shit happens

Sophie, 21, Chemistry Student

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[glitterandcyanide]

me: they hurt me!! I'm gonna be distant! that'll show them!

them: hey

me: hey 💘💓💖💕💓💞💕💗💝💓💞💝💘💕💕💖💗💘💕💞💘💘💖💗💘💞💕💞💞💕💘💕💖💗💖💕💞💞💖💖💗💖💘💞💫

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Jane Sheldon | @jade_melissa

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[artismonkeys]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BSO0o7KAh03/

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The Diary of a Teenage Girl - Marielle Heller (2015)

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[glitterandcyanide]

I’m pretty sure I’m depressed. I’m so lonely and so tired and so done with everything. All I want to do is lay in bed and eat, but I also want to keep up with my weight loss goals which has lead to binging and purging which is absolutely fucking disgusting but I also can’t stop doing it. I just feel really isolated and dead inside. I think I would cry if I cared enough. Apathy doesn’t even cover how little I care about everything, including myself. I’m definitely not suicidal but I would also like to not have to wake up in the morning tomorrow

I’m just so over feeling like this

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Red light d. / instagram saanahugs

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[ccrygirl]

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[vinstage]

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[glitterandcyanide]

Honestly, the last 4 months have been some of the hardest times of my life. I did not think that a break up could emotionally destroy me the way it did, I lost all confidence in both my appearance and my personality so quickly. It was such a shock for me. In the long run I think this has been the best thing that could ever happen to me. My ex was definitely holding me back and making me want to settle for less - instead of finishing uni this year I’m carrying on to do a masters and I’m going to be a million times more successful than I ever would have been with him.

I have managed to find some confidence from myself, not based on the opinions of others. Losing 40lbs in 6 months has definitely helped a lot with that. I feel good about myself. Something that really made me think was something one of my friends said to me the other day - you can’t base your self worth on the opinions of one person. Sure, Joe didn’t love me, but I’m confident one day somebody else will. And even if they don’t, I do (or at least I’m working on it). I am honestly so thankful for all the wonderful people in my life who were so supportive and lovely while I wasn’t very fun to be around. 

The last half of 2016 was not what I expected it to be like whatsoever, but I came through it and will leave it a stronger person. 2017 will be my year.