Transgender Girl Power

I'm a transgender girl. I'm autistic. And I have a hard time making connections, sometimes I'm afraid of people. It is difficult for me to start a conversation, but feel free to write to me, I will answer everyone.

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Not only here, but also on Facebook and elsewhere, almost everyone's first question is how old I am. As if I were a used car before buying. It doesn't matter how old I am. It's just a number, and it means nothing to anyone who wants to know something important about me in addition to unimportant things.

There are a few more things: I block anyone who asks for money. Anyone who sends a dick picture, I block. Anyone who starts the conversation with where I'm from and then says that he also lives where I live, I immediately block him. I block anyone who harasses me with stupid questions. Mistresses and sugar daddies stay away. No sex, no hookup, I block anyone who harasses me with these.

That's all.

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I don't know when this picture was taken. Maybe around 2008. It must have been early spring, late February, March? I don't remember. I just remember that the ferry was still sailing on the Danube near North Budapest at that time, and I was sitting on the boat's rope trestle.

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I don’t want to fight anymore. It feels as if I’ve been fighting for a thousand years. The Jian, a long double-edged sword, is just like the sword of the Templars, and though they are so far apart, within me they come together. I’d like to believe that the end of the Road is near. Do you know the land of Priest John? I just call it Summerland. I’m slowly finding my way home.

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This picture was taken in a hotel park, at a friend's wedding.

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I always knew how to dance, SM's Cafe, Budapest, Hungary, sometime around 2014…

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And here is a picture taken at a house party, maybe it was someone's birthday, and they were throwing a party for their friends at their apartment. I remember so few people from those days, and everything is so different now! I don't go anywhere anymore, often I don't leave home for days.

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BDSM performance at a party. The picture shows what happened: they chained me to a pole, and the guy did what he did with the cane. Afterwards, I was so exhausted that I lay on a mattress by the pool for hours, and of course someone always brought me a drink and expressed their shock that they had never seen anything like it before…

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I once wrote a short essay about bus number 34. My boyfriend at the time called me on the bus and canceled our date. Strangely enough, I was happy about this, so I got off the bus and took the bus going in the opposite direction to go home. I took three pictures then, in Budapest, on the banks of the Danube, the scene of my childhood. I'm standing right in front of the school I used to go to, and I never thought that this picture, which I scanned to post here, would ever resurface.

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This photo was also taken at a party, and I don't remember how I ended up there either. There were always people who took me places because it was good to be seen with me.

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I have been quitting smoking for over fifteen years. This picture is so old that I don't even remember what party it was taken at. I don't really remember how I got into these places, except that when the party was over, everyone who had been so gallant left me alone at the entrance, in some unknown part of the city, and I had to somehow get home at night, alone. Budapest is safe, but I'm still so scared, and there are dangerous places. Like Nyugati square, where the night bus leaves for the quiet suburbs where I've lived ever since. Perhaps it was in these places that I developed my strange ability to remain invisible, as if I were hypnotizing my surroundings. Even the ticket inspector doesn't notice me, while he asks everyone else for their tickets on the night bus. Fear can bring out many different abilities in people.

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And here in the subway, the ventilation motors made Mickey Mouse ears for me.

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I don't even remember this party. All I can see is that I'm missing a front tooth. Well, yes, it hurt, and the dentist pulled it out. I wish I knew what happened to the old friends in the picture? It's been 15 years since I heard anything about them, unfortunately.

(Scanned paper image)

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I still have my belly button piercing here. I didn't have it for long because a girl put it in improperly in a women's restroom at a bar, and later it got infected and had to be removed. This picture is from a series of photos taken by an amateur photographer, and I think it was also published in a magazine. When I found these pictures, I felt a little sad because time passes and only memories remain.

(Scanned paper image)

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At this party, they offered Hungarian pálinka as a free appetizer, and I drank a little too much and ended up not behaving like a lady. I have more pictures from this party, I'll post them too. What I remember is that it was nice to get home, get into bed, and sleep alone, next to my stuffed animals. Because deep down, no matter what's on the surface, I'll always be a little girl.

(Scanned paper image)

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An old, forgotten photo album in the closet, among the books, full of paper-based pictures. There are many pictures from my past, dancing at old parties, BDSM performances, other things, street pictures in Budapest, on the metro, on the tram. I didn't want to continue this blog anymore, even though I loved it so much and I met many valuable people here on tumblr. Maybe I'll scan these pictures and post them here, I don't know yet. I'll post one now, this one was taken in Szolnok, Hungary, and I think I was about 30 years old here. I could also take new pictures, but I don't know if I want to continue anything anymore…

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Thinking of you. Miss you, too. ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you, my unknown fan!❤️

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Maybe one day, with my old fool's head, I'll stand behind the DJ booth. But those parties will be magical…