heyy i love ur clarisse works omg!!! i would loveee if you could do another apollo!reader x clarisse fic but reader is more into music than the archery aspect of apollo cabin⊠maybe reader gives out guitar lessons to the kids at camp and sings at the campfire and clarisse finds herself warming to her.. đ
TOWARDS THE SUN | PART.1
paring: clarisse la rue x daughter of apollo!reader
description: clarisse never understood what exactly was so special about you. you spent your days covered in paint, always surrounded by kids or with a guitar in your hands. to clarisse, you represented exactly the opposite of everything she valued. yet it only took one dislocated shoulder for the looks of contempt to start lingering longer, for the sound of that stupid guitar to begin echoing in her mind, and little by little, the hatred turned into an unexpected warmth.
warnings: english isn't my first language, sorry in advance!
a/c: this request ended up getting huge, so i decided to split it into two parts, but don't worry, part two is now available on my profile!
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Clarisse never understood what exactly was so special about you.
She now watched you from afar, arms crossed over her broad chest, covered by the bronze armor scratched from simulated battles. The afternoon summer sun beat down hard on the training field, making sweat run down the backs of the campers who clashed with swords and spears, the clang of metal echoing like a hymn to war. But you? You were there, sitting on the soft grass near the Apollo cabin, that worn-out guitar resting in your lap, fingers dancing over the strings as if the world around you didnât exist.
Clarisse huffed quietly, wiping the sweat from her forehead with the back of her gloved hand. Daughter of Ares, she lived for the controlled chaos of combat, the weight of the spear in her hands, the impact of shields colliding, the metallic taste of blood in her mouth after a hard-won victory. Her cabin siblings were like her: warriors forged in the fire of the arena.
They trained themselves to death day after day, running through the forest or facing the nocturnal harpies that patrolled the campâs borders. It was the dirty work, the kind that kept everyone alive when the outside world threatened to invade with its mythological creatures. And you were the absolute opposite of all that.
She leaned against a nearby tree, eyes narrowed, fixed on you as you tuned the guitar with a patience that irritated her deeply.
Does she just do this all day? Clarisse thought, feeling a knot of contempt form in her stomach.
While the rest of them bled and fought, you sat there, perched like a princess on your throne of grass. Teaching guitar to the younger kids, those overly loud Hermes brats, or the Aphrodite kids who pretended interest just to flirt with you. Painting canvases in the cabinâs shadows or sketching portraits of campers, as if any of that mattered in a world where survival depended on a sharp blade, not a musical note.
Clarisse shook her head, feeling her curly hair stick to her sweaty neck. You werenât like the other Apollo kids, the ones who at least deigned to step onto the battlefield with bows and arrows. Not even like the healers, who dirtied their hands with potions and bandages, saving lives in the heat of the fight. No, you were the embodiment of art.
But why? Why did the entire camp seem to adore you for it? Even Chiron smiled when he heard your voice echoing during the nighttime campfires.
âSheâs nothing special,â Clarisse muttered to herself, kicking a loose stone on the ground that rolled down the packed dirt path. âNothing that deserves all this worship.â
You were so peaceful. So serene amid the chaos. While she and her siblings dealt with sweat, pain, and the brutal glory of victory, you floated through the camp, handing out smiles and...kindness. Ew. That repelled her like nothing else. Every trait of yours that charmed everyone else, the gentleness in teaching a child to strum a string, the quiet focus while mixing paints on a palette, the voice that rose like a sunrise during sing-alongs, was like a blade against her warrior pride.
You represented everything she hated: weakness disguised as beauty, passivity pretending to be strength, the luxury of creating instead of destroying. In a world of capricious gods and starving monsters, how could someone like you be so loved? How could you, a daughter of Apollo, shine so brightly without ever dirtying your hands in the mud of battle?
Just as Clarisse took the first step to walk away from the tree, the sound of dry leaves being stepped on made her freeze. She turned her head sharply, neck muscles taut like bowstrings, and there was Silena Beauregard, daughter of Aphrodite, with that sly smile that always seemed to know too much.
The afternoon sun lit up her dark, wavy hair, falling perfectly over her shoulders as if sheâd stepped out of a beauty session instead of a day at camp. Silena wore an orange Camp Half-Blood t-shirt, but somehow managed to make it look elegant, a delicate shell necklace tinkling softly in the breeze. Her warm brown eyes, the kind that could melt even the hardest heart, fixed on Clarisse with a mix of amusement and curiosity.
âYouâre doing it again.â
Clarisse rolled her eyes dramatically, huffing as if Silenaâs mere presence was an unwanted interruption.
âIâm not doing anything,â she grumbled, voice low and rough, laced with the coldness she wore like armor.
She crossed her arms tighter, planting her feet like she was bracing for a fight, even though she knew with Silena the battles were always with words, not blades. The sun hit her back, warming the bronze armor, but she felt an inner chill, as if sheâd been caught red-handed stealing candy from the Hermes cabin.
Silena laughed softly, a light, musical sound that carried through the air, making a few heads turn on the nearby field. She stepped closer, completely ignoring Clarisseâs defensive stance, and placed a hand on her hip with natural grace.
âCome on, Clarisse. Your eyes are gonna burn a hole through her head if you keep staring like that.â
Clarisse felt her face heat up, a mix of anger and embarrassment she hated admitting.
âNone of your business, Beauregard,â she shot back, voice sharper than she intended, like the edge of a freshly sharpened spear. âGo braid your hair or whatever you Aphrodite kids do in your cabin.â
But Silena wasnât the type to back down easily. She stepped even closer, the subtle scent of wildflowers, jasmine mixed with something sweet and indefinable, invading Clarisseâs space, forcing her to fight the urge to step back. Silena tilted her head, studying her friendâs face with genuine curiosity, lips curved in a mischievous smile.
âWhat was it this time?â Silena blinked, exaggerating innocence, and poked Clarisseâs arm lightly with her finger, as if testing the rigidity of a statue.
Clarisse grumbled something unintelligible, a low growl that sounded more like a hunting dog than a human reply. She kicked another loose stone, sending it flying into the tall grass, and crossed her arms even tighter, forearm muscles visibly flexing.
âYouâre annoying, you know that? Worse than a hungry harpy. I was just looking. Strategy. Daughter of Ares and all that.â But her voice faltered at the end, and she knew Silena would notice.
Their interactions were always like this: a comedic dance of stubbornness and disguised affection, like two sisters fighting over an invisible toy. Clarisse was the unshakeable wall, and Silena, the breeze that found every crack.
Silena raised her eyebrows, feigning exaggerated surprise, and dramatically placed a hand over her heart.
âStrategy? Oh, of course! Because staring at an Apollo kid playing guitar is the peak of military tactics. Next step: invade Troy with a flute band!â She laughed again, louder this time, the sound bubbling like a fountain in the pavilion, and stepped to the side, circling Clarisse as if appraising a sculpture. âSpill it already. Why does every time she shows up you get that âwho dared invade my territoryâ face?â
Clarisse groaned, running a hand over her sweaty face, messy curls falling into her eyes.
âFine, fine! Stop circling me like a damn fly!â She finally turned to face Silena head-on, shoulders relaxing just a fraction despite herself.
There was something about Silenaâs cheerful persistence that always wore her down, like water eroding rock.
âGods, look at her!â She pointed discreetly in your direction, where you were still immersed in the guitar lesson. âSheâs sitting there playing little songs while weâre killing ourselves in training. Does that seem fair to you?â
Silena frowned slightly, her smile softening into something more thoughtful, as if reading between the lines of a poem. She crossed her arms, tilting her head to watch you in the distance, the wind lightly tousling her hair.
âIâm pretty sure thatâs not what actually bothers you, Clarisse. Training is training, but you donât get like this with everyone who skips the arena.â
Clarisse groaned in irritation, a guttural sound that rumbled low, like an engine about to explode. She pinched the bridge of her nose, feeling frustration bubble like a badly brewed potion.
âFor Aresâ sake⊠I just want to understand whatâs so special about her that everyone seems to melt around her. Like, actually melt! Chiron smiles, the nymphs applaud, even the Hephaestus kids stop hammering to listen. Itâs ridiculous!â
Silena couldnât hold back the laugh this time, a genuine one that started as a muffled snort and turned contagious, making her shoulders shake. She covered her mouth with her hand, eyes dancing with amusement, while Clarisse stood there, annoyed, cheeks flushing with anger mixed with embarrassment.
âYouâre hilarious when you get like this! Like a lioness growling at a butterfly.â Silena wiped an imaginary tear from the corner of her eye, still laughing. âMaybe if you tried⊠I donât know? Actually getting to know her? Then youâd understand. Who knows, you might find out she doesnât bite, or at least not like you do.â She winked again, the teasing light and affectionate.
