HELLO, AND.. I APOLOGIZE.
THERE ISN'T MUCH OF ANYTHING I CAN WRITE ABOUT THAT'S NOT JUST... UPSETTING.
I CAN TELL YOU ABOUT HOW SANS KEEPS GOING THROUGH THESE FITS IN HIS 'SLEEP' (IS THIS REALLY ONLY SLEEPING?)
SUMMONING ATTACKS, BUT NOT.. 𝘈𝘛 ANYTHING.
OR ABOUT HOW OUR THANKSGIVING PLANS ARE.........
WE'RE PROBABLY NOT DOING MOST OF IT, NOW.
ALPHYS SAID SANS SHOULD BE TAKEN TO A SPECIALIZED MONSTER DOCTOR.
THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN DONE ALREADY, WAY, WAY SOONER-
I'VE BEEN AVOIDING SOME DOCTORS... INTENTIONALLY.
(AND WE ALL KNOW HE WOULD NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS TAKE HIMSELF.)
THAT HE GETS ANXIOUS AROUND DOCTORS; ESPECIALLY DURING EXAMINATIONS.
HE'LL NEVER SAY IT OUT LOUD. OF COURSE NOT.
AND SEEING SANS UPSET LATELY, WITH ALL THIS GOING ON ALREADY...
AND! THEY- THE DOCTORS WE'VE BEEN TO- HAVEN'T POINTED ANYTHING IMMEDIATELY THREATENING OR URGENT OUT.
THAT'S WHY I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE OKAY NOT TO, IF IT KEPT SANS EVEN A TINY BIT HAPPIER.
FELT LIKE THE X-RAY WAS THE LAST HOPE TO FIND ANYTHING; TO KEEP ME FROM.. NOT TAKING HIM ANYMORE. AVOIDING MAKING HIM UPSET FURTHER.
TO KEEP ME FROM DECIDING THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF SANS MYSELF JUST AS WELL.
THE THOUGHT DIDN'T EVEN OCCUR TO ME THAT THE HUMAN DOCTORS WE'VE VISITED AROUND HERE MIGHT NOT BE THE MOST WELL-EQUIPPED TO DIAGNOSE HIM UNTIL ALPHYS SAID IT.
IF IT REALLY, TRULY IS A MAGIC RELATED PROBLEM LIKE SHE AND TORIEL SEEM TO THINK, THEN I'VE...
I'VE BEEN DOING REALLY TERRIBLY, IN TERMS OF HANDLING THIS.
LETTING EVERYONE ELSE TELL ME HOW TO HELP INSTEAD IS MY BEST COURSE OF ACTION AT THE MOMENT.
I CAN'T TRUST MY OWN JUDGEMENT FROM NOW ON. I CAN'T TRUST THAT I WON'T JUST MAKE EVERYTHING WORST.
STARING BLANKLY AT THIS PAGE, WITH NOTHING BUT MY OWN REGRET AND WORRY STARING BACK..
I REALLY CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE.
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