Evolving is the purest way to be real
Sometimes I stop and look back, and I recognise myself in versions of me that have already changed. There was a time when my hair was blonde, a shade that once defined my exterior, but today my identity flows towards something deeper.
I vividly remember the first time I dressed up to go out into the world as the woman I had always been. I felt an intense mixture of nerves and fear; I was not yet fully prepared for what I would find out there. However, I was certain of who I was and why I wanted to do it. I did not take this decision impulsively upon feeling the first call; I took the necessary time to sit down and examine every pro and con of what would come in the future. I knew, with total certainty, that once I took that step, there would be no turning back.
It was a truly complicated process, but I hold onto the memory of the first person who saw me and already knew me from before with special fondness. They were a little surprised, yes, but their surprise soon turned into genuine joy for me. It made me feel that at last I was free, that the person who had protected me and brought me to this point already had the right to rest, and that it was time for Martina to take the lead. That recognition was incredibly important to me.
I knew that the path would not be easy, but fortunately, I did it with maturity. That same maturity is what allows me today not to get involved in pointless or Byzantine debates; I prefer to live my personal experience to the full, without letting myself be carried away by ideas that, in the end, only end up harming us trans women.
Sensuality, for me, is not in what others expect to see, but in the naturalness of being. It is about accepting that we live in a constant state of change and that every day we are a new version, more real and more genuine.
I do not follow general thinking, nor do I fit into pre-established moulds. I prefer to build my own idea of the world, a vision where love for others is the central axis, but where my essence—my unique identity—is non-negotiable. Being real is not easy in a world of labels, but it is the only way I know how to live: being authentic, being myself, being me.
At what moment in your life have you felt most like yourself?
With much love, Tini. ❤️🌹
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