Clarisse slowly turned her face toward Silena, eyes wide with a mix of disbelief and near offense, as if the daughter of Aphrodite had just suggested Ares was a peaceful god who liked flowers. Her lips parted, but no words came out right away; instead she blinked twice, as if trying to process the absurdity of it all.
âWhat?â Silena asked, tilting her head again, tone still light but now with a hint of genuine curiosity.
Clarisse let out a short, dry, humorless laugh, shaking her head as if Silena had said the dumbest thing in the world. She started walking, steps heavy and deliberate, kicking dry dirt with every stride as she headed back toward the training field path. She raised her voice just enough to be heard without turning her face.
âIâm gonna pretend I didnât hear that so our friendship can continue,â she said, tone dripping with cold sarcasm, as if declaring a unilateral truce.
Silena stood frozen for a second, mouth open, brown eyes wide in disbelief. She threw her arms out in an exaggerated âwhat just happened here?â gesture, her necklace swinging with the motion.
âClarisse! Iâm being serious!â she shouted, voice rising a pitch, mixing frustration and contained laughter.
She took two quick steps after her friend, but Clarisse didnât slow down, in fact, she sped up, broad shoulders tense as if marching into battle instead of fleeing a conversation.
âClarisse La Rue, you stubborn-headed girl, get back here right now!â
Clarisse didnât bother answering. She kept walking, curly hair swaying with each firm step, until she disappeared a little among the trees lining the path. The sound of swords and training shouts already began to swallow her footsteps.
Silena stopped in the middle of the grass, hands on hips, staring at her friendâs retreating back. She huffed loudly, a frustrated and almost comical sound, as if dealing with a stubborn five-year-old instead of a nearly six-foot daughter of Ares made of pure stubbornness.
âWhat a stubborn girl,â she muttered to herself, slowly shaking her head.
The wind blew again, carrying with it the distant sound of your guitar melody, soft, insistent, as if mocking the tension that had just formed between the two of them. Silena ran a hand through her hair, letting out a long, defeated sigh, but with a stubborn little smile still curving her lips.
She turned her face toward you for a moment, watching you there, oblivious to everything, fingers still dancing over the strings while an eight-year-old girl tried to imitate the rhythm with adorable seriousness. Silena shook her head once more, then started walking slowly back toward the pavilion, her thoughts clearly still spinning around the friend who had run from her own truth.
A few days passed, and the summer continued relentless: the sun punishing skin, the air thick with dust kicked up by campersâ feet in runs and combats, the constant smell of scorched pine mixed with sweat and weapon metal.
Clarisse didnât stop watching you.
It wasnât something sheâd admit out loud, not even to herself really, but every time she passed near the Apollo cabin or the central lawn, her eyes betrayed the habit. She saw you, always serene, always clean, always surrounded by light laughter and children who seemed to orbit you like satellites drawn to a private sun. And every time she saw that scene, the knot in her stomach tightened a little more.
That particular afternoon, the sky was dyed burnt orange by the sunset, and Clarisse had just come out of a particularly brutal training session. Her arms burned from lifting the spear so much, her thighs trembled from running the obstacle course, and there was a fresh smear of wet dirt on her left cheek where sheâd fallen after a poorly calculated strike from a cabin brother.
The bronze armor was dirty, scratched, with bits of grass stuck to the plates; her curly hair, usually tied in a tight ponytail or braids, had come loose in rebellious, sweat-damp strands that clung to her neck and temples. She smelled of effort, hot metal, and turned earth. But she didnât care how exposed she felt like this, dirty, sweaty, real, as she walked toward the Big House.
She climbed the wide wooden porch steps with heavy footfalls, intention clear: find Chiron, complain about some injustice in the patrol schedule, or simply vent the dayâs accumulated rage. But she stopped on the last step when she saw you.
You were sitting on the porch swing, guitar in your lap like a natural extension of your body. The kids, five or six of various ages, were scattered around you on cushions and improvised rugs, some with small guitars in their hands, others just listening with bright eyes. You wore the simple orange camp t-shirt, clean and spotless, worn but impeccable jeans, and your loose hair fell in soft waves over your shoulders, catching the golden light of dusk.
Pure radiance. Irritating serenity. Everything Clarisse wasnât in that moment.
You looked up when you noticed her presence. The movement was natural, unstartled, and a welcoming smile curved your lips. Clarisse felt her stomach twist, not from hunger, but from something she refused to name. Anger? Contempt? Envy disguised as disgust?
You stopped strumming the strings and tilted your head slightly.
âWant to try?â you asked, voice calm, almost gentle, as if offering a slice of cake instead of an instrument Clarisse considered useless.
Clarisse stood frozen there on the last step, staring at you with an expression that could freeze the canoe lake. Her arms crossed automatically over her chest, armor creaking faintly. She felt the contrast between the two of you like a punch to the gut: you, immaculate and luminous; her, dirty, sweaty, dirt on her boots and a fresh scar on her forearm dripping sweat mixed with dust.
âMusic doesnât rip a hydraâs head off,â she spat, voice low and cutting, loaded with disdain. Each word came out like a blade being sharpened.
For the briefest second, so quick almost no one would notice, the smile vanished from your face. Your eyes blinked, a shadow passed through them, something vulnerable and human. But then you regained control, the smile returned, softer, more restrained, as if nothing had happened.
âThen you must be looking for ChironâŠâ you said, voice still gentle, but now with a tone that acknowledged the wall Clarisse had built.
Clarisse didnât answer right away. Her eyes scanned you up and down, the relaxed posture, hands resting on the guitar, the way the children around you seemed protected just by your presence. She shifted uncomfortably, transferring weight from one leg to the other, as if the porch floor had suddenly become too hot. Her arms stayed crossed, deep scowl marking her forehead, but there was something new there: a faint discomfort she couldnât explain.
She nodded once, sharp and affirmative, without softening the scowl. You sighed softly, not in irritation, but in a kind of amused resignation, and jerked your chin toward the inside of the Big House.
âPlaying poker with Mr. D.â
Clarisse snorted through her nose, a short, disdainful sound, but didnât move immediately. She stood there another second, eyes still fixed on you, as if deciding whether it was worth saying anything else or just turning and walking in. The children around you started whispering, one nudging another and discreetly pointing at Clarisse, as if she were a mythological monster that had decided to appear on the porch.
Finally, Clarisse uncrossed her arms, turned on her heel, and climbed the last steps with a low grunt.
âDonât waste time teaching those kids little songs when the world out there wants to kill them,â she muttered, more to herself than to you, but loud enough to be heard.
She passed by you without looking again, shoving the Big House door open harder than necessary. The creak of wood echoed across the porch, and the sound of the childrenâs giggles slowly returned, as if the air had been released from invisible pressure.
But Clarisse, already inside the house, felt the weight of that calm gaze on her back for much longer than she cared to admit.
[âŠ]
The sun was already low enough that the arena looked bathed in blood and copper, the air heavy with the smell of hot sand, sweat, and heated metal. The clang of weapons had quieted a little; many campers were already finishing training, cleaning blades, wrapping makeshift bandages around bruised wrists, but there was still enough noise to drown out murmured conversations.
Clarisse stood in the center of the sword-training area, curly hair plastered to her forehead and temples in layers of sweat and dust. She spun the practice spear between her fingers, trying to keep Silena focused.
âOne more time. Cross attack, I block with the spear and counter low. Donât hesitate, Beauregard, or Iâll drop you again.â
âYouâre killing me on purpose today, arenât you? My arm already feels like jelly.â
âJelly doesnât kill monsters,â Clarisse shot back, dry. âGo.â
Silena advanced. The strike came better this time, faster, cleaner. Clarisse raised the spear to block, but her eyes betrayed her focus. They lifted, as always, to the bleachers.
You were there.
Full armor, polished bronze reflecting the sunset in shades of liquid fire. The breastplate molded to your body, greaves tight on your shins, bracers that never seemed to have taken a real scratch. The helmet rested beside you. You sat in the third row, legs crossed in lotus position, small notebook open in your lap. Your right hand held a pencil, making quick, sure strokes. Loose hair fell over one shoulder, catching the orange light and almost glowing. Your face was serene, concentrated, as if the chaos of the arena were just distant noise.
Clarisse felt her stomach twist. Why were you dressed for war if you werenât going to fight? Why did you look so untouched? So clean? So distant from everything that actually mattered?
âClarisse!â
Silenaâs voice came too late.
Her foot hooked Clarisseâs ankle with cruel precision, exactly the low sweep Clarisse had taught her the week before. Poor weight distribution, gaze locked on the bleachers, everything conspired against her. Clarisse fell sideways, right shoulder hitting the packed sand first. The crack was sharp, audible, like a branch snapping. Pain exploded instantly, white and hot, shooting up her arm like poison. She rolled onto her back, air leaving her lungs in a rough, animal grunt, left hand flying to the dislocated shoulder.
