bruh i have no idea how to change myself and its making me miserable
Not that this is really relevant, or that anyone will actually see this since its been years since i've been active... but four years later, I've moved, I've gained new interests and hung onto old ones. I've learned an entirely new skillset for my new job and it's gone well. People are still annoying at work, but that's a given lol
I have moments where I'm tired and can't see life going on for years and years, but then again that's how i felt when i made the original post. and I'm still here four years later.
it is what it is, i've worked through some major aspects of my anxiety and depression. i've gotten better in a lot of ways even if i couldn't see that change at the time.
long story short, keep going i guess? things are changing even if you don't see it. things will get better, they'll get worse. things will always go up and down, but it'll turn out okay.
