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jim / 14 / i post whatever

[goobiest-goober]

intro!

hello! i go by jim and use he/him pronouns. my page is mostly going to be my art, writing, and probably random posts about whatever im really into atm!!

also im 14 so if you post nsfw of any kind, dni

my main interests are stranger things, the office, b99, house md, rdr2, dbh, gtav, steven universe, gravity falls, and the spiderverse movies!

whatever im super duper into changes like once every two weeks so this blog is never going to be consistent .

[apeironshiftingg]

The Scheduled Certainty Method

By Apeironshiftingg

Introducing the "Scheduled Certainty Method" by me.

This method focus on group power and sleep based. It's a great method if you tend to fall asleep in the middle of your method, because it is basically the point. This method has 2 different versions of itself, because it’s separated in 2 part, the first one which is the most important one (its the part that crisply helo you shift), and the second one that is the “rest” of the method, but is not necessary. The second part is to make it more method-like for people who feel like they need it. But the first part itself is already enough.

So this method is not just about hoping to shift. It's about knowing, deep down, that you will shift. Not "maybe," not "if I'm lucky," but "I've already decided, and that's it, it WILL happen". And so with this method, we're going to use that mindset + the power of collective intention to get you there. Also, I would like to mention that this method dosent just act like a placebo pill like most of the other methods, but it actually focus on your subconscious and help you actually shift. That’s why it has such a great success rate.

STEP 1: CHOOSE YOUR SHIFTING DAY (And Lock It In): Pick a specific day, like literally mark it on your calendar. Not just a vague "this weekend maybe," but a clear date where you'll have enough time and peace to shift. Also not too close to now, so don't say "tomorrow", give it at least a couple day for it to sink in (preferably with no pressure the next day to be able to actually let go). This is the date you're going to shift. No hesitation.

STEP 2: DAYS OF PROGRAMMING: In the days leading up to the shift, start robotic affirming. No overthinking, just repeat: "I am shifting", "I will shift on chosen dayl", ect. Repeat it while cleaning, walking, brushing your teeth, scrolling, breathing, as much as you can, especially when you're doubting yourself. You don't need to feel the affirmations, just repeat like you're programming a machine (until you then feel it). This step reprograms your brain to expect the shift, not just wish for it. To KNOW the shift. Then, I usually gather with other people who are also shifting (though the same method) We talk, we hype, we plan, we build anticipation together. We set the date together. We affirm for each other. We gaslight each other to really convince ourselves. So when the day comes? It's no longer hope. It's fact. It's done. It's known. I personally find it easier to do with other people because I feel like it's easier to gaslight each other than gaslight yourself alone.

STEP 3: WHEN TO DO IT: I highly recommend doing the method In the middle of the night, when you're super tired (set an alarm about 3 in the morning). BUT: it's also completely fine to fall asleep naturally with the intention of shifting or to combine it with a sleep method. You don't have to always wake up or interrupt your sleep As long as your intention is rock-solid, your body will take you there. This is the step where the first part is completed. You can simply fall asleep with the intention, or you can continue and do the second part of the method as well (but which is optional. BUT even if this part is optional, I recommend to do it, mostly if you never shifted before/ is having hard time with shifting). Some nights I just lie down, let go, and let it happen. But waking around 3am helps with the hypnagogic state (based on a general person “regular” sleep schedule).

STEP 4: Once you wake up at 3 am, stay tired as much as you can, don't try to wake up. Take your time. Slowly, softly relax your muscles and your mind. Don't rush it. Shifting is not about speed, it's about surrender. Keep your focus on the moment. Breathe. You're not trying to "make something happen." You're allowing it to. You can also start your favorite subliminal if you wish (I recommend preparing it before going to bed so you don't have to wake up too much).

STEP 5: DRIFT INTO THE HYPNAGOGIC STATE: Now allow your mind to drift into that soft, dreamy, in-between place. That state where you're not quite awake, not quite asleep, just floating. It is called the hypnagogic state. It's a state where the mind begins to disengage from the external world, this is the sweet spot. Don't force it. Let it come. Let yourself hover there. At some point in this hypnagogie state, you might start to feel things that people call "symptoms". Don't be scared It's natural while being in that state (transitional state of consciousness between wakefulness and sleep, characterized by a mix of brain activity and sensory experiences) Stay calm and go with it.

