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I just wanna brag up about somethingggg

I bought my fujifilm camera todayyyyyyy

It's an old XE2... It costs me a fortune but one of my all time wishes is to own a camera so i'd say it worth it.

I'm still learning how to set up and use camera, and i find it pretty tricky. Will study harder in order to master this camera.

Wish me luckkkkk

About my unrequited love

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Today i got to see my crush after so many months, right here in his country. Never have I ever thought that I would like someone from another country. I... was happy, we went to eat with our colleagues and I sat right in front of him. But ofc, as a coward I am, I don't even dare to look up at his face, I was eating quietly the whole time. But I was happy throughout the whole meal hihi. Then the meal was finished, we went out, his home is in the same neighborhood as our hotel, so we waited for the hotel bus together. Then he bought us drinks from the coffee shop across the street. I tailed behind him when we crossed the road. Such a fool I am, I should've taken a picture of him from behind. Although he bought for other people too, but still... those who have crush on others would understand this feeling right? I've never thought that there would be a day when he bought me drink like this. He was... nice and all... and the feeling was so great... but... I should not take things too far... he was just being polite... and... it by no means that he has something with me. And I am too aware of that...

I need to hold myself back from being overly excited. Calm down dear! It's time to wake up... Let's move onnnnnnn. Because after today, we would never see each other again, right? And no one can't live without someone, and I haven't fallen that deep either.

So as of today, I think that these lyrics are pretty relevant to me. Although the number and pronoun are wrong. But...

I, I loved you in secret First sight, yeah, we (I) love without reason Oh, twenty-five (twenty-three) years old Oh, how were you to know, and My, my love had been frozen

You make my heart race

Dear diary,

I just wanna write down some thing that happened today. That certain thing really made my day today.

Today is 230324, a Friday.

As usual I woke up early to get to work cause I live pretty far from my company. I've had this little habit of searching for my crush in the crowd ever since i started having a crush on him. I'll be dead if he find this :v Anyway, I've never succeeded in seeking for him amidst the crowd but today maybe luck was on my side, cause I saw him walking down the corridor on my way back to my office after using the bathroom. I was totally taken by surprise, it was very happy to see him first thing in the morning.

Later then we met in the line for work. And there this one moment when I was at another place, and he went looking for me, calling my name loudly (yashhh) Then of course i heard it, so i came out from where i was standing to see if he looking for me or not. And I saw him walking toward me while smiling brightly, his eyes curved like crescent moon in a freaking cute wayyy. Then he raised his arms up and waved at me as if waving at someone who was standing on a cruise ship. Oh my poor little heart i guess it indeed skipped a couple of beats at that momment. I wasn't prepared for this. Never have i ever thought that he would smile like that when he saw me. That's illegal!!! You, smiling like that is illegalllll. I was too stunned to make any reaction. So I just simply followed him. Then he asked me if i heard him calling me and i said yes. Of course I heard you, you're my first crush ever :v After that I kept on smiling secretly like an idiot. He really knows how to make my heart race :v

OMG the way his eyes turn into a crescent moon really took my breath away. Awwww so cuteeeee~~~~ He's indeed a cutie fluff ballll

I like him so muchhhh~~~~ what to do!!!

Things i did in 2022

Go to a another country which is Thailand to attend Super Show 9 in Bangkok (This is my first time travelling by airplane and is also my first time going abraod. I really love Thailand and i can't wait to come here again)

Meet Super Junior and OffGun in person (my biggest wish has come true)

Graduate from university... just in time :v

Buying a new phone aka Iphone 14 Blue color

Get a proper job

2022 might not be the best year and could probably is the toughest year throughout my 22 years journey on Earth :v But despite all the stress and depressings, i can proudly say that 2022 is the year of big achievements. Like I've accomplished most of the hardest wishes in my bucket list which is attending my idol's concert (this is something i've haboured for many years ever since I was 13 and I finally finalized it this year) and meet my most favorite BL couple (I love them so muchhh). And last but not least, getting a proper job, a job that I actually love and enjoy doing.

