so,, iâm not really sure how iâm supposed to articulate this but , iâm gonna try anyway because i donât want something i did months ago to affect my friendships.
pls hear me out too because i promise iâm not the kinda person i was back when i was last in krp !
ok , so , this is remi n yeah i probably did do half the shit u heard abt ( if ur readin this .. idk ) but i feel like i need to explain myself before it all gets out of hand again
iâm really gonna try not to namedrop bc thatâs shit but yea here we go boys
the whole drama w the slurs and stuff was me, but it all got twisted n i got made out to be so much worse than i really was -- not sayin what i did wasnât bad because, believe me, i know how shitty i was and iâve reflected enough to know thatâs the kind of person i donât wanna turn into again.
but uhh it all kinda started when i fucced up n gave out information i lit had no clue i wasnât supposed to know about, and that info had a lot to do w someone i used to be close with, and at the time, i had nothin against her!! i didnât even know it was a big secret.
but yea i told someone abt her new account and she came to me and confronted me, and i was like wtf im sorry i didnt know n she didnât wanna forgive me, which at the time, i didnât understand, n my hotheaded ass started going around saying shit about her.
then a few days later she hmu on aim tellin me to shut up and we started arguingÂ
while we were arguing, i brought up how sensitive she was, and to prove how i thought she was sensitive, i used the n word, not toward her or anybody, just flat out.
i canât remember if she said anythin about it?? but im leanin towards she kinda ignored it, because i lit donât remember her makin a big deal about it
but like, the more we spoke, we both kinda calmed down n we both just kinda agreed not to talk anymore n leave each other alone
it coulda been during our argument or after, i know it wasnât when i said it tho, but uh, her friend was reading our messages and screenshotted me using the slur and posted it on feed
i canât remember what happened between it all but i went to a couple ppl n told em what happened and they all told me the same thing âjus dont say it again and weâre coolâ and i was like ok cool
idk like,, back then i was real insensitive n immature, i was the kinda person who always thought they were in the right and i didnât listen to anyone, n i know it didnât happen too long ago but while i was away from krp and shit i was like,, just chillin n doing my own thing and kinda growin up normally
but uhh a poc mun messaged me the next day, keep in mind i used to be close w her, but like, idk, i didnât really like her at the time i think we had a fight before she messaged me n i was harboring those angry feelings towards her so when she started giving me shit i went off and,, Smiles Weakly , i called her the same slur.
im not tryna excuse what i said because it was like .. legitimately racist because she took offense to it, and i regret it n i would apologize to her if i had the chance -- iâd apologize to everyone i affected w my words if i could, Honestly
but like yea after that i fucked around w my ex-gf on krp, like messin w people and i gotta admit, That was manipulative. i was purposely creating waves to get a reaction out of ppl.
i joined back a month n a bit afterward w two of my friends bc we started drifting and i thought if we used the same platform to talk on, we could keep our friendship
but uh they just told me to pretend i was someone else so we could all start over n chill,, i tried it and i ended up lying to someoneâs face who was kinda directly in the drama too, and knew me pretty well but like it was just . so fuckin shit?? the entire time we spoke i felt so anxious and like, guilty about lying to her and being all âyea haha whos remiâ because like? thats just wrong imo?
but yea , obviously they realized n i left again and i didnât return after that, but, they kinda kept me in the loop until they got tired of bein my friend n ended up cutting me off, which i understand because when i spoke to the girl i was real close with again, she told me about how i wronged her,, and like, i never realized how fuckin shit i was
i know this post is gettin long but thereâs another thing i gotta address , n itâs haru woop
people were calling me a psychopath because of my museâs actions, and i just think thatâs so fuckin wrong because isnât there a reason we Roleplay? like.. differentiate ic from ooc? .. he was supposed to be manipulative n shitty, he faked his own death n stuff .. only a fuckin whacked out dude would do that but anyway,Â
there was a lot of petty shit goin on like w the feed n shit while i was gone, apparently i got dragged every few days n people photoshopped me onto kkk members n i was just like wtf lmao
it was just a big mess and im here to make amends because iâm not about that dramatic life anymore.., iâve been trying so hard not to step on peoplesâ toes, like,, avoiding adding ppl who are friends w ppl who hate me because i Know theyâre gonna get shit, and like, tellin ppl who i am when i get to know em a bit better bc like.. im not ashamed of who i am now, only who i was.
and i donât blame ppl if they donât want anything to do w me, itâs hard to believe someoneâs personality can twist within like four months but yea, iâm not gonna hide who i am and if i wronged you ever, please hmu, i have no problem in realizing my mistakes and getting along with people again.
thereâs a lot more to it but iâm not comfortable puttin out peoplesâ business w me because thatâs between us but yea,, thank you for readin and i hope u can understand :\ if u wanna know more ,, hmu,,
unsurprisingly enough, seonghwa has amassed quite a dedicated following upon instagram in spite of his relatively sparse posts.Â
more simplistic than creative, his username is simply his birthday, then his initials.Â
created during 2013, it was meant to simply record the daily happenings in his life, and let his fans keep up with him â- a purpose thatâs still to remain altered in spite of his ever-increasing popularity.