Silena let the sword drop. The thud in the sand sounded too loud.
âClarisse! GodsâŠâ She clapped hands over her mouth, eyes wide with genuine horror. âI didnât, I didnât mean to hit like that! You were distracted again, Iââ
Clarisse gritted her teeth, face twisted in a grimace of pain and fury. She sat up slowly, right arm hanging useless.
âYou hit perfectlyâŠâ she managed between short, hissing breaths. âCongratulations⊠you⊠bitchâŠâ
Silena dropped to her knees beside her in a blink, hands hovering, unsure where to touch.
âLet me see! Was it bad?â
âIt was shit,â Clarisse growled, trying to lift the arm and stopping halfway with a low, guttural moan. âAnd itâs your fault, what the hell kind of sweep was that?â
âMy fault?â Silenaâs voice rose, indignant. âYou were staring at the bleachers again! Again, Clarisse! Third time just today you got distracted.â
âShut up, Beauregard.â
âIâm not shutting up! You almost lost your arm becauseââ
The argument rose in volume, voices overlapping in the middle of the arena. Some campers stopped to look, whispers starting to spread.
And then light footsteps in the sand.
Both of you looked up.
You were descending the bleachers with that same irritating calm as always. The armor clinked softly with each step, a delicate, almost musical sound that contrasted with the arenaâs raw clang. The notebook was still tucked under your left arm, pencil held between the fingers of your right hand. You came close enough that Clarisse could smell the faint scent of fresh paint, scorched wood, and sun-warmed bronze. You crouched beside her without hesitation, knees sinking into the dusty sand, eyes going straight to the injured shoulder.
âCan I see?â you asked, voice low, gentle, without a trace of pity or superiority. Just practical curiosity.
Clarisse froze. Her whole body went rigid, not from pain, but from the sudden proximity. Your face was inches from hers. Eyes attentive, no judgment. Hands hovering, waiting for permission.
âI donât need your help,â Clarisse spat, voice coming out more venomous than she intended. âGo away. Leave real wounds to people who know how to handle them.â
You blinked once, slowly. The expression didnât change, remained serene, almost patient, but Clarisse saw the slight furrow between your brows, the subtle flash of hurt that vanished as quickly as it appeared.
Silena exploded.
âClarisse La Rue, stop this shit right now!â She leaned forward, pointing a finger in her friendâs face. âShe came down here to help you, getting herself dirty in the filthy sand because of you, and you still act like sheâs a plague? Your shoulderâs out of place, itâs not time to play tough bitch!â
âI said I can handle it myself,â Clarisse shot back, teeth clenched. She tried to shift away a little, but the movement made pain explode again. She hissed, face paling for a second. âI donât need anyoneâs pity. Especially not hers.â
You didnât retreat. Instead, you slowly extended your hands, fingers hovering over her shoulder without touching yet.
âItâs not pity,â you said, low, almost a whisper. âItâs just⊠a dislocated shoulder. I know how to put it back. If you let me.â
Clarisse opened her mouth to tell you to fuck off, to curse loud enough for everyone to hear. But Silena was faster.
âLet her, you stubborn asshole!â Silena nearly shouted, eyes flashing. âYouâre gonna sit there moaning in pain the rest of the day just to prove what? That youâre tougher than everyone? That you donât need anyone?â
Clarisse shot Silena a murderous look, chest rising and falling fast.
âYou donât get to boss me around, Beauregard.â
âSomeone has to, because you clearly have no sense!â
You seized the opening.
It was quick. Your hands closed around her arm and shoulder, one gripping firmly above the joint, the other wrapping the elbow with precision. Before Clarisse could react, you pulled in a sharp, controlled, practiced motion.
The crack echoed loud through the arena. Clear. Unmistakable.
Clarisse screamed, a short, surprised sound, more shock than pain. The arm snapped back into place with a strange sensation of immediate relief, like an overstretched rope finally released.
On pure instinct, she shoved you with her left hand.
You fell sitting in the sand, legs folded to the side, notebook flying open to a page full of lines.
Silence.
Clarisse stared at you, chest heaving, eyes wide. The pain was gone. The shoulder still throbbed, but it was bearable, muscular, not the lancinating agony from before. She moved the arm slowly, rotating the shoulder in small circles. It worked. Perfectly.
You stayed sitting there in the sand, looking at her with those calm eyes. No anger. No accusation. Just⊠waiting. A strand of hair fell over your face, and you brushed it away with sand-dirty fingers, leaving faint traces on your cheek.
âDamn.â Silena was the first to speak, voice low, almost reverent. âShe fixes your shoulder and gets shoved.â
Clarisse swallowed hard. Felt her face burn, pure, hot, suffocating embarrassment. She looked away, staring at the sand between her boots.
ââŠSorry,â she muttered, so low it almost got lost in the wind. The word came out scratched, as if it hurt more to say than the dislocated shoulder had.
You just gave a small, shy, almost invisible smile. You stood slowly, brushing sand from your armor with calm movements. You picked up the notebook, closed it carefully, and hugged it to your chest.
âItâs nothing,â you answered simply, voice soft as ever. âI recommend not straining it for a few days, it could pop out again.â
Then you turned and started walking back toward the bleachers, bronze reflecting the last ray of sun as if made of fire.
Clarisse watched your back until you disappeared among the upper steps. Silena crouched beside her again, now with a barely contained smirk mixed with irritation.
âYouâre unbelievable, you know that? Congratulations, Clarisse. Maximum stubbornness achieved.â
Clarisse didnât answer.
But for the first time in weeks, the knot in her stomach wasnât anger. It was shame mixed with something she still didnât want to name. And that scared her more than any monster sheâd ever faced in the arena.
âShut up, Silena.â
The next day dawned gray and heavy, as if the clouds had gathered above Camp Half-Blood just to smother any attempt at light. The air carried a dense, almost solid humidity that clung to the skin and turned every breath into something slow and uncomfortable. The leaves on the trees hung limp, and even the smell of pine and salt from Long Island Sound felt muffled, trapped under the leaden sky.
Clarisse woke up earlier than usual, her body still programmed for the dawn of training, but her right shoulder, bound in a rough sling of faded orange linen, immediately reminded her why there was no reason to rush to the arena. The healer at the Big House had been emphatic, with that calm voice that only irritated her more.
âFour days without straining it, Clarisse. Minimum.â She had stormed out of the infirmary slamming the door harder than necessary, kicking pebbles along the gravel path as if each one was responsible for her frustration.
No spear. No shield. No training. The energy that normally burned through punches, runs, and shouts now built up like acid in her stomach, corroding from the inside. She walked through the camp with stiffened shoulders, jaw clenched, good arm balled into a fist. Every step was a silent protest. She passed the arena and felt her chest tighten at the sight of the other demigods already warming up, the distant clang of metal, the shouts of instruction, the smell of sweat and churned sand. All without her.
The path led her, almost unintentionally, to the clearing near the Apollo cabin. The grass there was lusher, the air a little less suffocating under the generous shade of an old oak. A long picnic table, covered in plastic tarps splattered with old paint, served as the base for organized chaos. Children, between six and ten years old, sat on low stools or directly on the grass, small canvases or sheets of brown paper in front of them, brushes dripping vibrant colors.
And you, in the center of it all.
Dark blue canvas overalls, one strap slipping off your shoulder, revealing the orange camp t-shirt underneath. Sleeves rolled up, forearms painted in ochre yellow, faded turquoise, rust red. Hair tied in a loose bun, damp strands stuck to your neck. A light green streak on your left cheek, another purple smudge on your forehead, as if the kids had decided to turn you into a walking work of art. Your hands were a map of colors: blue fingers, red palms, orange nails.
You leaned over a little girl with braids, guiding her brush with infinite patience.
âLike this, see. Keep it light. Like wind on the grass.â
The girl laughed, and the sound spread, light and contagious.
Clarisse stopped about ten meters away, half hidden in the shadow of the cabinâs column. Good arm crossed over her chest, the other immobilized, posture rigid as stone. She huffed low, almost a growl.
You lifted your face first, sensing the weight of the gaze before even hearing the snap of a dry leaf under her boot. Your eyes met hers, quickly scanning the sling, the closed expression, the tense shoulders. Hesitation passed over your face, but you wiped the brush on a cloth hanging from your belt and spoke, voice soft, almost careful.
âHi. Need anything?â
Clarisse looked away for a second, then back, taking in the whole scene: the kids, the canvases, the paint smudges, you in the middle of it all looking⊠comfortable. As if the world wasnât falling apart just because she couldnât fight.
âNo,â she answered curtly, voice rough with contained bad mood. âJust passing by.â
She spun on her heels, ready to leave, jaw tight. But you were faster.
