i'm a complete mess.

indie and private eli goldsworthy from degrassi next generation.

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“the last of us” inspired sentence starters

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“i sell hardcore drugs.”

“we need help.”

“you’re gonna be okay.”

“believe in the fireflies.”

“got enough ration cards to last us a few months.”

“be careful.”

“i am the romantic type.”

“don’t leave me to turn.”

“it’s gettin’ close to curfew.”

“going outside the wall is suicide.”

“you mumble in your sleep.”

“i hate bad dreams.”

“it’s called luck—and it’s gonna run out.”

“are you still breathing?”

“we’re shitty people.”

“our luck had to run out sooner or later.”

“don’t touch me.”

“she’s infected.”

“just fucking go.”

“i can’t swim.”

“does it sound like i know how to whistle?”

“i’m a pretty good shot with that thing.”

“let’s get the hell outta here.”

“goddammit—i’m clean!”

“i owe you nothin’.”

“there’s one inside.”

“it’s the normal people that scare me.”

“you of all people should understand that.”

“i can handle myself.”

“once upon a time, i had somebody i had to look after.”

“you don’t need to worry about me.”

“fuckin’ hunters.”

“i’ve been on both sides.”

“so–you kill a lot of innocent people?”

“you sacrifice the few to save the many.”

“i don’t think they saw us.”

“trust me, it ain’t easy.”

“damn it—spores.”

“somethin’ on your mind?”

“you make every shot count.”

“just so we’re clear… it was either him or me.”

“how’d i do?”

“yeah, well, i was tryin’ to kill you.”

“you’re bleeding.”

“we can help each other.”

“i saved you!”

“you wanna hear a joke about pizza? …never mind, it was too cheesy.”

“how is it you’re never scared?”

“what are you scared of?”

“i’m scared of ending up alone.”

“it’s all your fault!”

“thanks for not blowin’ my head off.”

“you survived because of me.”

“you lay your hands on me again, it won’t end well for you.”

“you still remember how to kill, right?”

“hey, hey—are you hurt?”

“i guess we’re both disappointed with each other, then.”

“what do you want from me?”

“i can’t get infected!”

“you are treading on some mighty thin ice here.”

“i’ve lost people, too.”

“you have no idea what loss is.”

“everyone i’ve ever cared for has either died or left me.”

“sounds like runners.”

“can you walk?”

“stay the fuck back!”

“i think we’re safe.”

“you’re a better shot with that thing than i am.”

“don’t sound so disappointed.”

“you handled yourself pretty nice back there.”

“i believe that everything happens for a reason.”

“you’re just a kid.”

“i can protect you.”

“i’ll come back for you.”

“you’re a fucking animal.”

“you have no idea what i’m capable of.”

“i’m gonna teach you how to play guitar.”

“another city, another abandoned quarantine zone.”

“is this everything you were hoping for?”

“we don’t have to do this.”

“i ain’t leavin’ without you.”

“i guess you can’t escape your past.”

“hands in the fucking air!”

“i pretty much lost everything.”

“no matter what, you keep finding something to fight for.”

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Self-Described and Self-Defined, 1965 - Kosuth, Joseph (Museu Coleção Berardo, Lisbon)

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Degrassi meme – Day 6 ↳ favorite crackship

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eli + emotional instability

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Touch It / Ariana Grande

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HEADCANON NUMBER TWO.

drugs and meds problems. 

MEDS. Eli doesn’t know how to take his MEDS properly that sometimes he could forget to take them and when people suggest to him not to take his MEDS, he did it because he knows that sometimes taking his MEDS makes him feel like a zombie and not actually feel anything like love or empathy.

DRUGS. he is addicted to drugs either it’s MDMA or WEED he like it, this helps him to write novel that he doesn’t know he could actually writeand sometimes his idea comes quickly. THOUGHT, those ideas are ridiculous he know he can do a great job. Well, that’swhat he thought.

he knows he had a problem with DRUGS and the dosage of his MEDS, but it doesn’t actually matter to him. as long as he is fine and can write properly. that’s also why that he comes to rehab a time in the years when he was in college.

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eli goldsworthy | paralyzed

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BIANCA. *

“Uh..y-yeah, okay.” she said, slowly licking her lower lip as she looked down at the script.

" okay, " he cleared his throat as he tried to be in the character skin as he adds, looking at Bianca into her eyes. " Julie, I know it's been hard for the both of us with this fucking psycho around us, trying to bully you and everything but.. " he sighs as he let go. " I'd like to know you are okay right now? I mean, really okay? not like in a way that I ask you, are you okay? I mean... do you feel what I feel right now? " he looks toward her as he waited for her reply and hope she doesn’t sense that he is talking to her instead of the character.

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NESSIE. *

“ Could you have chosen a better way to get rid of the car?Yes. But what happened happened, and that can’t change. What can change, is how you are now. If your ex can’t see the possibility of change, find someone better. “ She truly did believe that people could truly change, and that a bad deed could be corrected by a good one. “ I didn’t know you were bipolar, but I do know that you are stronger than your disorder. You always have to have hope that you can get better. “

" Every time I try to feel better something comes in my way and it still hurts a lot to think that I wanted to kill myself. " he said as he looked down. " I wish I didn't have that idea, but I was stubborn and unpredictable, so I did what I needed to do and crash my car into that fucking WALL and now it seems like people blame me for doing this... trying to get better when I know I can actually get better with times but something is keeping me to do good things... I don't know what to think of me or to think at all. " or own his own term, he said that he's a mess and will always be one no matter what happens in his life he is screwed.

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BIANCA. *

Chewing on the inside of her cheek, Bianca nodded her head and combed her fingers through her hair. “Yeah, I’d like that.”

“ let’s start with? “ he looked the page as he found an easy dialogues. “ with the page 10 . it’s a normal dialogue when harry say he loves julie without showing her first. is that okay with you? “

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BIANCA. *

“I’m just not comfortable with going on the stage right now.” she mumbled, chewing down on her lower lip.

“well, we can do the tryouts here if you prefer? “ he looked at back at his paper as he drifted his gaze toward her and smiled. “ i don’t want you to feel uncomfortable because of ... this. “

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