Grigio Gal

[grigio-gal]

The only time one of my roommates asks me what I'm doing later is when she wants to bring a dude over and is subtley trying to sexile me

[bostnmnr]

Neck Deep || December

[grigio-gal]

Watching Below Her Mouth AKA Cinematic lesbian porn definitely didn't help matters with realizing how much attention I'm NOT getting from her anymore

[grigio-gal]

This isn't overthinking.

It's just facing the facts.

[grigio-gal]

I am not worthy

I knew she was out of my league. I knew I'd turn her off. And now I'm being clingy and constantly trying to get her attention. It's obvious and pathetic. She doesn't want me.

[grigio-gal]

Um

I just had like a leg shakingly good orgasm. From a vibrator. Without any pressure or penetration. Holy fuck. That has never happened before with just the vibrator. I was picturing fucking Ilda...shit I'm in way too deep and I haven't even kissed her yet. Definitely can't be just friends I've already thought about her naked.

[artible]

whatever’s been goin on w me recently,,., i’m ready for it to be done now

[grigio-gal]

I'm just like, the temporary foreign exchange student at this point

[grigio-gal]

It's like in the new kid at school. Senior year is gonna be fuckin awkward. I hope I make it through without a giant breakdown of something

[grigio-gal]

Getting weird vibes from friends lately but don't have the time or energy to deal with that so I'm pushing it to the side in the hopes that it goes away. Highly possible that it's just my really shitty mental health either a) fucking things up or b) making me think things are fucked up when they're fine

[grigio-gal]

Why have all of my friendships been in triads?

Daycare and preschool: Me, Dylan and Jonah Elementary school: Me, Peyton, and Isa Middle school: Me, Hannah and Shannon (after me, Hannah and christy) High school: Me, Camille and Emma High school and after: Me, Audrey, and Haley (and Jesse so that throws it off a bit but this is particularly in terms of my female relationships.) College: Me, Elisa, and Joanna/Rachel/Ellie Why does this always happen to me? After 5 years old, I have always had a best girl friend group in threes. Does that mean something?

[grigio-gal]

I'm v exhausted and could use a good kissin

[grigio-gal]

Transatlantic Heart

My heart is no longer in one place It has somehow Leaped from my body And split in two Part of it Was left in the States The other remains in Europe How do I leave When neither place Will make me whole?

[grigio-gal]

Turns out

I'm not great with rejection

[grigio-gal]

Also feeling extra fat now that warm weather has started so that's a wonderful add on

[grigio-gal]

Never wanted

It's college applications all over again. How else can I prove that I deserve an internship?! I guess it's just so many people fighting for one position but I want to be wanted for once! I wish I could say I'm hopeful for the other ones I applied to but I think my chances are pretty slim. Why do my hopes never seem to match up with people that will reciprocate???? In any part of my life???

[grigio-gal]

Why am I wanting a relationship so bad?

I couldn't actually handle one right now. I'm entering my senior year, where everything is up in the air. I have no clue what I'm doing after graduation or where I'll be. Putting a relationship into the mix on top of all that would be too much! I'm in need of affectionate but at the same time I really don't think I could juggle it right now. I would want to invest too much time and energy into the other person and to the relationship and it'd stress me out!