âIf you want to stay⊠youâre welcome.â
The words came out low, without pressure, but with a tone that said I wonât force you, but the door is open. Clarisse froze mid-turn. Something in her chest twisted, irritation, maybe, or the beginning of something worse: curiosity.
She turned slowly, eyes narrowed.
âI donât paint, daughter of Apollo.â
You shrugged, a small, almost indifferent gesture, but your eyes sparkled with something amused.
âTheyâre here exactly to learn.â You looked at the kids and added, in a conspiratorial tone: âArenât they cute?â
The children lifted their heads immediately, several voices overlapping:
âYeah, Aunt Clarisse!â
âAunt Clarisse, stay!â
âCome paint with us!â
Clarisse blinked, incredulous. Aunt. Them calling her aunt. As if she were someone who⊠belonged there. She looked at you, searching for mockery, but found only a low, contained laugh escaping your lips as you shook your head.
âYou guys want Aunt Clarisse to stay?â you asked the kids, eyebrows raised, smile growing slowly, a light, genuine smile that lit up the paint smudges on your face and made something strange and warm stir in Clarisseâs chest.
The kids shouted in chorus.
âYES!â
Clarisse rolled her eyes so hard she almost felt dizzy. She huffed loudly, crossed her good arm over her chest again, jaw so tight it hurt.
âRidiculous,â she muttered, more to herself than to anyone.
But her feet didnât move toward the exit.
The silence stretched. The kids looking at her with big, hopeful eyes. You waiting, without pushing, just absentmindedly cleaning the brush on the cloth. Clarisse felt the weight of that collective gaze like a chain, not of anger, but of expectation. And she hated admitting that part of her didnât want to disappoint.
After long seconds, she gave in.
She took three heavy steps, as if each one physically hurt, and sat on the stool farthest from the table. Whole body rigid, face closed, sling rubbing uncomfortably against her t-shirt. She crossed her good arm over her chest and stared at everything with the expression of someone who would rather be anywhere else.
The nearest kids shrank a little. A little girl with braids dropped her brush on the grass. Another blinked fast, as if expecting a shout.
Clarisse noticed. And, for the first time that entire day, one corner of her mouth lifted, almost imperceptible, almost a real smile, tinged with irony.
âWhat?â she grumbled, voice rough, but with a tone that wasnât exactly a threat.
You laughed softly again, shaking your head as you went back to helping one of the kids with a shade of blue.
Clarisse stayed there, sulky, scowling, shoulders tense⊠but without getting up. The knot of anger in her stomach loosened, just a little. The gray of the day still weighed, but for the first time in hours, it hurt a little less.
And you, from the corner of your eye, noticed. You said nothing.
The silence that settled wasnât exactly comfortable, but it wasnât hostile either. It was the kind of silence that happens when everyone is waiting for the next move from someone who doesnât usually play by other peopleâs rules. The kids gradually returned to their brushes and papers, but their glances still darted to Clarisse from time to time, quick, curious, as if she were a wild animal that, by some miracle, had decided to sit at the table instead of attacking.
Clarisse kept her posture rigid, good arm crossed over her chest like a barrier, gaze fixed on an undefined spot on the table where yellow paint had dried in irregular drops. She tried to ignore the tingling at the back of her neck, the weight of those childish little eyes on her. Tried to pretend she didnât notice.
But one of the girls, the same one with tight braids who had dropped her brush earlier, couldnât hold it in. She was about seven, big brown eyes too large for her skinny face, and a courage that probably came from surviving monsters before she even learned to tie her shoelaces properly. She tilted her head, looking straight at the faded orange sling that held Clarisseâs arm against her chest.
âWhat happened to your arm?â
The question came clean, direct, without malice, just pure curiosity. The kind of question kids ask because they havenât yet learned that some things arenât asked.
Clarisse froze. Her mouth opened a little, but nothing came out right away. She blinked fast, surprised, as if sheâd taken an invisible slap. Jaw locked, then unlocked, and she tried to form a reply, something rude, something to end the subject, something to return her to the safe territory of rudeness.
âI⊠it was⊠a stupid accident, thatâs all. Itâs none of yourââ
But you were faster.
âAunt Clarisse got hurt fighting a monster to protect the camp.â
Your voice came out calm, almost casual, as if you were telling a bedtime story. You didnât even stop brushing the canvas while speaking; you just lifted your eyes to Clarisse for a fraction of a second, a quick flash of complicity, or maybe provocation, before returning your attention to the canvas in front of you.
The kids stopped everything. Brushes suspended in the air. Mouths half-open. Eyes wide, shining with pure admiration.
âReally?â whispered a freckled boy, as if he couldnât believe his own luck at being in the presence of a real hero.
âWhat monster?â asked another girl, the one with pink paint on her hands, leaning forward as if expecting a battle told right there, on the picnic table.
Clarisse slowly turned her face to you. Her eyes were confused, not angry, not exactly. It was a strange mix: surprise, distrust, and something more vulnerable that she hated letting slip. As if, for the first time in a long while, someone had told a version of her that wasnât just anger and brute strength. A⊠heroic version. Protective.
She opened her mouth again, but no words came out. Instead, she just held your gaze for long seconds. If by âmonsterâ you meant a treacherous sweep from Silena during a grumpy training session, well⊠you didnât need to clarify. The way you said it turned the humiliation into glory without effort.
The kids didnât wait for an answer. They exploded with questions and exclamations:
âWas it a hellhound?â
âOr a drakon?â
âDid you kill it, Aunt Clarisse?â
âDid you use your awesome spear?â
Clarisse blinked again, stunned. Heat rose up her neck, not from anger, but from something that felt like embarrassment mixed with⊠pride? She huffed low, trying to regain control of the situation, but the sound came out weaker than usual.
âIt wasnât⊠anything big,â she grumbled, looking to the side, avoiding the kidsâ shining eyes. âJust⊠a monster. Like always.â
But the tone wasnât the usual one. It didnât have the venom. It was almost shy.
You gave a small smile, contained, no teeth showing, but it lit up the paint smudges on your face. You said nothing. You just handed a clean brush to the little braided girl and murmured:
âMaybe Clarisse will tell us how it happened another time?â
The kids vibrated with excitement, returning to their drawings with renewed energy, now sketching monsters, spears, a tall strong figure with an orange sling fighting shadows.
Clarisse kept looking at you for a while longer. Eyes still confused, but now with a different spark. As if she were trying to decide whether she hated or⊠liked that version of herself you had created. She shifted on the stool, uncomfortable, but didnât get up. In the end, she just grumbled, low enough for only you to hear.
âYouâre weird.â
You laughed softly, a light sound that blended with the kidsâ noise, and answered without looking at her:
âI just tell the truth. Or⊠a better version of it.â
Clarisse huffed again, but this time the corner of her mouth lifted. Just a little. She stayed there. Sulky, scowling, sling rubbing, but she stayed.
The second day of immobility dawned even more oppressive than the first. The sky remained gray, but now with a fine, insistent drizzle that turned the gravel paths into slippery mud and stuck to hair like damp spiderwebs. The air smelled of wet earth, pine, and the faint metallic scent of ozone that always hung before a real storm.
Clarisse woke up grinding her teeth. The shoulder throbbed less, the healer had applied some herbal ointment the night before, but the frustration was the same: a contained ball of fire that needed an outlet. She dressed angrily, shoving on the orange t-shirt and then the sling, and left before the breakfast bell rang.
In the morning, she went to the arena. Not to fight, that was out of the question, but to yell. She stood at the edge of the sand circle, boots planted in the wet grass, good arm crossed over her chest, and bellowed orders as if she were the general of a wartime army.
Her siblings obeyed quickly, half intimidated, half proud. She corrected postures with her voice, pointed out flaws, shouted praise when someone landed a decent strike. It wasnât the same as holding the spear, but at least it was something. At least the sound of her own voice echoing in the arena muffled the silence inside her head a little.
After lunch, Silena dragged her to the Aphrodite cabin.
âYou need to relax, Clarisse. Your face is creating permanent wrinkles.â Clarisse rolled her eyes, but went. She sat in an overly cushioned chair, let Silena apply green clay masks, cucumber on the eyes, cream smelling of roses and lavender. It was torture. Every minute felt like an eternity. But when it was over, she ran her fingers over her face and⊠damn. It had never been so soft. It felt like betrayal to admit, but she admitted it only to herself.
Before dinner, boredom hit full force. The drizzle had stopped, leaving the air fresh and heavy with humidity. Clarisse felt that if she didnât get out of there she would explode. She grabbed an old jacket and walked toward the forest.
