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mira | they/them | 18+ | jewish + desi lesbian | jester's privilege i'm her kind of girl / she's my kind of boy

[girlgerard]

haunted doll girl…<3

[nerviovago]

[girlgerard]

me trying to write a final paper about the confessions of saint augustine while listening to mcr and realizing ive forgotten how to write in english

[girlgerard]

happy three years to this post i really had no idea what was going to happen in the future

[pseudophan]

PHIL WON CREATOR OF THE YEAR

[pseudophan]

HE FUCKIGN CALLED DAN UP ON STAGE AND ASKED HIM TO SHARE THE AWARD IM FUCKING LEAVING

[phandomheritage]

date of origin: november 22nd, 2016

[girlgerard]

alright! hiatus time back on!

[girlgerard]

only on tumblr can you say “murder is bad” and people will somehow take it as a way of saying murder is only bad for certain ppl. sorry people have no reading comprehension i thought your point was succinct and clear. also no offense but if people have that big of an opinion about your take on geopolitical and humanitarian issues, idk if bringing it up on the mcr blog is the move

i definitely agree with you on that last part - the point of my post was that i AM aware i have a (sort of) platform on here, and i wanted to say something so it didn’t seem like i didn’t care, because i care so, so fucking much. i just utilize that care in real life, not on tumblr.

unfortunately, i forgot that that’s just never a good idea on the internet, especially when things are tense and reactionary. i love palestine and i love jewish people and those are not conflicting statements. it’s really hard to realize that most people think those are irreconcilable.

[girlgerard]

it’s not the “i care about civilians” that ppl have an issue with it’s the “different branches of the same evil.” that wording suggests that hamas or other violent palestinian resistance is on an equal level to the state sponsored violence of the idf, which ppl take issue with bc they think it fundamentally misframes the situation in a way that is actively harmful

by “different branches of the same evil”, i’m referring to how multiple groups have something to gain from killing people in palestine and israel. that’s not just hamas and the idf, that is multiple variables. that all comes from the same evil, which is greed and murder. that’s what i’m referring to. killing people is bad; that includes and is actually mostly about the israeli government.

[girlgerard]

here u go.

women are amazing #pride

[girlgerard]

anyway. tantrum over. i don’t take kindly to being told i “don’t care enough” about something i’ve dedicated my entire degree program to

[girlgerard]

mommm white people on tumblr are misconstruing my posts again despite the post being entirely about how important wording is + how i don’t feel comfortable posting large statements when i haven’t fully processed them yet.

[ghoul-wizard]

Wells are a type of wizard tower, they're just inverted

[girlgerard]

ive been following you on tiktok and tumblr for awhile and i just realized that you were the same person

LOL that’s too funny hello!! i’m literally just using every social media i have as a different genre of notes app. i know it’ll eventually bite me in the ass and i’ll stop but yknow. when in rome!

[girlgerard]

ough remember hwo she has legs..

SHE’S GOTTA LOTTA LEGS!!!!

[girlgerard]

Idk if this is too personal, but I wanted to hear/read about how you navigate transness, the way you talk about it, in relation to yourself or gway really interests me! I've realised that the way I see myself and navigate life as a black trans person is VERY different from what I usually see online, so I wanted to know how maybe other factors have afted your view as well.

(Btw I love your blog, it brings me immense joy!)

it’s not too personal, i love talking about transness!! to me, gender is a relational, communal identity, so i’m happy to discuss it :-)

the way i view gender is that, because it’s societally constructed, it’s environmental, and can change/remain constant depending on the variables you experience through your life. if i wasn’t jewish i would view my gender differently, if i wasn’t on the spectrum i would view my gender differently, etc., everything i’ve lived through has led to my current sense of identity and gender. this is why portraying queerness/transness as just One Type Of Thing doesn’t work; it’s not something that can be seen as separate from a person, nor something that can be seen as tangibly real. race, gender, any type of identity are just different ways of understanding and categorizing our lives, so they kind of domino each other - once you realize one aspect of yourself is outside the norm, it all sorta falls away.

that’s why i love discussing gender in relation to gerard way’s art - i really relate to how gendered categories are inherently transitional in their work. i don’t identify as transmasculine, and i only use the label “nonbinary” because it’s the simplest one there is; all i know is that i’m trans, i’m a lesbian, and i’d be some form of that no matter what i was born as.

the labels i use are metaphorical the way all labels are. my labels aren’t set in stone - they’re just the current best words i can use to describe myself. that might change tomorrow, or that might never change. it’s sometimes difficult for white people, who are often under the illusion that oppressive societal constructs like race and gender are “real” + moral, to understand that. that’s why they get all cagey and insulted when people of color suggest that their experiences of queerness/gender are different.

[girlgerard]

btw rard ❤️

literally rard. she’s so cool

[girlgerard]

“when i was around 16 i became friends with these really cool girls, and that's how i got exposed to bikini kill, helium, bratmobile -

that was the real punk. all the other hardcore scenes at the time were a little bit hypermasculine and violent, which was totally unappealing to me.

but here are these bands - bikini kill, et cetera that were actually talking about important things.

that was real punk.”

- gerard way

[girlgerard]

What do you mean you’ve never viewed Gerard as a man?

i just haven’t

[girlgerard]

if i'm wrong that's okay. like, if statements are made and boundaries are set that explicitly delineate gway as a cis man i'll 100% respect that, but i'm saying what i mean these days. i've never viewed any of gerard way's art as that of a man's, and that's a big reason i connect with it. i don't assume cisness or binaryness i just go off of vibes and the vibes are pink + alien + girl-ish