2023 is only a couple of hours away. As 2022 is drifting away, I would like to bid farewell to 2022, you are a very meaningful year to me 2022. I've learnt and grown a lot in this year. And i can happily let you go now. Hope that 2023 will be a year full of luck and excitement. Wish me lots of luck in my first day at work as an official employee in 2023^^

Happy mew year 2023 everyone (cause 2023 is the year of cat, so :V)

2023, please be nice and soft to me^^

221230 Got my very first job

Today marks the day when i received a job offer after having finished my internship. It's my very first time being the one who got an offer but not the one who got eliminated after the internship (as i've always been) so i am super thrilled. To the extent that i couldn't stop secretly smiling everytime i'm alone. It's such a very big big relief as i was so worried about being unemployed. But at the same time, i also feel kinda nervous. I'm in a state where i'm doubting myself whether i could do well at work or not. Although during the 2.5 months internship things have been going pretty well. But still i am scared. I'll try my best to not being lazy!!!

That's how my 2022 wraps up, with a very good news. This news truly makes my heart lighter, at ease and strangely calm. Anyway just wish me luck^^

It's sad how I haven't said a... nevermind. No one wants to listen to your story the best thing is to keep it with you.

No wonder. I'd cried when i got the news that i'm qualified for this job. It must be a sign. It's bad when no one can understand what's you are trying to do. Words are profound, one single word can make ppl hurt

The first week at a company which have Koreans

Dear diary,

I've had a bad day today...

Working at the new place makes me feel troublesome

People misunderstood me bcoz of the language barrier, they think that I have nothing to do and just playing the whole time, but well they'll never know about the thing that I've done so no need to worry about that.... I guess i'll just play along and hold on till the one-month probation is over.

Actually, this job is extremely interesting, i get to work with those who work with my idol before and this is something I would never dare to think about, not even in my wildest dream, but this working environment is too toxic for me. Ofc there are nice people, but at the same time there're those who don't like me as well.

But I'm not there to please everyone so nevermind.

Anyway the one-month probation is only 3 weeks left, although each week felt so long, but actually Ive learned many new things during the way so just hold up, just a little bit more.

And i am a Leo, was born in the year of dragon, someone who's destined to become a legend so....(Just my personal thought so please don't make any judgement)

Fightinggggg

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Youngso Kim - The Place That We Dreamed, ‘UTOPIA’ Official MV

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You don't know when is the last time

Dear katie, please be well. Don't go when i'm not there. We havent said our farewell yet and i don't think right now is the right time to say goodbye. So please thrive. Please survive through this. Let's not say goodbye to each other, ok? Don't.

About a forgotten hobby

어제 아주 우연하게 별자리에 대해 알아보았다. 어렸을 땐 늘 별과 행성 그리고 태양계에 관심을 갖고 우주에 관련된 수많은 프로그램을 지켜보았다. 밤하늘을 마주하며 별들을 지켜보는 걸 많이 해 보았으나 달이 외에 다른 별들이 못 알아보았다. 샛별도 못 알아보았다. 난 정말 우주를 좋아하냐 그런 생각이 많이 들었다. 그러다 밤하늘을 마주하며 별을 쳐다보는 것도 점차 없어지게 되었다. 어느덧 별을 관찰하지 않게 되버렸다. 너무 바빠서 그런가 숙제가 너무 많아서 그런가? 아마 그런 것들이 때문인 것 같다. 이젠 난 4학년 대학생인 취업준비생이 되었다. 기말 고사 기간도 끝났고 새로운 학기도 시작한지 2주가 되었다. 연말연시도 다가오고 있으니까 한가한 시간도 생겼다. 그랬더니 예전에 봤던 연속된 별 3 개들이 문득 떠올랐다. 별 3 개의 이름이 무엇인지 알아보는 적이 없는 것 같다. 그래서 검색해 보았으니까 그들은 오리온이라 부르고 겨울 밤하늘에서 가장 밝은 별자리 중에 하나이다. 오늘 밤은 그 별을 보기로 했는데 비가 쏟아 부어서 볼 수 없다. 내일 밤에 볼 거다. 비가 그쳤음 좋겠다.

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So I’m aware I haven’t really posted anything in a while but I hope this reaches someone. My brother’s name is Efren. Growing up he used to tease and make fun of me, but among all the teasing he also helped raise me along with our mom. When he was little he wanted to be an architect. But his is the story that a lot of Mexican American working class families face: either take the opportunities available to you to attain your dreams, or curtail those in order to take care of your family. He chose his family. After graduating high school he turned down full ride scholarships in order to stay and work to help pay the bills. It was just him, my mom, and me. After a couple of years we got stable enough economically that he was able to go to college, but after graduation we fell on hard times again and instead of finding work in his field or applying to architecture school like he always dreamed, he decided to stick around and help us again. It’s because of his choice to help our family that I was able to go to college too, something that for a time I didn’t think was possible. It’s because of him that I was able to apply to and get accepted into a PhD program in the hopes of becoming a professor. It’s because of him that my mom has a house to call her own. My mom and I owe him everything. Yesterday, he was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia (ALL). He’s uninsured. I’m a student, our mom works in childcare. There’s a high success rate for remission if he gets treatment, but we can’t afford it. He’s all me and my mom have, and we can’t lose him. He chose family growing up, and it’s my turn to choose him. Please, any donation helps. I just want him to come home.

