Percy’s tone is sharp out of surprise.
And suddenly— suddenly both her hands are on his face, but holding it still, forcing him to look her in the eye as her blue eyes turn to an icy glare. It softens just a little after the initial shock, but—
“You think this is your fault?! What did you tell me when I lost Parapet?!”
(She means what almost happened when she lost Parapet, but she’s sure he knows that.)
She doesn’t wait for a response. “You told me not to apologize. And that was when I’d made a poor decision knowing that my epithet would return to me. You—”
Percy shakes her head, realizing they really didn’t understand how deep this went. There was so much to it even SHE didn’t understand, she wasn’t like her mother, but—
“You soulbonded with two people in one day. Well— technically we’d already bonded, but Zora and I bonded as well and since you’re bonded with both of usit’s essentially as if you formed another bond yourself— anyhow! Immediately afterwards, both of us LEFT you. Two parts of your SOUL were removed, you were left with foreign pieces of ours— Zora, she didn’t know what was happening, I can’t blame her for bailing, but at least I should’ve known better.” She doesn’t realize how hard she’s gripping him now, her hands moved down to his shoulders and clenching them in self-imposed anger.
“I shouldn’t have left you. I’m supposed to protect others, and now especially you, but I walked out. Because I was AFRAID.” A laugh escapes her, and it’s a bitter, jaded laugh that doesn’t at all fit into her corner of the triangle.
“Ramsey, I know you’re a good liar. But don’t lie to yourself about this. The blame lies mostly with me, and I apologize for it. That’s why I’m here.”
Something catches in his throat as she grips him by the face. He swallows thickly, his breaths coming at a faster pace.
“You think this is your fault?! What did you tell me when I lost Parapet?!”
“I shouldn’t have left you. I’m supposed to protect others, and now especially you, but I walked out. Because I was AFRAID.”
Ramsey shakily exhales, trying to fight back the sudden stinging at the corners of his eyes.
“Ramsey, I know you’re a good liar. But don’t lie to yourself about this. The blame lies mostly with me, and I apologize for it. That’s why I’m here.”
“Perc’, I... yeah I was left alone, but that didn’t... that didn’t mean I had to leave them alone, too.”
He bites at the inside of his lip, something so horribly sad flickering through his gaze. The single, golden crack through his iris ever-so-briefly seems to flicker.
“I fucked up, too. As much as you don’t want me to put the blame on myself... you can’t take all of it, y’know? Not for me, not for Zora.”
Ramsey pauses, his shoulders slumping even as he brings his hands up, resting them on the back of her own.
“And Perc’, I appreciate the apology, but... I’m sorry, too. We both fucked up on how we handled... all of this. Not just you.”
He sighs before leaning his head into the palm of her right hand. Exhausted. He’s so exhausted. But she doesn’t deserve to completely push the blame onto herself after everything that had happened.
“...But we’ll figure this out. Or, at least... we’ll handle this together.”
Another soft exhale. It’s steadier, now.
“That’s what friends’re for, yeah...?”
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