My Journey just begins

I’m going on a journey for happiness, I’m going to share the hardest and happiest times upcoming.

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Update

So I have officially went vegetarian again! 😂😍🤗 I still want to eat seafood like every once in a while so there’s that. But anyway this week was a reminder to watch the carb when being “vegetarian” so while I have been doing great without meat I really have to get good carbs. I have been a bit more active, just not as much as I would’ve liked 🤷🏽‍♀️. I am learning to not be so hard on myself because yesterday I did a hit workout and didn’t die 😍. I can’t check my weight and have not for weeks because my scale is being stupid so this weekend I will do a weigh in 😩🧐

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Day2:

This was the hardest day man! I didn’t keep to my diet which sucks but I did reach some goals on the Fitbit 😍 I will try again tomorrow and will be successful!

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Day 1 of change!

I had 3 premier protein shakes 2 vanilla and one chocolate 😋

I will only had 2 bottles of water so far though 😩

This day has been a bit hard especially when on the first day to changing how I eat, at the office they had Krispy Kreme doughnuts 🍩🤬🤬🤬😩🤷🏽‍♀️ I did not eat that though. I also had to feed my godson some McDonald’s which was just torture. Today has been the first day and it has been filled with temptation left and right! I did however cheat a bit I chewed some turkey jerky and spit it out just to get the flavor.

On a positive note I did get in a lot of steps even at work! Instead of rolling in the chair I got up to go to the printer each time. I walked to the main office area every time I need someone as well as the shop area. I parked further at Walmart and walked around a bit during my lunch break.

So I got my Fitbit and my shoes are on the way! I also got some new workout clothes last week in preparation for this change!

Day 1 of 21 is completed 😬😬😬🤗

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I’m a bit stuck today! I have been feeling lonelier and lonelier as the days go. How stupid it that considering I’m in a house full of people. Everyone have someone and I’m just here by myself all the time! I want to have hard times with someone else only to come back together stronger! It’s been so hard to stop crying since yesterday. I can’t cry in front of people and I don’t know how to ask for help! Today was the first day in 8 years where I thought about harming myself. I looked down at my wrist and saw the tattoo of the semicolon. It’s a reminder that my story is never ending there has to be more to my life than school, helping my family with their issues and suffering in silence. I want to scream out and wear my heart on my sleeve.

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A smile for the day

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September, 2018

I’m sitting on my bed wondering what I am doing. I am almost done with my bachelors degree! December 23rd,2018 I am officially done!

I want to do something that surprises myself! Like volunteer to a cause that means something to me such as at-risk youth or people with traumatic experiences.

I want to fall in love for the first time in my life, I am going to be 25 in April 2019 and have never been in love.

I want to move out by myself!!! I feel so stuck in one space simply because I put everyone’s needs ahead of my own.

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It's my STINKA birthday!! 😁 I love her beyond words. My triplet! 🎉👑

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Help Me! Studying for this LSAT. Summer life 😫 #LSAT #futurelawstudent #PENNStateLawSchool #helpme

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Braids + Summer= 😍

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This is so me!

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Dinner 😍 attempts at being a chef 😋

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Remembering all those who gave for this country! #memorialday

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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to my beautiful mother! 21years and you stronger than ever xoxo I love you mom!

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😔 1,457+ people dead.

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GOD is working on me. I got the Internship for summer! 😁📚 Law school here I come.

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I love this song! 😍 if only we can go back to that mentality

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Next weekend!!! #april4th 😍😍😍😍😍 2⃣1⃣st 🍸🍺🍷🍹🍸🍷🍹🍷🍹🍺🍸