Lost sanity

“It's being here now that's important. There's no past and there's no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can't relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don't know if there is one.” Jang Dongwoo (Janus) | 25 | Undercover Hacker & Club Dancer | Feral Mind & Divided Mind

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If I missed out on anyone, inform me so I can put it on the tracker. I have a severe short term memory thingy- idk

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in her panic, her wings immediately start to manifest, her arms lengthening and elongating with startling swiftness as a thick membrane forms between her arm and body. she flares her bat’s wings forward towards his head before they are even fully formed, aiming to knock her assailant off her and make a quick escape.

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Janus is rather amused. 

"So this one has bat powers.", he remarks to himself, almost mockingly. Before the latter could make an impact on him, Janus dodges her attack swiftly, his enhanced speed working wonders at times like this. This, however, gave the other time to escape and soon, Janus chase the latter.

This is fun for Janus, most definitely. Most of his victims before were nothing but all screams and cries for help, begging him to spare them. This one, however, had put up a brave act and tried defending herself from him.

"A good change of victim, finally.", he mutters to himself again, catching up with the other. Janus definitely isn't planning to kill this one. Perhaps, he'll even spare this person. He is, of course, interesting in becoming a bother to her now that he knows the other take this road back home. And of course, Janus is aware that once he had downed the alcohol, everything Dongwoo had seen or interact is known to Janus for as long as there's alcohol running his in veins.

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help me to save myself { han x janus }

The reason why Dongwoo finds himself running around Xavier, looking for this certain someone is because he had been told he had the power of power negation. He thought that if he look for this guy, he might be able to help Dongwoo in controlling Janus. After all, Janus had been nothing but a nuisance lately. In fact, Janus broke their silent pact of possessing his body way too often lately and had went on a killing rampage for more than once a month than usual. It is indeed now or never and Dongwoo needs Janus to get his shit right.

The only problem was that Dongwoo didn't know who this guy was or how he had look like. And in fact, he didn't know where to actually find him. The only information he knew is that he is at Xavier's school and that his power can help Dongwoo to surpass himself.

Sighing, Dongwoo settle for one of the benches the school had provided, feeling rather beaten in thoughts that he still has no idea who this guy might be. Dongwoo needs to find him. Or rather he has to. He doesn't want Janus to go all mad and if this guy can help tell Janus to control himself, that'll be good. But knowing Janus, it won't be a easy job.

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"Why can’t I break it?"

Dongwoo had been observing the younger fire embodiment holder as he he fondle the hard plastic wrapper in hand, finding his actions rather amusing. “Plastics are really hard to break, y’know. Why don’t you try burning it?”, Dongwoo snarl the remarks as he observes the other continue his ministration in trying to break the hard plastic. “Plastic is rather amusing - like it’s probably the only thing even mutants can’t break, no? Well it’s possible but it’s just so hard. I mean - it’s plastic. Plastic are so amusing. I wonder if scientist ever discover how to break it without using anything.”, Dongwoo mumbles his thoughts aloud and went on and on about his interest in plastic, getting rather lost in his own thoughts.

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Can I take your picture to prove to all my friends that angels do exist?

Dongwoo blinks to the pick-up line the glassed anon had stated. It took him a while to process before throwing into a fit of laughters, tears coming up as he hugs his tummy from laughing too much.

"Should I pose for you maybe?", Dongwoo jokingly responds but shakes his head, lips curved to a grin. Well wasn’t that amusing. 

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"come out, i know you’re there," she calls, a slight frown tugging at her lips. the sigh she emits is noticeably impatient — it’s getting late, even for her, and all she really wants to do is curl up in her room for some peace and quiet. if this is a prank of some sort, the person is definitely going to regret it.

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With the 'command' from the latter, Janus did indeed come out and tackle the other, feeling cranky as the alcohol gets the better of him. Janus is definitely getting aggressive and before he knows it, he had pinned the other down and used one hand to hold her in a choke grip, muttering close to her ears.

"Scream and you'll be dead. Either way, you're still gonna be dead."

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TWEWY Quote Starter Sentences

Leave one of these in my askbox for my muse's reaction!

"Are you high!?"

"And this is where this all goes to hell."

“Come back when you grow a pair.”

"Come get some hot stuff!"

"Dibs on the rainbow."

"Did you think you were special?"

"Don’t go the distance for other people. Do it for yourself."

"F it to high heaven!"

"Full of fail, as usual."

"Have some compassion."

"I am not a... a spicy tuna roll!"

"If anything happens I wanna be there to see- I mean stop it."

"I feel epic..."

"I just met you. I don't like you."

"I'm not taking off my pants in the middle of the street!"

"I need to look harder?"

"I never said we were friends. You did!"

"I said I want to go SHOPPING!!"

"Is it true steroids can shrink your... Never mind."

"I suppose you're an ass. All the time."

"It feels like the Monday after vacation."

"It takes only a great friend to make you jealous!”

"I wish I had more zippers... so I could tell you to zip it."

"Let me in! Tell me what you're thinking!"

"Meme? What's a meme?"

"Must....fight....emo....urges...

"Now you see what you did??"

"Ohh, please don't hurt me!"

"Once you see the real me, will we still be friends?"

"Pants. Off. NOW!"

"Quit acting like a child."

"Ready to die?"

"Show those fifth graders who's boss."

"Shut up and walk, dear."

“Since I can’t reverse evolution and speak your language, I’ll keep this brief.”

"Sometimes I just feel so...emo."

"Son of a-"

"Tag. You're it."

"The world is garbage!"

"This is subtracting from my arts and crafts time."

"Uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh...meh."

"Weren't you listening?"

"WHAT THE HELL?!"

"What? We did not!"

"Who the hell approved that costume?"

"Why are we even here? I can think of a decillion better ways to spend our time..."

"Why can’t I break it?"

"You ACTUALLY brought in comics?"

"You can't wear that on top of that!"

"You'll just DIE!"

"You're an idiot. So start acting like one."

"Your face is priceless."

"You, sir, are fit to be high prince of the bunny realm."

"You want to be a Crayon Warrior?"

"You watch my behind, I'll watch yours."

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more likely than not, it’s just a drunk customer from the bar emptying his stomach amidst the convenience of the trees. she’s far too used to such things by now to allow them to interrupt her on her way home. humming softly to herself, she continues on her way along the quiet street.

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Who would have thought it was this easy to shuffle around the trees and bushes, becoming almost one with them as Janus follows the lady figure that walks the quiet street. Quietly and swiftly, he follows the latter whilst hiding among the shadows. He has to be alert since there was no one but the two of them and night is silent where even the slightest noise can be heard.

He waits. And waits a little more before he makes a move to strike the other. He will have a feast of blood tonight certainly. And nothing and no one will stop him. Not even Dongwoo.

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the darkness poses no threat to one such as her, and she’s quite content to stroll along silently through the empty streets, lost in her own thoughts.

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He's turning. Dongwoo know it's rude to just run off without addressing his name and biding a proper goodbye but Janus isn't a patient person and when he wishes to come out, no one is to stop Janus, even Dongwoo himself. He prays Janus isn't going feral mind today, at least, Janus won't have to kill but chances are pretty little with the alcohol he unconsciously had earlier.

He hid himself behind the large trees and bushes and used one as a support. He's definitely turning. And it hurts.

"You're still so weak as ever.", was the last thing Dongwoo finds himself mumbling before blacking out and letting Janus take over.

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she runs a hand through her hair, glancing at the time as she finishes up her drink. “well, it’s about time for me to head home,” she murmurs, getting to her feet and inclining her head politely to him. “didn’t peg you for the type to stick around so late, actually,” she says honestly with a low laugh, before beginning to gather up her things with careful precision.

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"samantha.", dongwoo lets the word roll around his tongue, finding it a familiar accent. "Did I pronounce correctly?", he asked, looking at her. He wasn't bad with English names, seeing how he had been America before for studies and had a couple of friends there with English name. He was the foreigner back then, seeing how everyone had trouble pronouncing his name back then. "Sam.", he lets the nickname roll his tongue this time.

"Well I'm nocturnal.. pretty much.", he chuckles before something seemingly like jab hits him in the inside and he knows it's time. Placing his half emptied drink on the table and contorts a somehow forced smile, he mumbles how he should leave too since it's almost getting darker and quickly makes his way out without bidding the latter a proper goodbye.

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"so what brings you here tonight? i don’t suppose it was for the music, by any chance?" her eyes are twinkling with faint amusement as she sips at her drink, looking at him somewhat questioningly.

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The mood of the people in the bar rather died down the moment the singer finishes her turn, the stage being put to prep for another act. He can obviously tell that the people around him were her regulars, seeing how things escalated quickly and they all falter back to conversations among their peers and cliques. Dongwoo's eyes of course follows the singer, still feeling rather overwhelmed by her singing.

It was soon, Dongwoo snapped out of his thoughts seeing how he hears the other asking him if it was his first time here and Dongwoo was rather confused if she was really talking to him but soon sees her coming back to the spot he settled. "Uh- yes.', Dongwoo replies clear enough for the latter to hear after registering information that needs processing for his slow understanding self.

"Well- I was looking for a place to settle myself after a long week but it would be a lie if I didn't say your singing did indeed get me here.", he speaks, slow but clear. And thank goodness the alcohol didn't seem to run into his nerve system... yet. "Do you sing here every night, perhaps?", he questions daringly.

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what the eyes see aren't what the eyes actually see { sonar x janus }

The night is definitely young - young enough for a certain chestnut haired to roam the streets that the streetlight illuminates so little, making the pathway seem like it's a dark alleyway. Nevertheless, Dongwoo roams the night walkway, wanting to find solace at a place crowded with people. He's tired. And the fact that his memory from the nights before were blurry didn't help either. He knew in fact, that Janus hasn't been playing his part of the deal and rather had been taking control rather too often than before. And worst still, Dongwoo can't do anything about it but to allow him. Why hadn't he been given powers? Probably one that would at least let him have control of his other self. He is aware, definitely, that Janus does exist. And again, there's nothing he can do but to allow him to exist. Sometimes even more than how Jang Dongwoo exist even.

Never mind the flying thoughts Dongwoo now thinks aloud as he grumbles at his pathetic self. A certain voice did catch his attention and soon Dongwoo finds himself entering a bar, greeted with at least a crowd of people and the scent of musky alcohol that fills the place. He sees a maiden, her voice that sound like angels singing in heaven or to say - graceful.

He shouldn't be here. Yes, he does want to look for a place where people do crowd in but the fact that there's alcohol and even the smell puts him off - or to say, Janus. But something made him walk to the seat that settles near to where the singer is, and his hand move as in control, taking the glass filled with alcohol in hand and gulping it down his throat, letting the sensation work its wonders as Dongwoo's eyes never left the singer as she sings still. He is conscious most definitely, but it won't be long before Janus takes over, that's for sure.

But now, Dongwoo could only sit, his sight on the singer and his body being taken over as time ticks its minute hand away.

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