I’m so gay. I’m so gay for my best friend. I think when she smiled it really did something to my heart: like wow, you are SO pretty. I’ve never been gay for someone in that way before. Like I think I really became gay for girls because I saw how pretty she was. Also she had this accent that made her prettier. And her personality was really great, she was sweet, she was funny. We became really close, and one day for Halloween we went out and she dressed up in this tight little skirt and I think it really really did something to me that night because at some point she held my hand and I felt my heart stir so much I felt like a man. And at that time I just dismissed it but now I let that feeling travel to the end of its course and now I understand I was really really horny and gay for her. Like wow I’m so gay for her. If I could say something to that version of her it would be that I really wanna fuck you and you’re so sexy, so wet, and soft, and pretty, and I bet if I put my cock in your mouth you would look up at me with dewy eyes and look so pretty. Shit. My best friend was the prettiest girl in the world and I was extremely gay for her and I fell in love completely, head over heels. Head Over Heels. As years passed it got less and I was kinda happy being just friends with her but I feel like when you have a first love like that you never really stop loving that first love you know? Even if we’re just friends now and I don’t really want it to be otherwise, that little moment of time was just insane.
I often think that we spend time with our friends because they are the kind of people we like. That could be physical attraction, or a mental synchronization.
There are a few guys I hang out with where we have pushed the limit a lot. Not like a let's all get together and watch porn and masturbate together. Never had that particular experience. But, like I told a friend of mine on my birthday: "How gay do you want us to be?" We've snuggled, probably mostly to be funny and shocking to others around, but it was never this icky type of experience.
I don't think I'm gonna kiss him or jack him off or anything like that. But I am comfortable with him; I'd hold hands. I'd place my hand on his thigh, just to feel him tremble.
Every friendship is special and should be valued.





















