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welcome

[remanence-of-love]

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[keytomind]

🖤👆🏼

[greyless]

sometimes I feel like i was too good at faking emotions that i forget how to be real, to be honest, to tell people the truth of my thoughts, so i just say "all is well"

[greyless]

even after the nicest heartbreak, I pray we can always find a little piece of forgiveness

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God, I let him go…

someone I once held so close to my heart.

not because I stopped loving him,

but because I’m still learning how to understand myself.

there are feelings within me that I haven’t fully made peace with,

and sometimes they quietly weigh on my heart.

we shared moments, laughter, and warmth…

but when I return to my own space,

there’s a softness in me that still feels unsettled.

maybe I’m still figuring out what love truly means for me.

maybe I’m learning how to love without losing myself.

oh God…

please place آرام (calmness) in my heart.

teach me that it’s okay to be alone for a while,

to grow, to heal, and to find clarity.

guide me toward what is good for me,

even if it doesn’t look like what I once wanted.

surround me with sincere hearts,

and fill my life with Your quiet blessings and rizq.

You know what I don’t understand yet,

and You see what I cannot see.

so for now…

I trust You.

[greyless]

And next time you see me you'll tell me that you missed me; I'm pretty; things has changed and everything is not as great as when you were with me; you wanna turn back time to when it was okay; you should have treated me better once; you regret didn't listen to my wants; and so many things that later I can't remember

but it's not something that we can control, isn't it?

[greyless]

Bengong ke si meng karena klo ngomong " I don't care about what you want as long as we keep talking and in the rare case that I do cross your mind, you better know all my demons running wild having your smile. I know you'll fade away again but if God really listens, I hope our paths cross again" adalah sia-sia, so I just say "meongg si gemes meongg"

[greyless]

You may don't understand my rants about temen jaga yg dateng operan telat atau tentang how tired i am nge rjp 5 siklus tpi ujungnya asistol, but you listen anyway. you know me before all of this med stuff come. You know me before i jump in med school, you know who I really am, you found me before this degree. And having someone who truly sees you is more than enough,

[greyless]

Yakinku yang dilawan ragu atau dari awal emang gapernah yakin?

[greyless]

apologizing to urself is easier than to other people

[greyless]

gonna let this one be what it needs to be, untill i can't take it anymore

[greyless]

It's time to call it. We had enough. #51125

[greyless]

nisaa,

kalau kamu sekarang takut gabisa ini itu, takut salah dalam berbagai hal, wajar nak..

artinya kamu bertanggung jawab atas kehidupan yang akan kamu selamatkan nanti

takut itu perlu, terutama yang mendorong kita ke hal-hal yang positif. jadi kalo sekarang kamu overthinking belum handal dalam berbagai hal lalu kamu berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk belajar, it's okay, itu sudah lebih dari cukup

terimakasih ya nak sudah memikirkan nasib kami, orang-orang yang belum pernah kamu temui, semoga lelahmu menjadi lillah dan takutmu menjadi kuat.

[greyless]

I will wait for the moment you love me again, for now i talk to god

[greyless]

I stop chasing, they said if they wanted to they would

But what if I missed the chance because of it

Then, i guess "I shoot my shot" would make me feel better than "I wish i did"

[greyless]

gonna let this one be what it needs to be, untill i can't take it anymore

[greyless]

I finally talk about you to my college friends, somehow it feels very relieving, I promise I won't call.

My medical rotation officially ended today, I promise I won't call.

I pray for you always, I promise I won't call

[greyless]

"Lepaskanlah. Maka besok lusa, jika dia cinta sejatimu, dia pasti akan kembali dengan cara mengagumkan. Ada saja takdir hebat yang tercipta untuk kita. Jika dia tidak kembali, maka sederhana jadinya, itu bukan cinta sejatimu. Hei, kisah-kisah cinta di dalam buku itu, di dongeng-dongeng cinta, atau hikayat orang tua, itu semua ada penulisnya.

Tetapi kisah cinta kau, siapa penulisnya? Penulisnya adalah pemilik cerita paling sempurna di muka bumi. Tidakkah sedikit saja kau mau meyakini bahwa kisah kau pastilah yang terbaik yang dituliskan"

[greyless]

Maybe you finally choose me after you had more time but I can't wait and you always late

First time it was chill, we were on the hill

Second time the weather is cloudy, with our feet getting salty

Third time, there's no third time, because while my jeans still wet, you're already gone to the west

So I guess "see you never and let's not meet at any coincidence"?