STEP 6: FINAL VISUALIZATION, ENGAGE ALL YOUR SENSES: Now's the moment, visualize your Desired Reality. See it, feel it, breathe it. Use all your senses. What does the air smell like? What are you wearing? Can you feel the floor? Hear the voices? It's real. Because it is. This is your final push. This visualization is the bridge between your CR and your DR.

STEP 7: LET GO (FULLY): This is the most important part: let go. Let go of needing it. Let go of pressure. Let the visualization drift off like a dream becoming real. You don't have to do anything more. No more affirming. No more trying. Just let yourself sleep, with full certainty that when you wake up, it will be in your DR (the point of group hyping because it's not just something you "hope" will happen, it convinced you and make you KNOW with certainty (this is the most important point, its the key)). It's something you decided is already done.

You don't shift because you're lucky or because you wish to, you shift because your consciousness agreed on one thing: "This is the date. This is the moment. And it is done."

-Apeiron

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[shaysplanet]

shay’s LENGTHY advice

literally everything i could think of that i’ve said, done, thought or been told that i currently align with… DISCLAIMER: this will not be revolutionary or new. everything i say has likely been said before, either by me or someone else. regardless, repeating things can penetrate the subconscious mind so i figure this can help at least one person finally “get it” when it comes to shifting. enjoy xo

there is no key but if there was one for shifting intentionally, it’d be to trust. trust your subconscious to know what its allowing to enter your sphere. trust that your mindset, as imperfect as it is, is still enough to shift. trust that shifting is meant for you. trust that this hasn’t been all for nothing.

those expectations you have need to be dropped. shifting will live up to everything you imagined and more but it’s not a movie. it’s just life. the moment you start viewing life through the lens of shifting and vice versa, that pedestaled, idealized version of your dr doesn’t seem so far anymore.

intention grows. it strengthens. it combines. never worry about whether you’re setting intention right because every connection you’ve made to your dr solidifies that intention.

intention is technically not the only thing you “need” to shift. sometimes we have anxiety. sometimes we need intention + familiarity. comfort. tethers. so keep that in mind when shifting to your drs. if you feel confident in your intention but still haven’t seen that “movement”… are you comfortable? does your dr feel like home?

use senses and emotion to embrace your dr. your surroundings. yourself. embody it wholly. not to shift but to familiarize. make your subconscious know that your dr is safe.

stray away from intense emotions when imagining but don’t run into the arms of something that bores you. unless you truly find an emotional connection constantly visualizing the place you’re waking up, use a different emotional tether or connection to shift to your dr. mine, for example, is my mom. she’s been my tether for both shifting to my dr and shifting from it back to my cr. i think of her and everything around me settles. it soothes. i know i am home. find something like that.

shifting is not physical. so using physical crutches (whether that be scripting, methods, night time routine, etc.) aren’t the things making you progress in your journey. not to say they’re pointless but if you find yourself putting your trust in those things over your own mind, you need to step back and re-evaluate. ie: “i have to do [ ] before i can shift to my dr!”

stop looking for what you did wrong. curb it and just feel. intellectualizing your perceived failures is keeping you in a loop of blaming yourself for not receiving your desires. there is no intellectualizing not shifting because it’s nothing you did wrong. shifting isn’t something you do, it’s something you are. you are constantly shifting, evolving and aligning. even when it seems like nothing happened, something did. believe that and allow it to be the thing you remind yourself of when you’re frustrated.

speaking of, frustration and anger will not stop you from shifting. desperation will not stop you from shifting. any negative emotion you have about shifting will not stop you from shifting. what stops you is the assumption that it will. the assumption that you’ve just “messed” up and now you need to start again. the overcorrecting. the constant checking. all of it is just rooted from a limited self belief already. when i say nothing is stopping you from shifting except yourself, i don’t mean your emotions. you aren’t your emotions but the observer of them. i am literally talking about the you that’s observing this. that’s processing this. you are capable of observing and processing your emotions without taking them on as who you are.

