Lis

my head is a jungle

[girlcalledlissy]

the thing is that living sometimes feels more scary than the idea of dying.

[girlcalledlissy]

nothing, just, it feels like a race against time. the world spinning around me in a big solid unity like i’m the center of it all. it’s ridiculous, but i can’t help it.

[girlcalledlissy]

they keep dancing and laughing and talking and in the middle of it all there’s me. except i am not really inside there with them because my mind is going places. i am everywhere but here, mirroring their smiles and moves. no amount of alcohol can shut down the roaring silence inside my head. these numbing thoughts of nothing and everything. there’s this constant force, making me watch myself from another corner of the room.

look at yourself. see the way you’re holding your drink. the way you angle your head, touch your hair, breathe. make it effortless for once. be normal. don’t be silly, everyone can tell your drunk. you should drink some more soon, or you’ll get anxious again. your hands are trembling. pretend you’re cold. make eye contact. they won’t approach you, if you don’t look approachable. if your not fun. make them feel like you’re fun. they’ll be bored of you soon. this night will be for nothing again, if you don’t do something.

all i want is shut down that voice. turn down my mind for the rest of the night. not think for a few hours. just be myself. just be me.

[mkvx-deactivated20240202]

@mkvx

[mkvx-deactivated20240202]

@mkvx

[thenewonee]

I hope that one day I could walk into old bookshops in London when it’s pouring outside and spend all my afternoon without worrying about anything. like I’ve got all the time in the world. Until it stops raining.

[ancientsstudies]

Tate Britain by vebriisfebruary.

[aprilcisbored]

﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ

My inspiration next school year

[drizzlingtears]

the fake scenarios in my head keep me going

[literallyourdreamgirl]

a winter of shopping in nyc, lipstick stains on coffee cups, nutcracker rehearsals, and cozying up by the fire during a snowstorm ❆

[rainreads-deactivated20250201]

currently in my rory gilmore era

[joyexe]

[lone-nyctophile]

[ladyelain]

I did something during holidays I’ve had in mind for a good while. 🌝 Meant to have this ready for elainweek and in honour of autumn season beginning soon! 🍂

The first piece I committed to since my highschool’s art program, sooo yeah, I know her arms look like sticks, the proportions are off and I’ve definitely never heard of shading… I tried my best though! 🌝

[girlcalledlissy]

Growing boobs as a ballet dancer is the lie of your life.

All those teachers making you believe your girlfriends are big, until society breaks it to you.

[beautyballet]

[coretvena]