Okay so heres an update. I really tried to make this shorter, but I just cant...
We got to the second buttplug before we stopped. I think I really underestimated how much it was gonna hurt. Ive fingered myself there before and that was okay I guess, but when he tried putting the first one in I already wanted to stop😫. It hurt so much and all I wanted to do was push it back out
We used SO SO much lube and I made sure I was relaxed before we even started, but I just couldnt fully rela with him. I was honestly just too scared and nervous. He told me we could always try again another day, but I didnt want that. I wanted to do this for him (and also for me), but mostly for him and I just really wanted to know what it felt like to be that full
So we took a break from the plugs and he used my toys on me instead. I think that helped me relax a bit more, but the whole time I was still thinking about the plugs. After like an hour I told him I wanted to try again
This time he went way slower and I took lots if deep breaths, this took like 15 minutes before it was fully in and stayed in. I was way more relaxed. It still didnt really feel good, but it was definitely better than before. It just felt... really weird. I felt so full and I was literally breathing differently because I was scared Id accidentally push it out or something😂
When I finally got used to it, I told him I wanted to try something new on him. Wed never talked about it before because everything was always about me, and honestly I was too embarrassed to bring it up because I thought hed think it was weird😅
I got up to grab one of my toys from my nightstand and went to wash it. But the second I stood up I instantly wanted to sit back down because standing up felt so much weirder than lying down. I sat on the edge of my bed for literally a second but that just pushed the plug in further... and yeah I hated that feeling 😭. So I just laid back down again. I explained what I wanted to do, and he washed the toy while I got comfortable again
Fast forward to me agsin, and we tried the second buttplug. It definitely wasnt easy, but it went in a lot better than I expected. It stretched me more, and this time I actually kind of liked it. It still hurt a little, but in a good way. Moving around still felt strange, but I could finally understand why some people enjoy it
We ended up just lying in bed for a while, watching something. He made me watch Demon Slayer😀 Not even the first episode, no just some random one in the middle. It kind of ruined the mood, but honestly, I still liked it. 😂
After a while I told him I wanted to try the tird one. We took our time, he went really slow, and he kept trying to help me relax, but for some reason I just couldnt. That really annoyed me. At one point I tried to ignore the pain and just have him push through it, but it got way too painful, so we had to stop
I honestly regret trying to force it because now my ass hurt so much, and even sitting is uncomfortable😔
So after we showered, I got an ass massage for the first time, and then we watched Demon Slayer again until I fell asleep
Were probably going to try it again in this week
So yea thats the update. If you actually made it all the way to the end, thank you. 😭 I really enjoyed the experience overall, and now im really really curious about what it would feel like to lose my virginity
I also got an ask about where he bought the buttplugs from, but the ask disappeared😅 Theyre from bol.com. If anyone wants the exact name of the set, just send me another ask or message:))
And if anyones is interested in the part where I used one of my toys on him, you can send me an anon ask too. That was a completely new experience for both of us, but such a good one