usually when i shift, i don’t affirm anything related to shifting. i just really focus on belonging in a dr. i use trigger words that put visuals in my head without me needing to force it (because i find the more natural and at ease i feel, the easier it is for me to slip).

shifting begins the moment you decide it does. in this year alone, i have not taken more than 10 minutes to shift. when i decide i’m going to my dr—even if i don’t end up shifting—i feel the immediate click. that immediate transfer of awareness, of connection. it’s hard to describe but when you know, you know.

symptoms are a byproduct of shifting—yes! but they’re more a result of resistance to shifting. shifting is internal and not a physical process. it’s not meant to be felt as much as it’s meant to be embodied. the less symptoms you feel (in my experience) = the more aligned and in flow you are with just being in the dr. i mean think about it, when you’re here do you randomly feel symptoms? no. so they shouldn’t be a marker for how close you are. and if you need more convincing, look back at past attempts. i’m willing to bet that the moment you looked for those markers in your shifts, those external symptoms, you’d lose em just as fast. it’s because you grounded yourself here.

now this won’t be the case for everyone but i’ve found more success in not attempting than trying to. literally just rolling over and saying “fuck it”. i think the reasoning behind that is there’s no resistance that i’ve built. i’m not attached to any outcome AND shifting is always in the back of my mind ANYWAY so boom. because of this, i haven’t “tried” to shift since late august/early september lmfaoo

success is not only about shifting or not shifting. the journey of shifting is so much greater than getting to your dr. getting to your dr is guaranteed aa long as you don’t quit but while you’re walking towards that inevitable fact, you should also be walking towards self sufficiency. having grace for yourself. talking yourself down from spirals and listening to your intuition.

how can you expect to trust your intuition when you call yourself a liar mid sentence? when you immediately believe the “hah, you know you’re not shifting tonight, just go to sleep.” stop operating under logical fallacies and hold yourself accountable. instead of spiraling every time an undesirable emotion pops up, use it as your time to build your intuition and self reflection. why did it come up and when exactly did it happen? during what word? journal, process and release. be just as intentional about your trust as you are about shifting.

shift for whatever the hell you want. script whatever the hell you want. but understand that shifting is still real life. while it’s not something you can tangibly transfer from here to there and vice versa, reckless shifting habits can still consciously affect you as if you experienced it in this reality. you’re breaking down barriers by shifting. by refusing to accept a single awareness as home. so be sure to take care of your mental health by viewing shifting as reality and not fiction.

the past can inform your current decisions but do not allow it to dictate them. don’t allow a perceived failure from your past to keep you from experiencing your desired present.

stop being a fucking martyr. i said it best in my dr but, “you don't have to die to matter. you don't have to be covered in blood to deserve a warm bath.” stop taking on others trauma. stop trying to be a fucking hero. if you’re meant to be that, you will be that, you don’t need to script it. allow yourself to step up to the plate in the moment instead of planning to do so just to sit in your bed, procrastinating shifting because you’re too goddamn scared to go experienced what YOU wrote down.

for the last time, you are not moving your consciousness, it’s not going anywhere! you’re just aligning your awareness to something you desire!! consciousness is everywhere so it doesn’t require movement.

don’t micromanage each moment, sometimes it’s okay to just do nothing in it. feeling symptoms? do nothing. observe but do not engage. don’t over analyze in the moment because that’s what doesn’t allow the flow. think of the symptoms like your subconscious testing if this is a safe mental state. if it’s safe you aren’t going to overreact—you’re just gonna let it pass through.

instead of striving for the perfect experience, focus on the joy and fulfillment of the process. remind yourself that the outcome of shifting is inevitable (you either shift or you don’t) so detach from results. focus on the feeling of already being there instead of the method. truly emotionally align yourself more with your dr self than the want to shift.

do not rush imagination. if you get lost in a daydream, feel it fully with no expectations of how long or short it needs to be. you don’t have to finish before sleeping. you don’t have to rush through it because you’re tired. if you fall asleep, you fall asleep. you’re set. trust your connection.

