get inside my head:

"Good morning, starshine... the earth says hello!" Hi there! So this is my diary. Over the years, I've always wanted to keep a diary, for future refrence of course. But I can never seem to find time to write in it. Plus, the long process of actually WRITING everything I want to say down, hurts my hand. So this is my solution. I hope everyone enjoys hearing about my daily tasks, maybe they won't be as boring and pointless as I think they will. Also, my ask and submit box is always open. Feel free to use those. I also have my regular everyday tumblr, if interested then message me.

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9:46 p.m.

Today was good. I woke up a tad bit later than planned, but all in all, it was a decent morning. Until I found out that I left my money for the banquet tickets at home and I told mom I had already bought her ticket...so I had to lie to her to sign me out. I feel kinda bad about it...but you have to do, what you have to do. So, I go up to tell Marian that I'm leaving and I'll be back in twenty to thirty minutes. Well, she almost has a cow then, but I just ignore her little mental lapse and leave. When I get back, class goes normal, then I try to bring up the church play schedule again...reminding her that I can't do Wednesday night rehersals...well then she has her bitch attack. I swear that woman is insane sometimes. She goes on this whole rant about how I need to take off work and that I take off "ALL THE TIME"...I wanted to slap a hoe right then and there. Marian can be so nice at times and then a total bitch within two seconds. I was tearing up, so I finally left. This has bothered me all day. Ohh, and another thing. I deserve to be Drama Club President...AND CHOIR CLUB PRESIDENT. I am the only person that puts up with Mern's shit and balances her crazy needs. I am the most organized out of all of her students, AND I was Choir Club President this year and Drama Club Treasurer/Secretary. So those Pres. positions are mine! I will fight for them.

Now, tonight...

So I went with Erin and say Mahayhay at the Tasty Shoppe (or however you spell that joker). Before hand though, I went and get her surprise, which was a Bob Marley t-shirt and a chain for her starbucks charm. Then I went and ate. Well, on the way home I said to myself, "What the hey?! I can try to be the bigger person and say hi first. Maybe she won't be busy and we could do something, or maybe she'd ask me about my day and then I could get this whole Marian situation off my chest." Well boy was I shittin' myself there! Of course she answered the phone and we talked, but it was just about her and other pointless topics. Then she had to go. So, I did what I always do...nothing. The parents got home. And I noticed I had two missed calls from Lauran. So I'm like, "Yay! Maybe she has spare time and wants to hang out a bit!" .....WRONG-O! She just wanted to tell me she only had missed two glees...that is all. I was like really...you call me because of that...twice...get me all excited, and then you are like, "Well, I have to go do stuff. Just text me later." No, its not going to happen. I don't want to talk to you anymore tonight.

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12:16 a.m.

Tonight, was actually good. My best friend FINALLY came back from her cruise. Yes, it does feel good to call her my best friend again. We had a little rut in our relationship, where I just said forget about me. I was suicidal. Sorry for that. But back to the good, mom let me stay out past curfew so that I could visit. We exchanged gifts. Her voodoo doll I got her, and then she got me a bracelet made from recycled tires. Yes, it was awesome might I add. But it just seemed like time flew by way to fast. I guess it usually does when I am with Lauran. She's awesome. Just like me in many ways, which is why we like pretty much the same things, but in other ways...up in our heads...we are totally different. We interpret things differently. Like time management. I love her to death, but she needs to realize when we need to actually "hang out" like normal best friends do. All in all though, I am trying not to be so picky about things like that. She'll be going to NCSU in the fall and I can't lose her. I'm glad she is back though, it has been a tough week.

My other BFF, Mahala, is moving back from college THIS WEEK! Wednesday! I'm so excited, and lucky, that she lives like two seconds from me. (As does Lauran) The summer is ours!

This month is going to be good, I can feel it in my bones.

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12:10 a.m.; The First Post

This is my first post and it is probably not going to be very long. I've decided to do this to help with my emotions and issues. Not everyone can talk about their problems to someone, and I guess I'm one of those people. I mean, once I get started on a tangent, then I'm more than likely going to burst about everything. But only a few...random...people ever really see the emotional side of me. I created this to vent, rant, and on some rare occasion boast about my life. Depending on my week, the posts may be cheerful or plain out depressing. So get ready for a rollercoaster of emotion.