TASM! Peter Parker x fem!reader
Summary- After being with Peter for a year, you saw that he started to distance himself away from you and treated you horribly for 3 months straight. After a messy breakup, Peter tries to explain his actions and stops you from leaving him and New York behind. Will he make you stay?
Warnings- angst, a brief description of smut in the end.
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y/n and Peter Parker were strangers then they became friends and then lovers. But lately y/n wished to be strangers again. The two met when y/n came to New York to study, far away from home she was new to the energetic New York which seemed to cause trouble.
It wasn't until she tripped and spilled her coffee on a very handsome stranger who seemed to be in a hurry. He apologized and quickly ran telling her that he had classes and to tie her shoelaces properly next time.
When y/n looked down after the stranger had disappeared she noticed she tripped because of the open shoelaces. In embarrassment, she hoped to find the handsome stranger again to thank him and apologize for the shirt she ruined.
Her prayers were heard when the dog she was walking decided to jump on the stranger and play with him. You apologized for the dog's behavior but the stranger only chuckled introducing himself.
"It's okay clumsy, I am Peter." you had laughed loudly at the nickname. "Nice to meet you, coffee guy, I am y/n." the two of you have been inseparable since then. He gave you a reason to stay in New York.
After knowing you for a year he finally made a move asking you on a date. The two of you have since then gone to multiple. The first year of your relationship was full of adventures until for the last three months it wasn't.
Peter had distanced himself from you, always making some or the other excuse when asked to hang out or for a date. He didn't call anymore nor did he text. He had bailed on your date for the past three months.
And whenever you would see him unexpectedly he would avert his gaze away from you and didn't even hold your hand. Peter was all about touch, it was his love language. Him not even holding your hand was the end of it all.
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You had a feeling that he had fallen out of love. You knew he had found someone else to love or he got back to Gwen. All your insecurities started to run through your mind but you tried to shut them off by closing your eyes and going back to sleep.
Not being able to sleep you sighed and walked towards your kitchen to get yourself some water. It was eleven pm pretty early for you to go to bed since you always had some assignments or a date with your boyfriend.
But it was summer! you don't start my class till September and it's just the 8th of June today. You take your phone and open Peter's contact which had a photo of him when he had shaved his hair and decided to wear a cap 24/7 even in bed.
Smiling at the picture you debated whether to call him or not. Your heart won and you called him hoping that he would pick up. The ring ended and you stared at the unanswered phone.
"I am so fucking delusional I shouldn't have stayed for him." You scoff "He doesn't even care for me. This was a big mistake I am going home this Monday and no one can stop me." You mumble standing up and taking your suitcase out of the storage closet.
"It's me and you again buddy." You talk to your suitcase and laugh at the ridiculousness of it.
"Why the fuck are sisters always annoyingly right. Should have listened to her and booked the flight." you start to talk to yourself. When you told your sister about Peter she was happy for you but when you told her you would stay with Peter for holidays she visibly cringed.
"Look y/n I love you and I am extremely happy for you that you found yourself a very good boyfriend. But don't you ever give up anything for him, you understand? I just don't want you to regret it." she had told you and know you understood why.
Your suitcase was half filled already. Your head snapped when your phone rang. Seeing Peter's name a strange feeling settled in your stomach. You were extremely happy but also angry.
"Hey baby I am sorry, I was running and my phone was at home," Peter said and he did sound like he was out of breath. You had known Peter for more than two years and one thing you knew about him was that he never went for a run in the night.
"But you never go for a run during the night Peter," you said annoyed at him. You heard him laugh from the other side of the phone, "I just had lots of energy and decided to go for a run you know." he said.
"No, I don't Peter." You snapped at him voice sharp. "And I haven't known anything since the past three months. It feels like I am dating a fucking stranger!" You voiced your concerns.
"You always ignore me this is the first time in months since you willingly called me Peter! You never text me or take me on dates. Meet me tomorrow at Rows cafe at 8 we need to talk. And by the way, I am breaking up with you," you told him not giving him a chance to speak.
Before you hung up you heard a surprised "What?! NO y/n." you breathed in relief it felt good to get the things off your chest. You sniffled pulling your legs closer to yourself as you watched the Brooklyn Bridge from your apartment building.
You put your phone on silent and ignored the 57 missed calls from Peter and 109 messages from him.
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Your suitcase was almost packed. You had two boxes that had Peter's things in them including his sweatshirts, mug, books he had annotated for you, the gifts he gave you, and of course the bracelet with a small star and moon charm he had gifted you for your 1 year anniversary.
You hadn't slept a blink since last night, spending your time packing and looking at your pictures together with sadness and distaste.
