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people need to learn that their reality doesnt always align with other peoples and that is not inherently a bad thing unless you feed every single delusion the other person has and call it talking to fairies and angels and they end up with a schizoaffective disorder diagnosis because they believed you

#personal #you formed this. own it.

having a really good time in my head being simultaneously a singlet and plural

#oomfs really kept me safe last night #big respects #love u two

okay!

oomf lifted me up

i am a singlet again

i thought too hard about something but now i'm reoriented and want to write something complex.

#personal

i am not the same thing as the assholes who bothered you in the past. dont put me in that category in your head.

#personal #i dont blame you for fucking anything ok #its my fault #but you have to realize reality is more expansive than your own personal version of it

oomf would probably be happier never thinking about me again

#personal

i'm tired of oomf expecting me to apologize but having paragraphs of triggering bullshit and not letting me speak ever. i am not in the same state i was when i was psychotic.

#if you dont let me speak how can i say anything that will help you #i cant #you are literally putting up a wall so i can't do anything #have some self awareness!

maybe i lost this friend but this friend was already abandoning me and blaming my trauma on me the first time it happened. you can't save something that is unfixable on the other person's end.

#personal

im literally trying to avoid mental illness every fucking day but people keep trying to knock me down like me when im psychotic is me forever

#personal #i dont want your concern if its fake #and self serving #try walking in my shoes

people need to stop thinking i have to feel bad for being a fucking person. people aren't immune to trauma and mental illness and sometrimes a person is traumatized by something you don't expect them to be traumatized by. my other friends understand this perfectly well, it's just THAT ONE PERSON WHO DOESN'T GET IT BECAUSE THEY'RE CONVINCED IM A PIECE OF SHIT BECAUSE IM MENTALLY ILL AND DISDABLED.

#personal

this oomf already decided i was a problem the first time I experienced psychosis and blamed me for its own withdrawal

#personal #im sorry but you're not as reasonable as you think you are!#i cannot be just like you.

if i have to be wrong but i have to be right i can't be fucking anything. what don't other people get about this.

#there is literally no space to be a person #personal

you can't fucking save everyone. stop trying. and maybe you would realize my other friends don't hate or resent me for being weak despite knowing what I think about.

#personal #STOP TORTURING ME YOU'RE JUST BEING A JERK NOW.#JUST FUCKING STOP.#YOU'RE MAKING MY PSYCHOSIS WORSE BY FORCING ME BACK INTO MY TRIGGERS.#STOP. BEING. SADISTIC.

i wish people respected the mentally ill and disabled people in their lives but they don't.

#personal

why is oomf torturing me while i'm recovering from psychosis

#personal #YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING HARD THIS IS LEAVE ME ALONE IF YOU HAVE NOTHING GOOD TO SAY.#stop making yourself the main character of my life.#if you just fucking got over me in the past i would be normal.#i dont approach my other friends this way! it's literally just you!#i was planning on apologizing but what i saw you say isnt a good thing that helped me #get OVER YOURSELF #OTHER PEOPLE ARE BEING ABUSED DAILY

sorry im allowed to vent i can have feelings that are separate from other people's

#personal

if you don't understand what it's like, i can't make you understand.

#personal #just abandon me then #i didnt have any feelings anyway

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