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[bpdhotmess]

BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER

[siickangel]

i think it’s so sad how you can go from someone being a big part of your life, them knowing everything about you and talking to them 24/7 to them being non-existent in your life anymore

[samantha-kniskern]

“I need to stop being such a good person to the people who don’t deserve it. Not everyone will have the same caring heart as I do, but I seem to forget that often. I guess that’s why it fucks me up so much when people do me wrong. I just have to stop seeing the world so innocently, because it’s far from it.”

— my weakness (via ashleymacleanblog)

[neckkiss]

Into the Wild (2007)

[21-40]

i don’t know how to act, what to feel, what to think. i don’t know what i want. nothing feels right. everything is a performance.

[yesbpdbabe-deactivated20210115]

you think you can hurt my feelings? well i have a personality disorder that causes extremely intense emotional reactions so you’re absolutely right

[dying-hbu]

“Sometimes I’m really scared. Scared of myself. The things I do, the thoughts I have. I don’t recognize myself anymore.”

— CBK (via forgottenfeeelings)

[disorganised-ocd]

how to stop feeling like you’re annoying everyone you talk to

anyone?

[timbllr]

[craveher]

I’m just so fucking empty. I don’t have friends to show funny videos or anything. I have nothing. I am nothing. I can feel myself spiraling and my therapist is gone for a while so I can’t even try to dig myself out. I bit the bullet and called her and she’s just busy. And I feel bad because I know it’s probably because her husband has cancer, so I try not to bother her because fuck that’s so hard on her. But I have no one to tell these things to. My only two friends swear they care but every time I try to talk to them, to ask them how they are and say I miss them, they just leave me on read. I’ve been staying up til 4 am reading every night, always listening to something because I can’t stand the silence. I don’t want to hear myself. And one stupid thing Brendan said, thats completely normal and not even slightly upsetting, just set me off and now I’m crying and can’t stop.

[siickangel]

[bpdmanchineel-deactivated202108]

Do you ever suddenly realize how utterly unlovable you are and just feel the urge to go hiding from everyone and just rot away?

[justanotheryesterday]

All I am is a burden. I’m sorry I make your life harder. I promise I don’t mean to

[cryying]

I don´t feel like living lately. it´s like waking up in the morning for no reason, living the day forced to smile but feeling the emptiness as a constant companion, being tired all the time but not being able to sleep, it´s like hoping this will end in the easiest way, hoping one day you´ll be set free.

[desnos]

[onlineanarchy-deactivated202010]

[gokurules25]

I’m sorry I wasn’t the person you needed, you’re better off without me in your life. As much as it pains me to admit I do nothing but drag you down and make your life miserable. Maybe one day I’ll get my shit together. Just know I hold no ill will towards you and I wish you the best. I love you and I can’t wait to see how far make it without me.