G.D.

I was nicknamed G.D. | Just a tired and embittered semblance of an artist.

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Another dragon artist

Okay. I'm not sure if I should do it but I'll try. Maybe.

My name is G.D. An artist who draws on the theme of fantasy creatures, the advantage of dragons.

Links.

Some old works (2023):

I have some troubles with English but I'm trying to learn it. Just don't be surprised if I make mistakes.

To be honest, I came here for my favorite fandoms, but my creativity has nothing to do with them (I just can’t draw people). So I don't know if I'll post my arts here.

I got confused about the functions of this social network while writing this post.

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Sketch.

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Sketch.

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something experimental.

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I'm so tired.

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Hi there.

Back in November, I was planning to make a sort of year-end spoken post for New Year's.

But... I just have absolutely no energy left. December was pure hell; I lost count of how many times I thought, "This is it, I can't go on, this is a one-way ticket to the hospital" — and yet it turned out I could. The first real break I got in two months was on December 31st, and I would have slept the whole time if I could — but for several weeks, I was physically almost unable to sleep.

Now my condition has stabilized, and I can slowly start getting back to work. But I'm scared that I keep reaching this extreme state of exhaustion every single time, even when I promise myself it won't happen again.

I'm going to show you summary of my art from the last five years. I really wanted to gather the strength to make separate posts for each year, but I don't know if I'll actually be able to.

What are my thoughts on the year? Well. The only word that comes to mind is "nightmare," even though this year wasn't entirely a nightmare, I guess. I don't know. I don't remember. I'm just so tired.

Maybe it's too late for this, but I'd be interested to know how your year went. Even though we don't know each other, there's something about it.

I don't really understand social media, but I'm trying my best.

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Something dark that was inspired by the musical, but I don't think I can adequately translate those lines.

Sketch.

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Gift.

And something random.

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Hello, everyone.

Exactly one year ago, on October 27th, I started this blog. And as it happened, the day after my first post was my birthday.

I wanted to say, thank you. I joined this social network without hoping for anything. I'm just a small artist in a state of crisis. Yet, seeing that my work resonates with someone, seeing that at least someone notices it, warms my soul.

Over this year, 30 people have followed me. Maybe for some, that's not a lot, but I, being a deeply asocial creature with no chance of making myself known through communication, am deeply grateful to each one of them. Truly. Thank you.

I can't draw as quickly or as often as I'd like to; this year, I almost destroyed myself in the name of work, and much of my art doesn't satisfy me, so much is yet to be realized. But thank you for being with me. I truly appreciate it so much.

Below, I'll attach a selection of works I've created over this year.

This is yet another reminder — a reminder that there is something beyond work. That there is a world outside the windows. That there are people who value my art.

And that means a lot to me.

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Contemplator.

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Original character — herbalist (maybe I should add tags for OCs?).

Now for something sad (feel free to skip).

My creativity for the last year or two has been in a state of decay. There are many reasons for this, and before, I was ready to write huge philosophical posts on the topic.

Now — I don't have the strength for it. Nor do I see the point.

I just understand that I can't draw. I can't do what I want to do; I don't see in my works what I want to see. Moreover, with my unhealthy attitude towards work, drawing gets pushed to the back burner for weeks and months. This year I forbade myself from doing that, but I fear that my university activities will soon drive me completely insane (a funny little thing: when I first came here, being a deeply asocial creature, I couldn't even imagine that soon the entire institute would know me. It's sheer madness).

The few attempts I made to talk about this with my audience (on other platforms in my native language) were met with silence, and now I even doubt those attempts ever happened. Twice, I also thought I had managed to overcome it.

But now.

Now I can't.

I don't know what to do.

I've thought about it a lot — for about a year — observing people and myself, noting what captivates me in art in general and what I should do to return to the "right path." You won't believe it, I even started delving into theory and brushing up on anatomy, trying my hand at study drawings, quick sketches, started carrying sketchbooks with me, practicing with different mediums, I broke down my internal block against drawing anything non-dragon-like.

But this knowledge didn't help me.

I can't

Execute

The process itself.

The ideas are there.

I just can't draw them.

I don't know why.

And I don't know what to do about it.

But I am determined to overcome this one day. I just don't know how yet.

I have big plans for my art.

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Artfight 2025.

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Artfight 2025.

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Ugh. After a tough trip I got sick away from home. That's why I don't have time for social media yet.

Here's a pack of traditional drawings from artfight and something else.

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