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A List of Reasons Why I’m Sorry to Kota Ibushi (begun April 2015, ended January 2018)

Dear Diary,

Drama-Free 2019 can only press forward if I purge myself of all the drama, right?

So, after Invasion Attack 2015, when I did… that thing, I called Michael in kind of a… state. He suggested that I start this list and not show anyone (”anyone” meaning “just Bullet Club,” basically). I think mostly he was just sick of listening to me cry for three hours straight. But it helped. I think.

I’m hopped up on video games and energy drinks and not sleeping next to my Ibutan on the anniversary of our glorious reunion and I might regret this but you know what, I DON’T HAVE TO BE AFRAID OF THE BULLET CLUB ANYMORE AND I FEEL FREE, DAMN IT.

It’s a little hard to read from all the tear stains it’s gathered over the years, but Diary, here’s what I can make out:

Keep reading

Kenny.....

I thought about this for a long time. And ate so much cheese. I got tears on my cheese but it was okay because extra salty flavor.

But, I need to snuggle you a lot please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When can I do this????

@brandiedabout No Cody. I thought no women but 2019 is weird and I have a WCW now. Why does my personal shopper spray me with a water bottle like a cat when I ask for beer?

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

God, yes, you wanna see? I wanna show you…

I’m sending you a video right now… you want that, baby? You need that? To fill you up? I need it, I need it so fucking bad… I was watching yours the whole time, I have no fucking clue how I got through it alive, but… oh, fuck…

KENNNYYYY I KNOW I HAD A LOTTTT OF BEER BUT THAT IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Um… was that good for you?

IT WAS THE BEST

💖💕💓💝💞💗

Except, like everything else, you are the best. This video of you with that toy is going to keep me very, very warm when we’re apart, Ibutan…

I want to hold you and kiss you and make you drink water.

No water more beer all the kissessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

God, yes, you wanna see? I wanna show you…

I’m sending you a video right now… you want that, baby? You need that? To fill you up? I need it, I need it so fucking bad… I was watching yours the whole time, I have no fucking clue how I got through it alive, but… oh, fuck…

KENNNYYYY I KNOW I HAD A LOTTTT OF BEER BUT THAT IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Um… was that good for you?

IT WAS THE BEST

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

God, yes, you wanna see? I wanna show you…

I’m sending you a video right now… you want that, baby? You need that? To fill you up? I need it, I need it so fucking bad… I was watching yours the whole time, I have no fucking clue how I got through it alive, but… oh, fuck…

KENNNYYYY I KNOW I HAD A LOTTTT OF BEER BUT THAT IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

Holy shit, another one??? Is it both Christmas AND my birthday?!

My brain’s failing me. Uhhh… something… involving your ass. I can’t even narrow it down. You pick.

Also, if you’re up to it, could you tell me more… stuff?

Look what you’ve done to me! I sound like you!!!

It’s so cute, how you sound like me…

I have…. this little thing, you use to get my ass ready for you sometimes……. Maybe, I try to make a video of how I would get ready for you…….

After I get more beer. I really need more beer.

😊

😳

🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆

I thinkkkkkkkk it took more beer than I thought but I am very ready for youuuuuu Kenny-tan my love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is nothing like you. You are so big and beautiful and I feel so full with you!!! But! You can watch it go in and imagine…

Ohhhhh my god. OH MY GOD.

That arch in your back… your breath stuttering… the way you push back like you need more… do you need more, baby? Do you need me? I fucking need you so fucking much right now you’re fucking beautiful fuuuuck

I neeeed uou sooooooo badddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... Can you show me??????????? How much you need????

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

Holy shit, another one??? Is it both Christmas AND my birthday?!

My brain’s failing me. Uhhh… something… involving your ass. I can’t even narrow it down. You pick.

Also, if you’re up to it, could you tell me more… stuff?

Look what you’ve done to me! I sound like you!!!

It’s so cute, how you sound like me…

I have…. this little thing, you use to get my ass ready for you sometimes……. Maybe, I try to make a video of how I would get ready for you…….

After I get more beer. I really need more beer.

😊

😳

🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆🍆

I thinkkkkkkkk it took more beer than I thought but I am very ready for youuuuuu Kenny-tan my love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is nothing like you. You are so big and beautiful and I feel so full with you!!! But! You can watch it go in and imagine...

@brandiedabout It’s not pee, right?

No, and also, what the fuck?

Some people thought electrolytes were pee! And I’m like, I don’t think so, right?

Some people are a lot dumber than you. Never let them tell you otherwise.

