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“You don’t have to apologize. Not your fault that my personal life sucks. And, hey, at least you made me a drink to drown my shit in. That’s more than can be said for most of the people around here.” Though, truthfully, it would have been better if he hadn’t picked up the drink, but whatever. After everything that had happened, he deserved to throw one or two back. Chad had missed that comforting feeling of being numb anyways. It was high time that he returned to that feeling as far as he was concerned.
“Yeah? I’m…not really sure what I’m looking for right now. The guy I was…fucking, I guess, I thought about it. Thought maybe, this time, I could be happy. He was simple and probably dealt with shit that I had no business being around, sure, but he was good. He was nice and caring and shit, too caring really. It was ridiculously unfair how easily he could guilt me into behaving simply because he was being too kind for me to blow off his gestures, but whatever. He found someone that he wanted more and now I’m back on that ‘love is bullshit’ train.”
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Ty had the distinct and uncomfortable realization that Chad wouldn’t be telling him any of this if he knew that the person who’d stolen all of it away was him. He was the reason J’d dropped things with Chad. If anyone deserved to have Chad fight them it was probably Tyler.
But shit he got it, he got the way Chad felt pulled to Jesus and the way Jesus was easily the best person that stumbled into their lives. The way he just sort of cared in that natural way you couldn’t shrug off, Ty got that. It was hard to resist even if you tried. Fuck him sideways he got it.
“You’re talking about Jesus, aren’t you?” He asked quietly as he pushed a gin and tonic across to Chad. “I’m sorry. He really is just... just one of kind, isn’t he?”
He had to tell Chad. He had to, or he’d just walk around with this sick feeling all evening. “The person he found is um, it’s me, I’m sorry I really didn’t know when we started talking I swear I didn’t, I just figured it out as you were talking just now and I couldn’t let you confide in me like this like I’m not part of the reason you’re miserable. Shit I’m sorry. You don’t deserve any more misery.”
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