👑Princess Di👸🏻

Not a don’t care kinda person age 33 I am a female and the chubby girl in pink included are my double chins very depressed so on here cuz no one will know I have a tmblr everything is completely wrong with me I was born defective a lot of #mastriste to commence

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My ex dumped me again and on my birthday I’m devastated 💔 i becoming fat again eww too #mastriste

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My ex he’s the one I love yet he treats me like an object rather than something he claims he loves breaking up with me completely five days before my birthday and yet I still love him so much what’s wrong with me I did no wrong he left again out of jealousy of nothing I’m nothing doesn’t he know I’m nothing who the fuck is going to want me he is so stupid to think a man will stare or even look at me I love him #mastriste

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My ex is still in my life right now and he’s still toxic oh boy why did have a birthday if he didn’t grow up? He has glasses and still a bald spot and does a weird comb over why do I love him so he’s still entitled and entangled in my heart. He be so jealous oh my gosh does he not get it, I only adore him? I love him until I die fr fr. #mastriste

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My ex And on his birthday I reached out to him and he came back into my life till this day but lord he’s still so toxic but i love him #mastriste

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You called me my love and I missed it twice and both times I was with my best friends. Maybe it was a sign. I love you and you texted me I need to convey that I miss you and love you too but idk how but I will I love you my love. #myex #mastriste

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Really missing my ex today he broke me completely and he made me different and yet I’m crying for him to hold me I want him so bad. I love you Casey so damn much

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Casey I miss you I’m sorry you think I would ever choose someone over you for fucks sake im ugly and you are hot I would never risk losing you I hate the way you think of me it made you leave me i love you so much forever and always #mastriste

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With the way I look I don’t blame him for leaving me #mastriste

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I have isolated myself I don’t know what to do and I’m an old lady who is bleeding a lot when I never had periods my whole life I have my family and I’m not letting them know that’s the last thing on my list because frankly they don’t family right or maybe that’s just me? Maybe this is gods way of punishing me to having pre marital sex it’s sad if it is a miscarriage because I love my ex Casey he’s everything I want even to this day but his jealousy is very scary I love him but he’s made this about him and never believes in me yet I allowed him to do so I wish this will just go away I am so distraught it hurts and I am all alone

I just don’t want to live anymore

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How is it that my ex seems so okay without my presence maybe because I’m so ugly anyway I see him smile to himself in a he thinks he’s better than anyone way and that’s good as long as he is happy I wanted forever with him happy at least he’s the happy part #mastriste

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Fell asleep hard after the eclipse yesterday and my two hour walk. I cried myself to sleep looking at my beautiful ex’s picture and I was almost late to work again. #mastriste

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Today I found out my ex has hickeys this completely broke me I feel like I’m not strong enough to not relapse I’m broken so broken

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My dearest ex has a new truck it’s beautiful and exactly what I wanted but I was too poor for it but he has one and I’m proud of him yet he hates me

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Self care is crying right before work but then pretending to be non emotional for a whole eight hours

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How fucked up is it too that my fave cousin who I was definitely really close to doesn’t reach out to contact me at all I fucken miss him

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Woke up at four pm the second time checked my voicemail it’s common when seeing if my ex contacted me because even tho he is blocked he can still leave me voicemails and he left me one and it didn’t make sense to me at all since all he said was… who is this .. when he knows damn well who it is since he called me I hate my life

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So company party right? I spot him he’s bald now I flinch quite visibly and tbh I was flushed from downing a bottle of soju right before entering I was hoping he’d be at the party but knew that wasn’t going to happen because he’s one of those guys that is like oh no too cool for company shin digs and then he was there dressed to the nines looking so damn hot and I. I ALWAYS used to dress all pretty every one would tell me i was so pretty at those parties and this time I just wasn’t. He saw me and he left didn’t eat the food or wait for prizes he saw me and I saw him and then I was looking for him because duh I still love him and he was gone. Why would he even go then?! Why? I wanted to break my no contact with him or drive by his house but I know he just doesn’t love me anymore. So I kept to myself and I’m just so unhappy and I believe I’m good at faking I am ok. I love him so much and miss him but he hurt me so much.