Although. What about the reverse? Because, like, we all know journeys of spiritual growth in Jaguars Stadium need to take as long as they take, and what if Cody doesn’t have enough gatorade? I’m just thinking worst-case-scenario, here…

It’s good to think of this. Because if he runs out of gatorade he might have to drink…

*shudders*

WATER.

That is too much torture for anyone.

You keep up what you’re doing right now and you DON’T drink water, I WILL have a guy literally flood your house. Hydrate yourself, Ibushi. Or else.

Can you just send me flavored water?

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

Holy shit, another one??? Is it both Christmas AND my birthday?!

My brain’s failing me. Uhhh… something… involving your ass. I can’t even narrow it down. You pick.

Also, if you’re up to it, could you tell me more… stuff?

Look what you’ve done to me! I sound like you!!!

It’s so cute, how you sound like me...

I have.... this little thing, you use to get my ass ready for you sometimes....... Maybe, I try to make a video of how I would get ready for you.......

After I get more beer. I really need more beer.

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

Kenny-tan… I know you are emotional… I love it about you, you know….. I am sometimes not so good at that. You help me be better.

It makes me feel so good you enjoy the video…. I feel safe to share with you, really. Nervous, because… always. But, only you I can do this for. And…. I feel good to know how much you are enjoying it..

I can’t wait until we are together again….

I love you just as you are, Ibutan. I love that I make you feel safe. I love that I know you well enough to know how you’re feeling even though you’re not as expressive, you know? It’s one of the best gifts anyone’s ever given me.

Another, obviously, is this video.

Mmm. Fuck. This video.

I can’t either… but in the meantime. Pick a topic of… discussion ;)

I love you so much.....

But... you are excited again? I have more beer.... maybe I will be able to make you an even better video.... Can you tell me what you want to see?

Ibutan… oh my god.

Um… thank you. Thank you so much for giving me that video. I’m totally gonna replay it on loop as I fall asleep. Is that weird? Never stopped me!

I’m sorry I just got all emotional, it’s just… you’re so private about this stuff, which I completely understand, so giving me this video of you doing that… you really trust me. I can’t tell you what that means to me.

Also, it’s gorgeous. You’re gorgeous. So fucking gorgeous like that. I’m gonna loop this like, every second I’m alone. Do I need to be turned on forever? You’d love that, wouldn’t you?

I miss you like crazy. I want to kiss you right now more than anything. But this was fucking amazing.

Kenny-tan... I know you are emotional... I love it about you, you know..... I am sometimes not so good at that. You help me be better.

It makes me feel so good you enjoy the video.... I feel safe to share with you, really. Nervous, because... always. But, only you I can do this for. And.... I feel good to know how much you are enjoying it..

I can’t wait until we are together again....

One day I WILL be everyone’s Woman Crush Wednesday. No thanks to my “friend” Matt, who I’m never seeing again anyway, because I am never ever everrrrrr wrestling again!!!

Ibutan, you’re always doing great, I just love teasing you, and I know you love it too…

(Your doctor says the alcohol is okay right I’m gonna worry I’m sorry!!)

But oh god… yes. Your mouth, hot and wet around my cock, your eyes looking up at me, it feels so fucking good, baby, I’ll never stop being grateful you love it too…

And fuck, when I’m inside you. Fuck. When I hit it just right, and you make that little noise you make, and your eyelids flutter and grip me harder… god, yes.

I… you… you are brave, baby, and you’re so fucking beautiful… all the time, but especially touching yourself for me…

I sent you something back. Oh, Ibutan…

The beer is fine! I asked at the doctor! I am doing so much better! Really!!

But… I love so much when you talk that way… I love to know it’s so good for you…. I like to look at you when I do it because I love to see how you like it… you look beautiful. And I hope you see when I look at you how much I love it…

I get so scared to make noise for you sometimes… I don’t know why because you tell me you love it. But it feels so good I promise!!

Kenny-tan… this video… you’re so good at this. I miss you. I tried to shoot it more how you did… please tell me if you like.

(Okay good!!!)

Shit, every time you look at me when your mouth is around me, it’s so hot, I can’t take it. Sometimes that’s all it takes, you know it, don’t you? You know it, and you love it…

I love it so much when you do, when you can’t help it because you feel so good, because all I want to do is make you feel good until you just lose yourself, getting fucked so, so good and just wanting more…

Oh, fuck. Fuck. You’re so fucking… what you do to me, I’m so… baby, I’m gonna… I’ll try to get video of this for you, I want you to see me, fuck, I miss you so much, fuck, fuck…

Kennyyyyyyyyyy..... it’s so hot when you talk this way to me. And this video!!! It’s..... it’s so good. I had enough beer, I’m going to really try to show you... this video you sent me is so inspiring!!!

