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Life update

I broke up with the single dad in Alabama I was fully convinced I would marry bc of a tarot reading I did 3 months prior. Embarrassing but his city sucked anyway.

I immediately found another baseball American male to take his place but unfortunately he’s not as tall but his eyes are way prettier. As long as he keeps paying for things he can stick around.

I’ve finally learned to just never offer to pay for anything and they just won’t ask you to. I still get the urge to offer to pay sometimes but god please help me resist temptation

I haven’t heard from my ex in 2 months which is surprising/concerning. His bday is tomorrow so I guess I’ll text him. I’ll be relieved if he doesn’t reply. I just have to get a bf before he moves on so I win. But like…a tall one.

The club has been so good to me lately. I can’t wait to go back tomorrow. It’s honestly so chic working my serious job by day, taking a nap, and working the club by night. It’s definitely a dive but at least they don’t do extras in VIP.

I’m also the happiest I’ve ever been. Maybe it’s just my follicular phase but I’m so happy with my life. I love being beautiful. I love making money. I love waking up with my cats next to me every morning. I love being able to do whatever I want and go wherever I want.

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finalized my divorce and got a new bf in the same week

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nevermind he pissed me off

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finalized my divorce and got a new bf in the same week

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madison is back 💕

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suddenly im back to my old self minus the drugs

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Having a roster is so fun until you’re disappointed by 2 in one weekend

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Random ramblings

I have 5 months to find a new man or else I have to move back with my husband bc he says I won’t have to pay bills. The dating scene here is tragic.

Im starting to realize my years of stripping and serving (and now health care)have really paid off because I have to carry like 90% of the conversations I have with men around my age. And I’m the one with severe social anxiety. It’s still painful for me don’t get me wrong.

There was one guy I liked but I fumbled. It’s okay because he was young and didn’t make crazy money but he was a total simp. I just need to find a new one. I realize I’m happiest with guys who simp over me and are obsessed. If I can just find a guy who’s obsessed with me, okay to look at, and able to pay a few bills I’ll be happy.

Stillllll considering going back to the club. I’m finally on all day shifts and I don’t have to work every weekend so I could swing it. I had the bright idea to enlist my pseudo SD to take me out to clubs to test them out. That way I can use his money to tip. We’ll see. Summer is awful here money-wise so maybe I’ll just use the summer to test our clubs and then commit in the fall.

Jesus if you’re listening please send me another simp with a good job amen

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The thing is I need someone who loves me as much as I love me

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Meeting ppl in irl is NOT the moves besties this shit sucks

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I don’t like feeling like a victim. I’d rather be the villain in the story. I’d rather be the manipulative stripper who got with a guy and used him for what little he had to get a degree, improve my looks, stack some savings, just to leave onto better things. That’s probably how he will frame it anyway.

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His biggest fear was me “leaving the relationship better than I came into it” and that’s exactly what happened.

Self-fulfilling prophecy

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The first 2 weeks being away from my husband were literally hell until it finally clicked that the only thing he really added to my life was security. But I survived just fine without him for years and I can survive without him again. And now I at least get paid hourly.

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As someone in the business, I have been following you for a while and I am 𝓲𝓷𝓿𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭 in the drama. Do you have anyone that could take his place or was that a ‘going off on my own’ type of update?

100% on my own now 🥲

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Time’s up

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I was actually right

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Time’s up

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I accidentally ran into my old frat boy friends and then accidentally did my body weight in snow and I can confidently say I’m over the hype. The whole time I was thinking about how my sleep, running, and eating schedules were gonna be screwed up.

But the bright side is I got to experience Brat and the boiler room set as god intended.

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I can’t believe how shitty of a person/friend I was until like 25 years old