1994 i grew up in a yellow house the walls were thin as bone boys with gunsĀ under their jeans in the street & iĀ grew up in a snow-filled town Ā wild dogs hid behind fences eleven &Ā smoking weed in the forest i grew up waiting for buses i grew up wantingĀ to be prom queen i grew up kissing boys with skateboards & sleepy eyesĀ iĀ grew up stealing hairspray i grew upĀ huffing paint thinner in the bathrooms of that highĀ school everybody knew i grewĀ up with my head in his lap smell ofĀ leather & cigarettes grew up paintingĀ Christmas trees in hospital hallways grew upĀ painting my nails pink on the porchĀ in the projects of west alabama grewĀ up in michigan with boys who gave their girlfriends dead baby rabbitsĀ grew up in a trailer hungry & wantedĀ grew up in a secret-soaked houseĀ where i ran blind with knives & sheĀ drank wine & cried when he left &Ā said on the answering machine iām not coming back until that littleĀ bitch is gone he meant meĀ grew up knowing how to leave grew up in a million dollar mansion built over a beach under gray skyĀ got high & hit a boy on the lips forĀ taking my clothes offĀ grew up saying daddy stop while myĀ mother screamed shut upĀ i grew up filled with city lights & myĀ life is all bee stings & dirty knees grew up never surrendering, grew up the color of blood, grew up fast,Ā grew up small, grew up needy,Ā grew up burning, grew up like a comet blownĀ like trash over your city, grew up likeĀ a child does, am one still Think the world is beautiful