don’t go into shifting acting as though you know what it looks like if you haven’t experienced it yet. that blocks off so many avenues of how you can you shift, where you can, what you can shift into etc. this is one of the reasons i stopped scripting. it felt like i was blocking off the when, where and how of shifting. i didn’t want to write down my destiny, i wanted to live it. to figure it out in the moment instead of making an epic story before even experiencing it.

gratitude gets you farther than you’d think. back in april, my guides showed me in a dream that i can shift by simply listing off the things i was grateful for in my dr and allowing those feelings to fill me. it’s something i go back to when i want an easy connection.

understand that you’re not a product of reality, reality is a product of you. when you experience a circumstance that is unsatisfactory, it doesn’t have to be real unless you confirm (through your assumptions) that it is. so if you wanted to shift really badly and woke up here, rewrite that circumstance. you did shift. maybe you just forgot? allow that to be your truth and move on.

so many shifters succeed through repetition, emotional attunement and energy work. and those are little shifts within themselves. shifting for a lot of us is very healing. and sometimes the journey we go on to reach this destination is apart of the medicine that aligns us with our highest selves. as you continue to subconsciously integrate the work you’ve put in to build to a full shift, you may find that shifting happens quicker. but you must understand that even if shifting is not universally instantaneous for you, it doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong. continue to persist. don’t doubt your capabilities.

shifting can come to you effortlessly. you don’t have to work for it. no physical routine is going to guarantee you a shift, it’s your alignment to the place and your willingness to just be. to flow.

divine timing does not have to apply to you. there doesn’t have to be a higher source controlling when you shift. if anything, you can be that higher source. you can be the divine that’s deciding.

if you are doing anything that resembles chasing a shift, you are creating underlying resistance. shifting is natural. we will do it forever and ever and ever. making decisions to try to force it into happening is just you contradicting the natural ability you were born with.

many people have probably shifted and they thought they were dreaming because the shift wasn’t long enough for them to fully comprehend and realize they were living in reality. sometimes shifting feels so natural that you don’t get an “aha i shifted!” moment until you come back but don’t let that deter you. usually if you feel like you shifted, you did (in some capacity).

as much as you may complain about not having shifted yet, you’re very comfortable and familiar with this reality and uncomfortable with your dr. you may live too deeply in the “i wanna shift” state and not the “i wanna be my dr self” state. your dr does not have to be as far away as you make it seem in your head. it’s within you. that’s never far.

the emotions you feel around your dr cannot just be made up! there’s a reason you feel so strongly and so connected to the people of your dr. they’re meant for you. you’re meant to know them. to know shifting.

you don’t have to keep focusing on your dr until the absolute last second before you fall asleep or shift. not only is it impractical and asks you to have perfect thoughts but also it’s just false? i don’t know why some of you have it in your head to do that but it’s wrong! just do what comes naturally to you. even if that’s doing nothing at all.

That’s all for now! I hope this post helps you in some way. I’d really appreciate it if you could reblog and like it so that it can reach anyone who might need it. <33

[goobiest-goober]

did i just stay up til 2am watching vol1? yeah. am i gonna stay up even later to rewatch it and hyperanalyze every glance mike and will make at each other? definitely.

[goobiest-goober]

btw now that will has basically completely his arc of self-acceptance vol2 is gonna be primarily focused on mike and wills relationship + mikes feelings

[bylerworld]

this is your reminder that el was publicly humiliated and harassed at rink o'mania by her bullies but according to mike wheeler what sabotaged the whole day was will minding his own business. i can't believe this is canon. what the hell.

[goobiest-goober]

felt like doodling tonight

[elmaxrevived]

Why does El do that?

(Selective mutism, and regressing when triggered)

This post is partly inspired by this compilation from @givehimthemedicine

“my favorite El move is when people are begging her for information and she just stares at them until the scene ends”

Why does El do this? Easy! It’s CPTSD, selective mutism, and triggered regression.

All moments where El displays this behavior are in very high stress situations. Sometimes they are played more light hearted/with a somewhat comedic energy, but the context is always high stress. This alone could be enough of a reason for her fall back into her selective mutism, but there is something even more interesting here.

More specifically, it is always a response to being asked a question about using her powers. Usually, being asked to describe information she’s seen in the void. There is a very clear trigger here for these mute moments.