You thanked the waiter as she bought you your coffee. Sipping on the drink you felt at peace. It was 8:20 and like always he was late or he bailed.
"You are late. I thought you were going to bail on me like always," you say with such distaste that Peter felt his heart clench in pain. You looked at him after almost a week.
He looked miserable his eyes were red and bloodshot, his hair was a mess and he had a small gash on his cheek. Bruises and cuts would always randomly appear on his body and when you asked him about it he said it was because he boxed sometimes at the gym.
You wore sunglasses to hide your red eyes. But you could see that he looked more miserable than you. "Can I get something for your boyfriend?" the friendly waiter ask.
Both of you stiffen "Oh- uh- I." Peter shuttered while you answered for both of you. "He is not my boyfriend." The waiter blushed in embracement. "Oh, I am sorry I just assumed. What would like sir?"
Peter ordered his usual rose tea and once the waiter was far away from the two of you. You handed Peter the two boxes with their contents. He looked at you tearfully. "No y/n.....what did I do? Please don't do this baby."
You chuckled bitterly at his words. "What did you do?" you repeat enraged. "You did everything wrong that you could do Peter. What is it huh? Did you find someone else or did you go back to Gwen?"
Peter stiffened at Gewn's name and you laughed bitterly. "Should have known. So I was just someone to make her jealous huh? Everything that we went through means nothing to you?" Peter sat quietly his gaze on his tea.
Tears start to brim in your eyes at his silence. "You know what Parker? We are done for good. You fucking asshole." you spat taking your iced coffee and throwing it at his face. The people around the cafe gasped at the commotion.
Peter seemed to wake up from his daze. "We are done you fucker." you put 20 dollar bill on the table and left the cafe. "No no no no y/n no! Wait y/n! y/n!" Peter screamed as he ran out of the cafe.
"y/n wait please!" he yelled but you paid no mind and hailed a taxi to your apartment. Peter ruffled his hair as he sprinted towards your apartment which was a good 20 blocks away from this cafe.
Peter reached your apartment door banging on it as pleas left his mouth. "y/n please please please baby let me in please let me explain. y/n baby please." he pleaded.
Inside your home, you were battling within yourself whether you should open the door or not. "I am not cheating on you babe I would never do that. Please let me explain." At this, you opened the door and Peter fell to the ground.
"Come inside." You said and closed the door once he did. "You have 10 minutes to explain yourself, I have to catch a flight in three hours." Peter's eyes widen. "Wai-yo-you are going?" he shutters and you nod.
"You are wasting my time Peter make this quick." you snapped. And for the first time in many weeks, Peter saw you. You looked miserable to him, your whole face was red and all he wanted to do was apologize and hold you tight.
"I only love you y/n and I mean it there is no other person in my life and no there is no Gwen," he said sincerely you only kept quiet and avoided his gaze. "I am so sorry baby I never wanted to make you feel sad. This was not my intention." he pleads.
You scoff in disbelief "Never your intention? Peter, you made me feel like the worst person in the whole world. I thought you were using me and didn't want me anymore for god knows what reason. You never called, never texted, never set up the dates like you used to." you said as tears ran down your face.
"For the past three months you didnt even say I love you to me, and when I came to your college to meet you, you would ignore me make some excuse, and run away. What am I supposed to think after you do all this without any explanation? huh?" you said trying not to yell at him.
Peter winced when he realized how bad it looked. "You weren't even happy to see me! You love holding my hand where did that go?! I thought you were going through something I gave you time space whatever you needed. For three months straight Peter." You wipe your tears away.
"Three months I waited for you now I can't do this anymore. Was I some kind of dumb bet that you placed with your friend? huh? Or you were tired of me already? You don't like my body? Is that the reason?" You asked him lips quering.
Peter shook his head mumbling no. "No no no never y/n never think that again. Ever please, none of those reasons are true clumsy," he whispered. You visibly cringed at the nickname.
"Look I know it looks bad and it is very bad but y/n I am just trying to protect you. I don't want to leave you love, if anything I want to protect you." You look at Peter in disbelief.
"Protect me from what huh? From what Peter?" Peter looked confused he was battling within himself whether he should tell you the truth or not.
The silence made you want to cry a lot more than you are, you opened the door and demanded him to get out. "Get the fuck out of my house Parker." you hissed.
"y/n please no give me a chance to explain myself." You gasped in disbelief. "A chance? Bullshit your reason and explanations are absolutely bullishit Peter please get the fuck out of here before I call security," you told him calmly.
"y/n please close the door and I will tell you everything you want to know okay?" You shook your head and decided to give him a chance closing the door.