I know times are tough with covid and everything so if anyone could please just spare a dollar or a reblog thatd be great. I can’t lose him.

paypal.com/Yulenni

cash.me/$pastandfuturequeen

venmo: @Yulenni

https://gofund.me/832d4f6e

illiterateagenda

Update: 1/20/2021 11:30AM PST

First off, thank y’all so so much for the generosity, advice, and kind words y’all have shared. I honestly thought this might get a couple hundred notes I didn’t know it would get over 12k!!!! I’m so incredibly thankful to everyone who’s reblogged and donated and messaged me. Y’all truly don’t know how much it means to me and my family.

Now I wanna post a couple updates here. A lot of y’all pointed out that hospitals should have financial aid or pointed out some charities that could help, and for that I’m very thankful. Yesterday we applied to the hospital financial aid but they told us that he likely only qualifies for a 50% discount on their sliding scale because of income. We’re incredibly thankful for that help of course, but 50% of $30k/month is still $15k/month for treatment. I also spent yesterday applying to different cancer charities and Catholic charities and Latino charities and government assistance but ofc cancer related assistance is in really high demand and a lot of charities are strained thin because of covid and people losing their jobs.

I’m incredibly grateful for y’all’s extreme generosity, so far through the gofundme, Venmo, cashapp, and PayPal we’ve received $8,327.64 and I’m absolutely blown away. I’m in tears writing this I didn’t know people could be so generous. I know times are tough with covid and a lot of families are going through the unimaginable. I don’t know how much more this post can circulate on tumblr, so now I’m just asking if y’all could do this:

Please spread this post and the gofundme link on your other social media.

I’ve made this post on Twitter that y’all can retweet (link) but I don’t have Instagram or Facebook or Reddit because I’m admittedly kind of a hermit. So I’m incredibly thankful for everything y’all have done, I’m just hoping that maybe some of y’all will spare a retweet or a repost and help get the word out to as many people as possible. Thank y’all. God bless.

This is my brother, Efren. Growing up he used to tease and make fun of me, but among all… Yulenni Venegas needs your support for Help Efren

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UPDATE: 2/10/2021 @ 12:51PM PST

Apologies for the late update. But first and foremost I just wanna say:

Thank you so much.

We’re blown away by everyone’s generosity, I never thought that this would gain as much traction as it did, and Efren also wants to say thank you so much. Words really don’t do justice to the overwhelming amount of support and love that we’ve received though this and though everyone reaching out and offering your kind words and suggestions. When I showed this gofundme to Efren he was speechless, both my mom and I cried because now he gets to stick around just a little bit longer, and that would’ve never happened were it not for everyone’s support. So a million times, thank you.

Now for the (actual) update: Since we heard about the diagnosis, we’ve been applying to a couple of different charities and to St. Francis’, SCCA’s, and UW Medical Center’s financial aid departments respectively. I want to give a quick shout out to people who offered advice and helped us navigate this whole financial situation. Thanks to everyone’s help, Efren’s been able to see a whole army of doctors and hospital staff (Efren says there’s too many to count) and he’s gotten his first round of chemo with more to come in the following weeks. Because of you guys, he’s been able to laugh and talk shit about me for the first time since we got the diagnosis, something I never would’ve thought I’d miss. The bill has gone way WAY down, so now we’re looking at a total of $25k instead of $200k, mostly for meds and the initial emergency room visit.

We never expected this much help and generosity. We’ve set up a payment plan for the remaining amount so it’s not gonna be due all at once – this is a long road to remission as I’m sure some of you may know, so hopefully a combination of payment plans and a diet of ramen packets (I’m kidding mostly) will help us weather this storm. Again, my whole family and I just want to thank each and every single person who’s donated, shared, and sent kind words or prayers our way. God bless you all.

(Including the funds from PayPal, cashapp, and Venmo):

$19,084/$25,000