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[achillesinhighheels]

[felicitypdf]

"We can ask and ask but we can't have again what once seemed ours for ever — the way things looked, that church alone in the fields, a bed on the belfry floor, a remembered voice, the touch of a hand, a loved face. They've gone and you can only wait for the pain to pass."

J.L. Carr, A Month in the Country

[goddexes]

Far from what I once was // Not yet what I am going to be

[pmamtraveller]

Luca Ponsato - Does Anyone See My Suffering

[hazyhhh]

[literaryvein]

L. V., excerpts from a past life

[kitkatpancakestack]

unavoidable that you will be the villain in someone else's story. You will be painted in an unfavorable light. You will be the irredeemable one. and all of this will happen despite how nice you might usually be or how kind or how respectful or how warm. and you will just have to move on.

[its-simply-just-krys]

“Mouthful of Forevers”, Clementine von Radics

[fairycosmos]

i feel like ive missed out on so much in life. i wish i had been born different. there’s so much grief in this feeling

[havingapoemwithyou]

the years by Alex Dimitrov

[ahotknife]

the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

[clearestbluest]

<3

[shining-bewear]

[itsnotwhatimlike]

embarrassment has good bones

[exitwound]

[pissgoon]

sorry i didn’t answer your message im consumed by a grief that never leaves me and everything feels pointless and agonizing, i have nothing funny or uplifting to say and have spent my days sitting in a dark room grappling with a deep seated emptiness i cannot explain or fill, i hope you’re doing well though talk soon

[mortalityplays]

btw you will miss this in 5 or 10 years. memory will smooth these circumstances down like a river stone, and you will find yourself longing for a shade of light or a moment of this particular innocence. you don't know about what happens next, and one day that will be the most alluring thing of all. don't leave it all for nostalgia. have a nice night now, whatever night it happens to be.

[weltenwellen]

Warsan Shire, from “Hooyo Isn't Home”, Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head

[existential-celestial]

“November night. Brief note to self: Time to take myself in hand. To build into myself, to give myself backbone, however much I fail.”

— Sylvia Plath, from a journal entry featured in “The Unabridged Journals”