Two years ago, I've been stuck in a pace where there's a lot of paths in front of me. I was never certain which path I really wanted to take. But, just a few months ago, when I graduated high school, I had to wipe my tears and loosen up my grip of the past—my high school journey, my teachers, my class, and even my high school friends. Plus, I had to accept the fact that my lover and I have different dreams to chase, but at least here I am, giving him my love and support from afar, like he does to me as well. It was hard, but I had to do it.
Now, here I am, on my own, facing the approaching challenges ahead of me as a college freshman from the field of Accountancy. I know it was gonna be a struggle for me, since this is far from my interests and I graduated Humanities and Social Sciences back in my senior year. But, I knew I had to do this, for the betterment of my life, for the sake of getting a degree in Law a few years from now, for the sake of the less fortunate people in my country. Honestly, as cliché as it sounds, everything only goes smooth and easy at first. Not really stressing much, I was still able to catch up with my classmates, my schedule, and our lectures. However, as times passes by, I'm starting to feel the real struggles. It was hard for me to the point that I spent my weekends crying alone or ranting to my boyfriend about it. I once thought that maybe this degree wasn't really meant for me because I slowly lost my grip and I couldn't understand everything anymore. However, Soleil (that's how I call my lover), insisted that this is just one big struggle and that I can still make it up to myself. One failure may affect me, but it could never define me as a whole. Despite doubting or hesitating to trust other people, he told me to at least once ask for help from my peers and professors. It may have been a bit difficult for me to accept all of Soleil's words, but I'm taking it crumb by crumb, step by step. From then on, I had to breathe deeply, and put all his words in my mind and heart, and let it serve as my inspiration.
For now, I'm slowly trying to get up again, and pick up where I've left off. Hopefully, someday, I'll be able to say that I finally succeeded, and he, along with the people deprived of justice, are the reason behind my success.