"What are you listening to?" Sitting down beside younger female, he gingerly brushes a long strand of hair behind her ear and yanks out the nearest earpiece, putting it into his own. Single brow quirking as he glances back over toward her, âyouâre listening to Hopsin?â
She was caught by surprise the moment the male came up to sit next to her, though, she was glad it was someone whom she enjoys spending time with. At his question, she couldnât help but to purse her lips tightly â he caught her listening to the type of music that she has never taken interest in before. Nodding slowly a couple times with her cheeks flushing red, she let out a laugh behind her hand. âI just wanted to try listening to it again! Though I must say I prefer that song⊠uh, forever young, right? I downloaded it on my phone! I canât believe youâve influenced me considering the fact that Hospin in now on my phoneâŠâ
Tongue clicks against upper ivory tiers, the tink of silver against bone sounding at quiet volume to serve as a pause between first response, and second. âI donât know. Honestly, it was probably that caterpillar bookâ whatâs it called? Something about a hungry caterpillar. Trippy shit.â
rhododendron, whatâs the scariest dream youâve ever had?
Quiet hum vibrates in his throat as lips purse, eyelids squinting while gaze flicks upward; a couple awkward seconds passing as he shakes his head, glancing downward, âI donât dream that often, but, once I had a really scaryâ er, trip.â Breathy laugh is then exhaled as he continues, âletâs not get into that, though.â
( txt: +82-xxx-xxxx ) ? whoâs this?
( txt: +82-xxx-xxxx ) sorry, did we go out or something?
Fingers flex beneath cellular device as dark orbs focus on screen illuminating features, a somewhat loud ding catches his attention as thumbs come to a halt upon screen -- browsing facebook at 7AM is most definitely the best way to start off a Saturday morning.
Single brow raises as he taps the notification, a small smile tugging at edges of lips; he canât quite tell if the other is kidding or not. Oh well, either way, Seonghwa decides to go along with it.
@ 7:12AM
to: êž°ì í!! đâšđ«
yes, we did! itâs youngmi! how could you forget me, oppa? đđ
The dreadful silence woke Seonghwa up, pulling him straight from a divine dreamland back to the ordinary subway car. Or so he thought.
Mentally kicking himself for taking a nap in one of the most inconvenient places imaginable, he brushed a blur of sleep from his eyes and lifted his gaze, dark pupils flicking around the space. To his faintly numbed surprise, he was the only person in the car.
Seonghwa moved from his spot after a handful of minutes once discomfort began weighing on his shoulders. With an ambiguous grimace on his face, he ambled towards the other end of the train.Â
God forbid he ended up as a character from an urban legend.Â
Fortunately, his short trip wasnât in vain: Seonghwa wasnât alone after all! He had the company of a shady looking man, whose irritated face made Seonghwa wonder if someone had poured battery acid in his coffee. Absolute bliss.
âUh, excuse me ââ do you know whichâs the next stop?â
   sienna canât help her small giggles, her good mood due to the two glasses of wine the brunette haired girl had consumed only ten minutes ago, â  what you wish for is yours⊠ â the words were quiet and barely above a whisper as her hand wrapped around the otherâs bicep.
Heâs leaned over a counter, chin resting upon palm as a content sigh is exhaled into the air. Seonghwaâs only in this bar to support a friendâs performance; drinking isnât really his thing -- whatâs cool about ruining your liver? Arenât we supposed to be grateful for all our creator has given us? Sarcasm.
However, there is one substance he doesnât quite mind abusing ---- which brings us to now; Kang Seonghwa is off his ass on a broad mix of psychedelics, tripping out because somehow, the ice in his glass is expanding!
Hand upon bicep brings him back, though, a couple blinks allow him to vaguely realize what exactly is going on, and with a slight turn, does he look back into strangerâs direction, doe-eyed boy raises a brow in a confused manner, God, he canât hear shit in here. Leaning in closer to the woman, he begins slurring; â.. Do you want a drink or something? You know, I heard their Stoli Ohranj Vodka is pretty good.â
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