One day I WILL be everyone’s Woman Crush Wednesday. No thanks to my “friend” Matt, who I’m never seeing again anyway, because I am never ever everrrrrr wrestling again!!!

Ibutan, you’re always doing great, I just love teasing you, and I know you love it too…

(Your doctor says the alcohol is okay right I’m gonna worry I’m sorry!!)

But oh god… yes. Your mouth, hot and wet around my cock, your eyes looking up at me, it feels so fucking good, baby, I’ll never stop being grateful you love it too…

And fuck, when I’m inside you. Fuck. When I hit it just right, and you make that little noise you make, and your eyelids flutter and grip me harder… god, yes.

I… you… you are brave, baby, and you’re so fucking beautiful… all the time, but especially touching yourself for me…

I sent you something back. Oh, Ibutan…

The beer is fine! I asked at the doctor! I am doing so much better! Really!!

But... I love so much when you talk that way... I love to know it’s so good for you.... I like to look at you when I do it because I love to see how you like it... you look beautiful. And I hope you see when I look at you how much I love it...

I get so scared to make noise for you sometimes... I don’t know why because you tell me you love it. But it feels so good I promise!!

Kenny-tan... this video... you’re so good at this. I miss you. I tried to shoot it more how you did... please tell me if you like.

One day I WILL be everyone’s Woman Crush Wednesday. No thanks to my “friend” Matt, who I’m never seeing again anyway, because I am never ever everrrrrr wrestling again!!!

You know! When you’re in my mouth and like…. up and down…. the good way!! And my tongue too!!!

And…. uh… then your dick… inside… my ass… slow first? But then it feels nice for you to go faster, please? I know you like make to make some noise for that… I would try……….

Okay, I turned on the light and tried to make video??

What makes it good, when I’m in your mouth? Describe it to me!

You want me to fuck you slow and then fast, yeah? You like that? What makes you want it slow? What makes you want it fast? Details!!!

OMG A VIDEO… oh. That was three seconds long and all I saw was your shoulder. It’s a beautiful shoulder, don’t get me wrong, but… uh.

In my mouth I feel nice and I….. love how you react!!!

I like slow at first to like… relax… because at first it’s… I’m not used to it. But then faster… more feeling? I just want more of it.

Okay, I really tried this video!!

Soooo it feels nice how?? And what do you love about my reaction?

Why do you want more? How much is more???

… okay, A for effort. I can see your arm moving. The flexing is nice, and your breath kinda hitches a little and. Um. It’s nice. Really nice… fuck, is that really all it takes for me? You’re so lucky you’re so hot. Or I’m so lucky. Either one.

I don’t know how to say.... it’s a good feeling in my mouth.... it’s so nice.... your cock is so nice... because it’s yours and just.... very full... and you make sounds I love and I feel how much you enjoy.... am I doing better? I had a little beer.

But I want more because it feels good.... to be full... you find very nice spot in me... you’re good at that...

Okay, I feel a little more brave... because beer and you liked the other... so I hope you like this..:

One day I WILL be everyone’s Woman Crush Wednesday. No thanks to my “friend” Matt, who I’m never seeing again anyway, because I am never ever everrrrrr wrestling again!!!

You know! When you’re in my mouth and like…. up and down…. the good way!! And my tongue too!!!

And…. uh… then your dick… inside… my ass… slow first? But then it feels nice for you to go faster, please? I know you like make to make some noise for that… I would try……….

Okay, I turned on the light and tried to make video??

What makes it good, when I’m in your mouth? Describe it to me!

You want me to fuck you slow and then fast, yeah? You like that? What makes you want it slow? What makes you want it fast? Details!!!

OMG A VIDEO… oh. That was three seconds long and all I saw was your shoulder. It’s a beautiful shoulder, don’t get me wrong, but… uh.

In my mouth I feel nice and I..... love how you react!!!

I like slow at first to like... relax... because at first it’s... I’m not used to it. But then faster... more feeling? I just want more of it.

Okay, I really tried this video!!

One day I WILL be everyone’s Woman Crush Wednesday. No thanks to my “friend” Matt, who I’m never seeing again anyway, because I am never ever everrrrrr wrestling again!!!

You know! When you’re in my mouth and like.... up and down.... the good way!! And my tongue too!!!

And.... uh... then your dick... inside... my ass... slow first? But then it feels nice for you to go faster, please? I know you like make to make some noise for that... I would try..........

Okay, I turned on the light and tried to make video??

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