God is real and she will allow me to find a loving healthy relationship where I always have bruises and marks and where I get slightly scared of them when they're fucking me and where they love me for who I am and they love forcing me to hurt for them and we are both so kind and strong to eachother and drink eachothers blood and have a lot of friends and candles and occasionally they rent a cabin in the woods and whatever they do to me in the cabin I have to forgive them and where they can drug me whenever they like but they never do it when I have to be up the next day because they care and because they wanna see my eyes get wide when they show me the footage in the morning and we both admire eachother and understand and share a life full of smiles and sun beams with dust motes floating through, and rough rapes and calm apologies and blackberry pie and giggles
