The trail was wet, fallen leaves forming a slippery carpet. The sound of boots crushing dry twigs mixed with the slow dripping from the trees. She walked without a defined direction, just wanting distance from the voices, the laughter, the entire camp. The path took her to the stream that cut through the forest, a trickle of clear water running between mossy stones, murmuring low as if trying not to wake anyone.
Clarisse stopped at the bank, good arm hanging at her side. She sighed deeply, frustrated, and closed her eyes for a few seconds. Cold air entered through her nostrils, came out hot through her mouth. She tried to imagine the shoulder healed, the spear in her hand, the impact of a perfect strike. But reality returned: sling, boredom, impotence.
Then she heard the voice.
âRough day?â
The sound came soft, almost part of the streamâs murmur. Clarisse jumped back, whole body going into defense mode. Legs bent, good arm raised as if to block an invisible blow, eyes wide searching for the source of the voice.
You were there.
Casually sitting on a tarp stretched between two large stones, back against an exposed root of the oak that curved over the stream. Wearing only thick gray wool socks, boots tossed aside at the foot of the tarp. Jeans rolled up to the ankles, revealing goosebumped skin from the cold. In your lap, the acoustic guitar turned face up.
But you werenât playing. You were writing.
A black-covered notebook open on your thighs, black pen in your right hand, tip flying fast across the paper. Strands of hair escaping the improvised bun fell over your face, and you bit the corner of your lower lip while reading what you had just written.
You lifted your eyes slowly, without startle. As if you knew she would come. As if this were the most natural place in the world to meet Clarisse La Rue.
Clarisse lowered her arm slowly, heart still hammering in her chest. The defensive posture relaxed just a little.
âYou⊠what are you doing here?â The voice came out rougher than intended, almost accusatory.
You shrugged, a small gesture, and closed the notebook carefully, tucking the pen between the pages as a bookmark.
âWriting. Thinking.â You looked at the running water, then back at her. âAnd you?â
Clarisse huffed, crossing her good arm over her chest again. She took two steps to the side, kicking a pebble that rolled into the water with a dull plop.
âNone of your business.â
You nodded slowly, as if you had already expected a similar answer. You didnât ask anything else right away. You just patted the tarp lightly beside you with your palm, a silent invitation, no pressure.
Clarisse hesitated. She looked at the tarp, at you, at the guitar, at the closed notebook. Then looked at the stream, as if the water could give some answer. She sighed again, longer this time.
âYou always stay here alone?â
âWhen I can. Sometimes the kids come along, but today⊠I needed silence.â You gave a crooked little smile. âOr almost silence. You showed up.â
Clarisse huffed again, but this time the sound came out lighter. She took one more step, then another, until she stopped right at the edge of the tarp. She gritted her teeth, but sat. Carefully, because the shoulder protested when she bent her body. The tarp was simple, soft, smelled of moss and damp earth. She stretched her legs out in front, boots almost touching the water.
They stayed in silence for a while. Just the stream talking, leaves dripping, light wind moving the treetops. Clarisse felt the cold climb up her back, but didnât move. It was⊠good. Strange, but good.
After a minute, or five, she lost count, you spoke again, voice low.
âShoulder feeling better?â
Clarisse glanced sideways at you.
âItâs getting better.â
You nodded, drumming your fingers on the guitar case. You looked at the instrument and then picked it up, resting it slowly beside you. You set it down carefully and picked up the notebook again, opening it to the page marked by the pen. The gray light of dusk filtered through the high leaves, tinting everything in a cold, damp silver. The air smelled of wet moss, earth turned by the recent drizzle, and a faint pine scent rising from the taller trees.
You took a deep breath, as if choosing your words with the same care you used to choose notes on the guitar, and tried.
âSo⊠how was morning training?â
Clarisse didnât turn her face right away. She kept staring at the water, where small ripples formed and vanished in seconds. The voice came out low, monotone, almost mechanical.
âI yelled. They obeyed. That was it.â
You waited a second, maybe two, like someone testing if more was coming. And before she could even threaten to say anything else, Clarisse crossed her good arm over her chest harder and huffed.
âYou talk too much,â she said suddenly, voice sharper now. âSeriously. Can we have a little silence?â
You stopped mid-sentence. The pen hung in the air for an instant. Then, slowly, you raised both hands in surrender, palms open, fingers slightly curled, a gesture of someone who knows when to back off.
âOkay, okay. Silence.â
And you went back to the notebook. The pen tip touched the paper again, and the light scratching sound began, rhythmic, almost hypnotic, like the stream itself.
Time dragged slowly. Minutes stretched into layers of silence broken only by the occasional sound of a drop falling from a high leaf, by the soft run of water between the stones, by the wind passing and making the treetops whisper. Clarisse, restless, began searching for pebbles on the bank. She chose the smoothest, flattest ones, spun them between the fingers of her good hand before throwing. The first skipped three times before sinking. The second, four. The third hit the surface and vanished at once, as if angry.
She continued like that. Stone after stone. The movement was mechanical, almost meditative, the only way she found to burn energy without using the injured shoulder. But gradually, without her noticing, the throws slowed. Her eyes began to drift from the stream.
And landed on you.
You wrote concentrated, body slightly leaning forward, shoulders relaxed against the oak root. A strand of hair escaped the loose bun and fell over your face. You blew it lightly, without taking your eyes off the paper. Then you bit the lower corner of your lip, a small, unconscious habit, frowning as if arguing with the words you had just written.
One moment, you raised your eyebrows in an âoh, no, that wonât doâ; the next, a crooked little smile appeared, satisfied, before being erased by another grimace of dissatisfaction. It was as if you were fighting with yourself in there, and your whole face told the story without needing a voice.
Clarisse watched all of this in silence, almost without blinking.
Whatâs so special about you? she thought, the question forming clear and uncomfortable in her mind. It wasnât obvious beauty, even though she admitted you were beautiful; it wasnât strength, it wasnât anything she knew how to name or fight. It was⊠quietness? Patience? That way of existing without demanding anything from anyone? Or was it just the fact that you could stay still without seeming dead inside, while she felt like exploding every second of inactivity?
She didnât know. And that irritated her more than any monster she had ever faced.
You kept writing for a few more minutes, the scratch of the pen, the occasional low sigh, the wind moving the pages. Until, without lifting your eyes from the notebook, without changing your posture, you spoke:
âYouâre staring.â
The voice came out calm, almost distracted, as if it were a casual comment about the weather. Clarisse startled. The pebble she was holding slipped from her fingers and fell to the grass with a dull sound.
âIâm not,â she shot back too quickly, defensive, tone already loaded with irritation. She turned her face to the stream hard, as if she could convince herself too.
You finally lifted your eyes. Slowly. Without hurry. Without judgment. You looked straight at Clarisse, eyes sharp, attentive, with a soft gleam of someone who knows they won an argument without needing to raise their voice.
"Yes," you said simply, the corner of your mouth lifting in a minimal, almost imperceptible smile. "You are."
Clarisse grumbled something unintelligible, a guttural sound, half growl, half impatient sigh, and turned her face to the stream with exaggerated determination. She picked up another pebble from the bank, spun it between the fingers of her good hand as if it were the most important thing in the world, and threw it with too much force. She picked up another. And another. The movement was mechanical, repetitive, a clear attempt to occupy her body and mind with anything other than the weight of that gaze she still felt burning on the side of her face.
You sighed.
It wasn't a dramatic sigh, the kind that begs for attention. It was low, resigned, the type of sound that escapes when someone gives up fighting a wall that won't give way. Clarisse recognized it instantly. It was the sigh of defeat, the same one she herself let out when a fight was lost but still hurt to admit.
She stopped mid-throw. The pebble hung between her fingers for a second before falling back onto the damp grass.
"Look," you said, voice low, almost embarrassed. "I really don't know what I did wrong."
Clarisse turned her face slowly. She studied you, shoulders now slightly hunched, the notebook still open in your lap but forgotten, hands still over the pages. She raised one eyebrow, that incredibly well-drawn eyebrow, arched with natural perfection, that always gave her an air of someone who already knew the verdict before the trial even began.
"What are you talking about?" The voice came out weaker than she intended. Softer. Almost hesitant. As if the question had slipped out before she could dress it in thorns.
You shrugged, a small, almost imperceptible gesture. You bit the lower corner of your lip again, the habit returning strongly, and the fingers of your left hand began to play with the cloth bracelets on your wrist. There were several, thin, colorful, tied with clumsy knots, probably handmade, maybe by you, maybe by some child who adored you. They tinkled softly when you spun them between your fingers, a discreet sound that contrasted with the heavy silence that had settled between you.
"I meanâŠ" You hesitated, looking at your own hands as if they could answer for you. "It doesn't take much to know that you hate me."
And then you laughed. A short, humorless, embarrassed laugh. The kind of laugh that tries to disguise discomfort but only makes it more evident. You shook your head lightly, as if scolding yourself for saying it out loud.
