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finalized my divorce and got a new bf in the same week

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nevermind he pissed me off

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finalized my divorce and got a new bf in the same week

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madison is back 💕

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suddenly im back to my old self minus the drugs

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Having a roster is so fun until you’re disappointed by 2 in one weekend

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Random ramblings

I have 5 months to find a new man or else I have to move back with my husband bc he says I won’t have to pay bills. The dating scene here is tragic.

Im starting to realize my years of stripping and serving (and now health care)have really paid off because I have to carry like 90% of the conversations I have with men around my age. And I’m the one with severe social anxiety. It’s still painful for me don’t get me wrong.

There was one guy I liked but I fumbled. It’s okay because he was young and didn’t make crazy money but he was a total simp. I just need to find a new one. I realize I’m happiest with guys who simp over me and are obsessed. If I can just find a guy who’s obsessed with me, okay to look at, and able to pay a few bills I’ll be happy.

Stillllll considering going back to the club. I’m finally on all day shifts and I don’t have to work every weekend so I could swing it. I had the bright idea to enlist my pseudo SD to take me out to clubs to test them out. That way I can use his money to tip. We’ll see. Summer is awful here money-wise so maybe I’ll just use the summer to test our clubs and then commit in the fall.

Jesus if you’re listening please send me another simp with a good job amen

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The thing is I need someone who loves me as much as I love me

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Meeting ppl in irl is NOT the moves besties this shit sucks

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I don’t like feeling like a victim. I’d rather be the villain in the story. I’d rather be the manipulative stripper who got with a guy and used him for what little he had to get a degree, improve my looks, stack some savings, just to leave onto better things. That’s probably how he will frame it anyway.

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His biggest fear was me “leaving the relationship better than I came into it” and that’s exactly what happened.

Self-fulfilling prophecy

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The first 2 weeks being away from my husband were literally hell until it finally clicked that the only thing he really added to my life was security. But I survived just fine without him for years and I can survive without him again. And now I at least get paid hourly.

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As someone in the business, I have been following you for a while and I am 𝓲𝓷𝓿𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭 in the drama. Do you have anyone that could take his place or was that a ‘going off on my own’ type of update?

100% on my own now 🥲

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Time’s up

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I was actually right

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Time’s up

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I accidentally ran into my old frat boy friends and then accidentally did my body weight in snow and I can confidently say I’m over the hype. The whole time I was thinking about how my sleep, running, and eating schedules were gonna be screwed up.

But the bright side is I got to experience Brat and the boiler room set as god intended.

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I can’t believe how shitty of a person/friend I was until like 25 years old

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I wish I had gone bigger with my boobs. I don’t think that would necessarily look better like I’m sure my surgeon did a great job on proportion and even when I tried a size up they looked crazy to me. But I wish I had done it!

I’ll just have my next husband pay for me to size up. But realistically I’ll just wait because they came out so perfect I don’t wanna risk messing them up.