She is having emotional flashbacks to her one on one time with Dr Brenner.

Emotional flashbacks do not come with visual aspects, and usually the person experiencing them is unaware that their emotions/body are not in the same place that their mind is. (This is a symptom that most of the cast has experienced on screen, and have a lot more to say about it as a whole) El is reverting emotionally to that specific time in her life. She doesn’t see her friends as Dr Brenner, and probably isn’t directly thinking about him at the time, but her nervous system doesn’t see a difference.

There’s a lot of things I want to talk about with El’s selective mutism as a whole, but what I really want to point out, is that El spoke perfectly fine before the massacre.

Thanks to season 4, we now know that all throughout season 1, El had perfectly fine intellectual knowledge of the English language. As she began to talk more and more, she wasn’t learning all new vocabulary. She had words taught to her that she was not exposed to while in the lab. (friendship,compromise, etc.) But it’s most likely the case that her improved speech in season 2, was due to having someone to comfortably speak to on a regular basis.

Her relationship with Dr Brenner as the only number left, caused speech to feel dangerous for El. (Possibly from a period of prolonged punishment for speaking to Henry) It isn’t uncommon for victim’s of childhood abuse.

El’s ability to project the voice of the Russian man into the lab speakers, wasn’t her going above and beyond. It was probably easier for her to reach her abilities further than before, than to describe what she’s seen to papa. She was finding an alternate way of communicating that was safe for her.

What we've seen throughout the show is Eleven getting her voice back, because she starts to feel safe. This part of her arc climaxed with her monologue to Brenner in season 4. (It’s one of my favorite moments in the show)

These examples of her lack of response to her friends' questions, are her momentarily regressing to that small, voiceless, version of herself.

This specific symptom of El’s trauma is so important to me because I've experienced this exact same thing for many years. (like many symptoms this show demonstrates) It’s one of those PTSD symptoms that is so often surrounded with confusion and frustration. So it feels incredibly validating to see it portrayed here.

We never get the follow up to these moments with El, just the knowledge that the characters eventually get the answer to their questions. It makes me feel weirdly giddy to be able to easily imagine exactly what happens right after the camera cuts. Cause I’ve lived it.

Then again, I get that same giddy feeling from the whole show. It’s finally feeling understood

[bylercertainty]

el my baby ☹️☹️☹️ this made me cry i hate how she is ridiculed by ga for her trauma

[strangerlesbians]

i see no difference

[susano0o0o0o0o]

It pisses me off SO BAD when people say El is as bad a girlfriend as Mike is a boyfriend.

I’ve seen people say “oh she lied to him” but guys unpopular opinion it was NOT that big of a deal. It was her first time being a member of society and she was embarrassed about getting bullied. Like yeah, sure, she shouldn’t have lied, but at the end of the day, it’s not like that hurt Mike. Him saying “oh why didn’t you tell me I know what it’s like” is kind of out of touch in my opinion, because he truly does NOT know what it’s like? Yeah, he got bullied pretty badly as a kid, but Eleven is talking about something completely different. She’s tried to understand Mike’s experiences, but he doesn’t seem to grasp what is going on inside her head at any point.

The other thing I’ve seen people say is that she makes Mike feel insecure. WHAT? Genuinely this take makes me so mad. What the fuck should she do about that? He’s never even tried telling her how he feels. Should she read his mind?

I understand Mike is dealing with a lot of internal conflict and I’m not saying he’s a bad person for feeling that way or that it’s wrong, but, if El was my friend, I’d tell her to dump that man IMMEDIATELY. I do really like Mike, I appreciate the complexities of his character and I do believe that he’s masterfully written. I too have traumatized men because of my internalized homophobia. BUT that doesn’t mean El is just as in the wrong when it comes to their issues, or Mike’s issues. Sure, they don’t work, but it’s not because El doesn’t listen to mike’s feelings or El makes him feel insecure.