Clarisse laughed too. But her sound was different, ironic, cutting, loaded with a bitterness she didn't even try to hide.
"Oh please." She huffed, throwing her head back for an instant before fixing her eyes on you again. "Everyone worships you in this camp. I'm sure my validation doesn't change anything in your life. Deal with it."
The words came out sharp, as always. But there was something cracked in them, a tiny fissure through which doubt escaped. As if she were testing, waiting for you to retort with the same strength as always.
You didn't retort.
Instead, you wilted.
It was subtle, almost imperceptible to anyone not paying close attention. Your shoulders dropped a little more, the embarrassed smile disappeared completely, and your fingers stopped playing with the bracelets. You looked at the notebook, but without really seeing the words. The voice, when it came out, was low, almost a whisper that the stream nearly swallowed:
"That's not what it's about."
The stream continued its indifferent murmur, as if none of it affected it, neither the silence that stretched after those words, nor the way Clarisse's shoulders stiffened again, nor the way you seemed to shrink a little more with every second that passed without a response.
You took a deep, slow breath, like someone gathering courage to cross a minefield.
"It's not about validation," you continued, voice low, almost swallowed by the sound of the water. "It's not about what others think of me, or how many kids follow me, or how many smiles I get along the way. It's not that."
Clarisse didn't answer right away. She kept staring at the spot where the last pebble she threw had disappeared, the water's surface still rippling slightly. Then she let out a short, dry, humorless laugh.
"So what is it?" she shot back, tone cold, almost cutting. "I still don't get what the drama is."
You lifted your eyes to her, not with anger, not with challenge, but with a quiet sadness that Clarisse hated seeing. Because sadness was vulnerability, and vulnerability was something Clarisse didn't know how to handle without attacking.
"It's about the fact that you look at me like I'm a threat," you murmured. "Like I've done something unforgivable just by existing the way I do. And I⊠I don't know what that something is. But it hurts to try to understand and only find a wall."
Clarisse huffed, shaking her head slowly. The corner of her mouth lifted in an ironic smile that didn't reach her eyes.
"It's not about what you did wrong," she said, voice low and drawn out, as if explaining something obvious to a child. "It's about what you have that makes everyone surrender to your charms. Why the hell does everyone drop their guard for you?"
You blinked, surprised. Then laughed softly, a small, almost inaudible laugh tinged with disbelief and something more fragile.
"You think I have some kind of charm?"
Clarisse rolled her eyes so hard it almost hurt. She crossed her good arm over her chest again, as if to protect herself from her own admission.
"You know that's not what I meant."
The silence returned, but this time it was different, denser, more charged. The stream seemed to speak louder now, filling the spaces the words couldn't occupy. You lowered your eyes to the bracelets on your wrist, spinning one slowly between your fingers, as if you needed something concrete to anchor yourself.
Clarisse felt her chest tighten. She didn't want this. She didn't want the guilt starting to form somewhere deep, nor the strange ache that came with it. But she also couldn't get up and leave. Not this time.
"LookâŠ" she began, voice lower, almost reluctant. "I'm not good at this. At⊠talking. At admitting things. But it's not that I hate you. It's that you make me⊠uncomfortable. Because you're fine with everything I hate. Staying still. Smiling at kids. Writing in the middle of nowhere. Being⊠light. And I can't. I never could."
You lifted your gaze again, slowly. Your eyes shining a little more than before, not with tears, but with something close.
"And you think that's charm?" you asked, voice so soft it almost got lost in the wind.
Clarisse huffed again, but the sound came out tired.
"I think it's dangerous," she admitted, almost in a whisper. "For me, at least."
And for the first time, there was no irony in her voice. Just raw honesty, stripped of armor. Clarisse felt the air grow heavier suddenly, as if the stream itself had stopped murmuring to listen. Her chest tightened in a way she couldn't name, it wasn't anger, not exactly, but something close to panic, disguised as irritation. She hated that feeling of being exposed, of having said more than she intended and now not knowing how to take the words back.
She took a deep breath, straightened her back with a brusque movement that made the injured shoulder protest. She stood in one motion, almost military, as if ending a battle she didn't want to fight.
"Okay," she said, voice rough and cutting. "I've said too much. I need⊠to go back. There are things to do."
She turned her back without waiting for a response, already starting to climb the slippery bank, boots sinking into the damp earth. Each step was an attempt to put distance between her and that conversation that had spiraled out of control.
But then your voice came, louder than usual, cutting through the air:
"I'm going to sing at the campfire tonightâŠ"
Clarisse stopped mid-motion, one boot still raised. She turned slowly, almost against her will.
You were standing now, the tarp crumpled behind you, the notebook clutched to your chest like a shield. Your fingers fidgeted nervously with each other, intertwining, releasing, spinning the cloth bracelets on your wrist. Your face was slightly flushed, maybe from the cold, maybe from something else. Your eyes met hers, hesitant but firm.
"If you want to show up," you added, voice lower at the end, almost as if you were afraid the invitation might sound forced.
Clarisse stood there, a few meters away, looking at you. The cold forest wind messed up the loose hair from the bun, and the thick socks were dirty with earth at the tips. There was something vulnerable in that posture, shoulders slightly hunched, restless fingers, that contrasted with the image Clarisse had always had of you: someone who seemed to float through the camp effortlessly, as if the world adjusted around you.
She said nothing. Just nodded once, a short, almost imperceptible movement. Then turned again and kept walking, without looking back.
The walk back was silent, except for the sound of boots crushing wet leaves and dry twigs. The fine drizzle from earlier had started again, fine enough to wet without really bothering. Clarisse kept her face forward, jaw locked, trying to ignore the echo of that phrase in her head.
I'm going to sing at the campfire tonight⊠If you want to show up.
She knew that invitation wasn't casual. It wasn't the kind of thing you said out of politeness. You knew Clarisse avoided campfire nights like someone avoiding a trap. All that circle of demigods singing, laughing, sharing stories, hugging each other⊠it was too much. Too much friendship commotion, too much display of affection, too much that Clarisse didn't know how to receive without feeling suffocated. She always made excuses. Extra patrol, night training, headache, and disappeared to the Ares cabin before the flames started rising.
But as she walked back along the narrow trail, the phrase repeated. And repeated. And repeated.
She reached the camp when the sky was already starting to darken. She passed the empty arena, the lit Big House, the cabins starting to fill with movement for dinner. She ignored the calls from some siblings who wanted to know if she was eating with them. She entered the Ares cabin, threw herself on the bed, and stared at the splintered wooden ceiling.
She couldn't stop thinking about it.
Clarisse huffed at herself, irritated with her own head. She turned to the side, trying to convince herself she wouldn't go. That she didn't need to. That no campfire was worth the discomfort.
But the image wouldn't leave.
You singing. The fire crackling. The kids maybe sitting around you. And the empty space where she could, or could not, be.
She closed her eyes tightly. She still didn't know if she would go. But for the first time in a long time, the idea of going didn't seem so unbearable.
[âŠ]
Night fell heavy over Camp Half-Blood, but the central campfire burned with a hunger that seemed to defy the damp cold still hanging in the air. The flames rose high, golden and orange, spitting sparks that danced in the light wind before fading into the dark. The smell of burning wood mixed with the sticky sweet of toasted marshmallows, the faint alcohol of diluted nectar that the older campers passed hand to hand in improvised mugs, and the subtle scent of herbs someone had thrown into the fire to keep mosquitoes away.
The circle of cut logs was full. Younger kids ran around the fire, marshmallow sticks in hand, shouting when the sweet caught fire and turned into a bluish ball of flame. Laughter exploded in groups, monster stories were told out loud, someone tried to imitate a drakon's roar and ended up coughing from laughing so hard. The older teens spread out in relaxed positions, shoulders leaning, lazy gazes on the flames, low conversations punctuated by sips and satisfied sighs.
And in the center of it all, you.
Sitting on a larger log, guitar resting on your knee, body slightly leaning forward as if embracing the instrument. The firelight painted your face in warm tones: the outline of your jaw, the soft curve of your cheeks, the strands escaping the loose braid and sticking to your forehead damp with heat. Your fingers danced on the strings with a naturalness that seemed innate, and when you began to sing, voice low and clear, rising slowly like smoke, the entire camp seemed to hold its breath.
It wasn't all at once. It was gradual. A child stopped running, the marshmallow forgotten on the end of the stick. An older boy lowered his mug. Conversations died slowly, as if each note from your throat were a thread tying everyone there. Even the laughter quieted. It was as if the fire, the night, the air itself had decided nothing else mattered but that voice.
Clarisse arrived late.
