Armour Dress’ Haute Couture Gown [x]

[ghosttfucker]

when it all comes

will you miss me

[dawningcrow]

The smoking cat 2019 www.dawningcrow.com https://twitter.com/dawning_crow 

[thenatsdorf]

“I’m the king of the whirld” (via hunnies322)

[hanpancakes]

Cat study

[ghosttfucker]

oh fuck. I know I'm over thinking this but Jesus Christ I beg for it to be true.

[ghosttfucker]

it all hurts like fucking hell

[ghosttfucker]

I just need something to prove to me I'm worth loving when I'm not completely happy

I need something to extend to me patience and understanding

I need something to give me reasons

to show me love when I'm angry

when I'm sad

when I'm mean sometimes

I need something to make me feel heard

[ghosttfucker]

tell me I'm not the only one who, when looking for reassurance, isn't just looking for "I don't think you're ugly"

"I do want to be with you"

im looking for more.

I'm looking for depth.

I need reasons. I need words. I need explanation. not just an opposite response to what I'm saying. that feels forced. it feels fake

but no one understands that. no one cares enough.

[ghosttfucker]

the end feels different. I'm so fucking numb. I'm so fucking dead inside

[ghosttfucker]

I can feel it all slipping through my fingers.

[pettycentral]

[coochie-bandit]

[fred-erick-frankenstein]

Posts like this are the reason why I can’t tell anyone IRL that I’m on Tumblr….. How do you explain that to people??