[goobiest-goober]

the song that plays when connor and hank first meet in jimmy's bar, "straight and narrow," foreshadows the rest of connor's story.

this is something i noticed when listening to this song and its suuppeerr interesting to me so i thought id share.

disclaimer: if some of this seems like it just doesnt actually align with the game its probably cause i havent played in months. this is just me yapping so take away from this whatever u want

this is the opening line to the song. i think this pretty clearly represents connor's goals and views in the beginning of the game. he wants to keep staying on the "straight and narrow", doing what he was programmed to do and what amanda tells him to do.

i feel like this could represent how connor views hank. even though hank is a depressed alcoholic, connor still respects him and recognizes that he's an amazing cop. this line is sort of representing the middle of the game imo, where connor is beginning to feel emotion more strongly, and obviously he believes thats "bad news."

honestly this part is veeeryy open to interpretation imo, especially since the state connor is in later in the game depends very heavily on the players choices. so i have two interpretations:

1. this is connor asking hank to "help me see right from wrong." connor is starting to break free, to realize his emotions, and hes relying on hank to help him figure out if what hes doing is right.

2. connor is asking amanda to help him see right from wrong. he knows hes becoming increasingly more emotional/deviant and he views this as bad and wants amandas help.

ONCE AGAIN. this can be interpreted as either connor speaking to amanda or speaking to hank. his views could have changed, he could be telling amanda he hopes she has no more complains, he is going to stay on the "straight and narrow"-- but HIS straight and narrow has changed. he doesnt want to hunt deviants. he wants to help them.

or it could be the other way around. hes speaking to hank. he hopes hank has no more complains, hes going to stay a machine.

i see this as him becoming deviant. before he deviated, he was a machine. he literally says, "you cant kill me, im not alive." but, if the player chooses deviant, connor is "taking his life back."

yaya thats all i gotta say 🙌🏻🙌🏻 i love this song sm its probably my favorite one in the entire dbh soundtrack

[fandomsick-deactivated20250907]

i NEED a mike wheeler mental breakdown in season 5. i want screaming and crying and shaking and stuttering and pacing and gesturing wildly he deserves it

i also want this for will. i want him to be scarier than all the horrors he's faced

[miwiromantics]

why do they look like middle age parents trying to figure out how face time works

[susano0o0o0o0o]

So we all know this scene:

But what caught my attention is the was Dustin says Mike is whining about it in the PRESENT TENSE. As in recently. What else happened recently? The letter El sent where she mentioned Will’s painting “for a girl”

I don’t believe Mike had been trying to call Will the whole time they were in California, because he would have brought it up during the fight. But what if he only tried to call recently, when the idea of Will moving on from Mike became a lot more real? Then it would make sense he wouldn’t bring it up, because 1. It wouldn’t prove his point if he only tried to call for the last, like, month, and 2. He’d have to admit why he suddenly started trying to call.

Guys did I cook or am I just insane

[susano0o0o0o0o]

I feel bad because I’ve been slandering Mike a bit too much, so here is some Will slander.

I know this is a super duper hot take, especially for hardcore Will fans (which I am), but I think he DEFINITELY should have stood up for El in California. Does the way he acted in the show make sense for his character? Sure. But it’s still a flaw of his character. I’m saying this as someone who has a brother that punched a guy for joking about having sex with me, so maybe my expectations are a bit high. Obviously, Will isn’t the type of person to do something like that, and I’m not expecting him to, but why is he waiting for this whole entire thing to go down (the school project thing outside) before comforting her? And just in general, Will and El act like they barely know each other when they’re in California, even though they’re meant to have lived together for like half a year. Honestly, the part I liked the most in their dynamic was the bickering when El was lying. I just think Will really needs to stop being so passive in everything that happens in his life. I understand it’s a trauma thing, but it’s still something he needs to work through.

ALSO why did Will have absolutely no reaction to El hitting Angela (tho I really appreciate how willing he was to lie to the police for her) like I wish he would have clocked Mike for being such an ass to her, or at least asked her if she was okay??? Idk the whole time we saw them together he was literally just doing nothing😭

Bro really just watched like 🥺 as Angela was dragging El off to the skating rink before FINALLY telling Mike.

[ihateswansmorethananything]

season 1 Miwi doodle because they’re in my head 24/7

[kittykat940]

Never forget this was mike wheelers reaction to will byers asking what about us?