She stopped at the edge of the clearing, half hidden behind a column of tall pines, body partially covered by shadow. She didn't approach the circle. She stayed there, arms crossed, the good one over her chest, the other still in the sling, jaw locked, shoulders tense as if ready to flee at any moment. The heat from the fire reached her in waves, but not enough to chase away the cold she felt inside.
She saw you finish the song. Saw the last chord dissolve into the air. Saw the silence stretch for a full second before the explosion of applause and whistles began. Kids shouting "again!", teens clapping in rhythm, someone yelling "one more!"
And then she saw your eyes.
You lifted your face, still smiling with the warmth of the praise, but your eyes scanned the clearing, quick, searching. They swept the circle, the logs, the shadows behind the flames. Searching for something. Someone. And when they didn't find it, the smile faltered. It was subtle, a slight drop at the corners of your mouth, a longer blink, but Clarisse noticed.
It was her. Of course it was her. You had invited her. And so far, Clarisse hadn't shown up.
The kids started running again, the older ones asked for new songs, someone shouted the name of an old Hermes tune. You laughed, that sweet, light laugh that seemed made of honey and light, and raised your hands in a calming gesture.
"Easy, easy⊠one at a time."
And then, from the dark, came the voice.
"Sing something by the Beatles."
Low. Rough. But clear enough to cut through the chatter and fall straight into the silence that formed around it. You froze. Your fingers stopped on the strings. You lifted your gaze slowly, searching for the source of the voice.
And found it.
Clarisse was stepping out of the shadow now. Slow, deliberate steps. She crossed the edge of the clearing, ignoring the curious looks that turned to her, and sat on an empty log on the other side of the fire. Facing you. The flames dancing between the two of you, distorting the view, making her face flicker in shades of orange and gold. The faded orange sling looked almost part of the fire. Her dark eyes fixed on yours, unblinking.
Something hit you, relief mixed with surprise, hot like the flames licking the air between you. Your chest rose and fell faster. You swallowed hard, but the smile that appeared was genuine, soft, almost shy.
"Any specific one?" you asked, voice low, almost whispered, as if the rest of the camp had disappeared and only the two of you remained.
Clarisse glanced around for an instant. She noticed the sudden silence. No one spoke. No one requested a song. Everyone looked at her, at you, at the space between the two of you that the fire seemed unable to truly burn.
She brought her eyes back to you.
For several seconds too long, she got lost there.
In the way the fire illuminated your face, highlighting the light freckles on your nose, the wet gleam in your eyes, the soft curve of your lips that trembled slightly, not from cold, but from something deeper. In the way you held the guitar like an extension of your body. In the way you waited, without pushing, without judging.
Clarisse felt her chest tighten in a way that wasn't pain, but something close: a pang of something new, fragile, that she didn't know how to hold without breaking.
"No," she said finally, voice soft, almost a whisper barely audible above the crackling wood. "Just⊠play Beatles."
You nodded slowly. Your fingers returned to the strings, but this time there was a new hesitation in them, not from insecurity, but from care. As if every note you were about to play now carried a weight that hadn't existed before.
And when the first note of Blackbird began to sound, slow, vibrant, the entire camp seemed to breathe together.
But Clarisse didn't hear the rest of the world. Only the voice crossing the flames. Only the gaze finding hers from the other side of the fire. Only the sweet and painful tension of something being born there, in the silence between the notes, that neither of you yet knew how to name.
But that already hurt beautifully.
Clarisse stayed there, sitting on the rough log on the other side of the fire, the flames licking the air between you like a living barrier that couldn't truly burn what was happening. The heat came in irregular waves, warming one side of her face and leaving the other cold, but she barely noticed. Her eyes were fixed on you, didn't dare look away, as if any blink could make the scene disappear.
Your voice came out clean, effortless, as if the notes had been stored inside you for years and now simply escaped. Each verse seemed to curl in the air, cross the fire, and wrap around her chest.
And you looked straight at her.
It wasn't a constant, dramatic gaze. It was subtle. Between one line and the next, your eyes rose from the guitar, met hers for a second too long, and then returned to the strings. But Clarisse felt each of those looks like a physical touch, warm, insistent, disconcerting. As if you were singing only for her, even with the entire camp there, breathing together.
The feelings inside her were a mess she didn't know how to untangle.
Part of her wanted to stand up and leave. Run from that vulnerability growing like a fire too low to be controlled. Because staying there, being seen like that, was dangerous. It was admitting that something inside her was moving, opening, and Clarisse La Rue didn't open. She struck. She shouted. She destroyed. But she didn't open.
Another part, smaller, more treacherous, wanted to stay. Wanted to let the voice in, let the gaze linger, let the heat of the fire and those notes melt a little of the shell she carried like armor. Because it felt good. It was strange and good. It was like breathing after holding the air for too long.
She felt anger too. Anger at you for achieving all that effortlessly. Anger at herself for not being able to truly hate you. Anger at the fire for illuminating your face like that, highlighting the soft lines, the shine in your eyes, the slight smile that appeared when you hit a perfect note. Anger at how gentle it all was. Pure. Untouchable.
And underneath it all, a pang of something like longing, for something she had never had and that, suddenly, she wanted.
She didn't even notice Silena approaching. The daughter of Aphrodite sat beside her with the silent grace of someone who knows how to move without being noticed, the light dress brushing the log, the scent of strawberry and vanilla mixing with the smell of smoke. Clarisse kept looking forward, at you, as if the whole world had shrunk to the space between the flames.
Then came Silena's low voice, almost a conspiratorial whisper:
"So⊠figured out what's so special about her?"
Clarisse didn't turn her face. Didn't blink. She just answered, voice rough and low, almost inaudible above the music:
"Not yet."
Silena rolled her eyes, Clarisse felt the movement even without looking. The typical eye-roll of someone who knew her stubbornness better than anyone. But before Silena could retort with some sharp tease, Clarisse continued, even lower, almost as if the words had escaped without permission:
"But I think I'm starting to see."
Silena froze. The eye-roll died midway. She turned her face slowly to Clarisse, genuine surprise in her eyes, because Clarisse La Rue didn't admit weaknesses. Didn't admit doubts. And there she was, admitting something she didn't even know how to name.
At that exact moment, the song reached its end. You played the closing solo, slow, delicate, each note hovering in the air like smoke. A little girl with braids, maybe the same one from the painting lesson, sat at your feet, resting her head on your knee without ceremony. You didn't stop playing. You just lowered your eyes to her, smiled, a sweet, unhurried smile full of a tenderness that didn't need to be earned.
It was gentle.
It was pure.
It was everything Clarisse could never be.
It was you.
Clarisse felt her chest tighten in a way that wasn't pain, but something close: a mix of envy, admiration, and a confused desire to approach that light without extinguishing it. She hated it. Hated how you managed to be all that effortlessly, without armor, without anger. Hated how it made her want to be different, just a little.
But she also hated it less than she thought.
The last note died in the air. The silence stretched for a full second before the applause started again, softer this time, as if no one wanted to break the spell.
Clarisse didn't applaud.
She just kept looking.
The fire still crackled in the background. The flames, now lower, cast shadows on the nearby trees. Clarisse felt all of it like extra weight on her shoulders, the residual heat of the fire on her face, the sharp cold on her back, the muffled sound of laughter and conversations returning to fill the circle now that the music had ended.
But none of that mattered. Not really. Because inside her, something was breaking.
Her eyes burned first. A subtle heat, as if someone had blown hot ashes into them, rising from the lower eyelids and spreading to the temples. She blinked fast, once, twice, trying to push the sensation away, but the burning only grew, now wet, treacherous, like tears refusing to be contained.
Her hands, at least the one from her good arm that had been resting on her knee until then, began to tremble. A fine tremor, almost imperceptible at first, but that spread through her fingers, her wrists, climbing her forearms like a faulty electric current. It wasn't the cold. It wasn't fatigue. It was something more dangerous: a crack in the armor she had built over years of anger and brute force.
And that scared the hell out of her.
Clarisse La Rue didn't tremble. She didn't cry. She didn't allow herself. She was a daughter of Ares, made of impacts, screams, bloody victories. But there, sitting on the rough log, with the fire crackling between you and your gaze still echoing in her mind, her body betrayed her. Her chest tightened as if an invisible hand were crushing it, and the tremor in her hands threatened to spread to her entire body.
She felt the panic rise in her throat, raw, irrational, as if she were facing a monster she couldn't strike with a spear.
She cleared her throat loudly, a rough, forced sound that tore through the air like a warning. She nodded once, a short, almost mechanical gesture that didn't reach her eyes. She stood up in a rush, legs obeying on instinct but faltering for a fraction of a second. The log creaked under the weight leaving it, and she turned her back to the fire, to the circle of curious faces, to you. The first steps were firm, deliberate, cutting through the damp grass of the clearing as if she could step on her own vulnerability and crush it.