You looked at him but he only went inside your bedroom. "I didn't invite you in the bedroom." You told him and sat on your bed with folded arms.
"Okay y/n I know this will come as a big shock but I am Spiderman." You stare at Peter for a good five minutes and burst out laughing.
Peter only blinked sighing he knew this would happen. "Yeah, and I am death Vedar." You joked shaking your head. "Get out you are wasting my time." you snapped.
"No y/n I actually am Spiderman. I save people and shit I am sorry that I didn't tell you this sooner but baby I was trying to protect you and myself," he said. "Something or other could have happened that would reveal my identity and I don't want that."
He was quite correct if you were Spiderman you didn't want to tell every person you dated that you were Spiderman until and unless you truly loved them.
"Baby I couldn't risk your safety. Few people already come to know about you. They tried to make you a hostage so that they could get me. I don't want to hurt you baby." Peter said tears threatening to spill from his eyes.
"Why do you think Spiderman was fighting with people in the alleyway next to your apartment for a week straight three months back? I cannot afford to lose you y/n I really cannot." You were trying to absorb the information it was too much for you to digest.
"That is the reason why I distanced myself away from you. If someone saw me with you, I-I can't afford to see you hurt my love. You are my everything I can't do that to you. I know it was stupid of me to do it the wrong way. God, I am so awful to you." Peter said ruffling his hair.
"I can't afford to lose you y/n you mean the world to me baby." He said pleading you to stay. "And you never have to worry about Gwen, okay baby? She died a long time back, she was my first love." Peter said.
"But you y/n, you are my true love and I didn't lie when I said I see us getting married in June and having a baby girl and a baby boy. And I didn't lie when I said that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you y/n." Your breath hitched in your throat as you looked at Peter with blurry eyes.
"I love you y/n please please don't leave me." When Peter said that he was sacred because people kept leaving his life you didn't think of leaving as in dying. And now you understand why he did what he did.
"I promise I will make it-" Before he could finish his sentence you kissed him your hands cupping his face as he moved his hands on your waist. You part away from him looking into his eyes.
"I knew all that boxing and gym was bullshit. You would much rather stay in hibernation." You whispered looking into his dreamy chocolate brown eyes and wiping his tears away.
Peter chuckled happily and kissed the palm of your hand lovingly. "Will you stay with me forever y/n y/l/n?" he asked looking at you with hope and admiration.
"Yes, yes I always will stay with you, Peter Parker," you said as Peter rested his forehead on yours.
"I wanted to give you this on your birthday when I tell you the truth but now just seems a much better time," he said and pulled out a necklace from his pocket. It was a beautiful rose gold chain with a spider pendant on it. On the backside, a small P was carved on it.
You gasped at the thoughtful gift as tears shimmer in your eyes again. "This is like a promise necklace, I promise to stay with you forever clumsy," he said and gently clasped it around your neck.
"This is beautiful Peter," you said as a tear slipped from your eye which he brushed away. "I promise to stick with you forever coffee guy," you said lovingly and kissed him again with much passion.
Your hands went around his neck as you played with his hair and slowly melted in his embrace. His lips left your mouth and went down to your jawline kissing each curve with much love.
He slowly went towards your collarbone leaving love bites on our neck. He stopped for a second and admired the necklace which rested on your neck with a smile he kissed the necklace and then your collarbone.
He sucked on your skin harshly making you moan his name and tug on his hair a bit harshly. Peter hummed at the feeling as he slowly trailed the kisses down to your chest until your clothes interrupted him.
"Does this mean that your love bites are bug bites?" you asked moaning when he bit on your cooler bone harshly. Peter chuckled and licked the spot to bring you some relief.
"Sure you can say that clumsy," he mumbled and pulled your shirt over your head. He admired your chest covered in your bra with loving eyes as his hands went back to unclasp your bra.
You gasped slightly when he ripped the bra apart when he couldn't manage to open it. "Hey that was one of my most comfortable ones," you whined at him.
Peter only laughed and went to leave love bites on your chest. "I will buy you more and as many as you want," he said and gently pushed you backward on the bed and began his art of leaving hickeys all over your body.
"You are getting late for your flight," he mumbled as he covered your nipple with his mouth. "The flight can wait." You said and arch your back in pleasure tugging his hair gently.
"I am going to love you the whole day clumsy," Peter said as he came back to kiss you on the lips exploring your mouth with his tongue.
And this was the first time that you wouldn't regret missing your flight.
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Omg, this was my first time writing this, I do feel like I need holy water now but oh well the damage is done.
I honestly don't know how to write this. Do let me know your opinions!
And send me a request if you have any^^
I am open to writing any characters that I am familiar with :)