You noticed immediately.
The smile that still lit up your face, a remnant of the music, the applause, the brief connection that had formed through the flames, froze. Your eyes followed her silhouette: the tense shoulders, the sling swaying slightly with each step, the rigid posture screaming escape. Confusion passed over your face, eyebrows furrowed in a thin line, mouth half-open as if a question had gotten stuck on your tongue.
Your heart raced in your chest, a mix of worry and something more urgent, more instinctive.
Without thinking twice, you grabbed the guitar by the neck and held it out to Grover, who was sitting beside you, face illuminated by the fire, a stick with five marshmallows at once forgotten in his hand.
He blinked, goat eyes widening in confusion, ears twitching slightly.
"Take over from here," you murmured, voice low and hurried, already standing up. "I'm⊠going to get some air."
Grover extended his hands hesitantly, taking the instrument as if it were something alive and unpredictable.
"But I don'tâ"
You were already in motion. Already running across the clearing, feet sinking into the damp grass, cold wind hitting your face and messing up the strands now practically loose from your hair. The laughter in the background sounded distant now, muffled by the sound of your own heart pounding in your ears.
"âŠknow how to play," Grover finished, staring at the guitar with an expression of pure desperation, as if he expected the instrument to explain itself.
The trail to the Ares cabin wound between the trees, dark and silent, lit only by spaced torches that flickered like candles in the wind. The air there was colder, denser, carrying the smell of damp pine and earth wet from the recent drizzle. Clarisse walked with firm, almost martial steps, jaw locked, fist of her good arm clenched as if she could punch the air.
Each breath came out heavy, clouded in the night's cold, and the tremor in her hands still hadn't stopped completely. She tried to convince herself it was just fatigue, just the injured shoulder, just the idiocy of having gone to the campfire in the first place. But deep down, she knew it was more. Much more.
Then came the voice.
"Clarisse!"
Loud enough to cut through the darkness, breathless, loaded with urgency. She stopped mid-step. Her heart gave an involuntary leap in her chest. She turned slowly, eyes narrowed in the dim light.
You were standing about ten meters away, hands braced on your knees, body bent forward as you caught your breath. Face flushed from the effort, cheeks pink. Your chest rose and fell quickly, and your hair, now completely loose from the slack braid, fell in messy waves over your shoulders. You lifted your gaze to her, eyes wide and worried, searching her face for something to explain the sudden flight.
Clarisse stood there, watching all of it without knowing what she felt. Anger at being followed? Relief at not being alone? Fear that you would see the tremor still lingering in her hands? Everything mixed into a confused knot in her stomach.
"You okay?" she murmured, voice low and rough, almost reluctant, as if the words had been dragged out.
You straightened slowly, starting to approach, but still breathing heavily, one hand pressing your chest as if you could calm the racing heart.
"I'm the one asking," you answered, voice soft but firm. "You just left out of nowhere."
Clarisse shrugged, the movement slow, almost indifferent, but her eyes betrayed her, darting to the ground, to the dancing shadows of the torches.
"It's no big deal. Just⊠the shoulder hurting, I don't know." The voice came out gentle, too soft for her usual standard, without the habitual venom, but still carrying that unmistakable Clarisse essence: a wall of words hiding what really mattered.
You stopped less than three steps from her, and silence fell then. A heavy silence, full of unspoken things, broken only by the wind whispering in the leaves above and the distant crackle of the campfire. The torches flickered, throwing intermittent lights on your faces, hers rigid and shadowed; yours still pink and open, waiting.
After long seconds that felt like minutes, you looked at her. Really looked: tracing the tense face, the eyes avoiding yours, the defensive posture. And then you laughed softly, an embarrassed, almost shy laugh that broke the silence like a raindrop in a calm lake.
"Well⊠I didn't think much about what I'd say, so⊠I guess I just ran after you because I didn't want you to leave thinking that⊠I don't know. That it was something Iâ."
Clarisse cut in before you could get lost in the words. Her voice came out low, almost a whisper, as if she were confessing a secret she didn't even want to hear herself.
"It's the only memory I have of my mother."
You blinked, surprised, the laugh dying on your lips.
"What?"
Clarisse was staring at nothing now, at the blackness beyond the trail, at the shadows swallowing the path ahead. Eyes glazed, as if revisiting an old scene, faded by time. Her voice continued, low and distant, carrying a raw emotion she rarely let escape.
"The Beatles. It's the only thing I remember about her. When I was eight⊠she had this old cassette tape, the kind the car almost chewed every time you put it in. All the Beatles songs in there, scratched, skipping in some parts. She let me put it in the player. I'd sit in the front seat and sing wrong along with her. 'Yesterday' turned into a mess, 'Hey Jude' I'd get half the words wrong. But she laughed. She sang loud, tapping the steering wheel, and I thought it would last forever."
She stopped. Her voice faltered at the end, a subtle tremor echoing the one in her hands. Her chest rose and fell faster, and her eyes shone now, not with spilled tears, but with a Herculean effort to hold them back. The knot in her throat tightened, and her nose itched with the damp smell of the night.
Then she realized. She felt the burning in her eyes intensify, the tremor return to her hands. She laughed mockingly, a short, bitter sound that echoed on the dark trail like a final defense. She wiped her nose with the back of her good hand, sniffing loudly, trying to disguise what was obvious.
"And I have no idea why I'm telling you this. But you⊠I don't know, the words just jumped out. No brakes. So that must be what you have. That thing of⊠comfort. And it pisses me off. It pisses me off a lot."
Her voice rose at the end, loaded with frustration, but without the usual venom. It was anger mixed with something more vulnerable, a reluctant admission that perhaps that irritation was just fear in disguise. She sniffed again, wiping her face with the sleeve of her t-shirt, eyes still glazed but now fixed on yours, as if daring you to say something that would break that moment.
The silence returned, denser now, full of raw emotion hanging in the air like mist. The night felt colder, quieter, as if the entire camp had held its breath along with you.
Clarisse held the gaze for one more second, long, heavy, as if deciding whether those words she had just released into the air could still be taken back. The wet gleam in her eyes had already dissipated, but the trace remained: a subtle redness at the edges of her eyelids, the nose still pink from so much sniffing. She took a deep breath, chest visibly rising and falling in the trail's silence, then let the air out slowly, like someone saying goodbye to something she didn't want to admit existed.
"We'll talk tomorrow."
The phrase came out low, almost inaudible, loaded with a reluctance that wasn't anger, but something more fragile. It wasn't a promise. It was a minimal surrender, the acknowledgment that, after all that, running away for good no longer seemed like a viable option. She didn't wait for a response. She didn't look back. She just turned her whole body, shoulders stiffening again as if putting the armor back on, and started walking.
Her steps echoed on the dark trail: firm, rhythmic, the sound of heavy boots crushing wet leaves and thin twigs. The light from the nearest torches cast long, flickering shadows ahead of her, stretching her silhouette until it seemed bigger than it really was, an unconscious attempt to appear invincible. But you knew she wasn't. Not that night.
You stood planted there.
Feet glued to the ground as if rooted in the wet earth. The cold forest wind blew against your back, goosebumping the exposed skin of your arms, but you barely felt it. Your heart was still racing from the run, from the effort, from those words Clarisse had poured out like they were too hot stones to hold. You opened your mouth once, as if you wanted to call her back, but no words came out. You just watched.
Her silhouette grew smaller in the dimness of the trail. She passed the last torch before the curve leading to the Ares cabin. Clarisse climbed the porch steps without hesitation, pushed the door with her good shoulder, and disappeared inside. The door closed with a dry, final click.
And then the silence returned for real.
You felt a tightness in your chest, not exactly sadness, but something like anticipated longing. As if, after everything that had been said, the space between you had become bigger than ever, even though, for the first time, it didn't seem insurmountable.
You ran a hand over your face, brushing away a damp strand that the wind had stuck to your cheek. You looked at the dark path for a few more seconds, as if hoping she would come back. But she didn't.
In the end, you turned slowly. The walk back to the clearing was slow, almost reluctant. The guitar was still with Grover, abandoned on the ground beside him, untouched, and the fire still burned, but the circle seemed smaller now, emptier, even with everyone there.
You didn't play again that night.
You sat on the same log as before, picked up the guitar without saying anything, and stared at the strings as if they could explain what had just happened. The kids kept running, the older ones kept talking, but you barely heard. Your mind was still on the trail, on her rough voice saying we'll talk tomorrow, on the way she had fled without truly fleeing.
And for the first time in a long time, you felt that something had changed irreversibly.
You didn't know what. You didn't know how. But you knew that tomorrow, when the sun rose gray over the camp, Clarisse La Rue would no longer be the same person you had met in the forest two days earlier.
And neither would you.
[part.2]














