this guy needs to stfu and get a therapist

everyone is doing something without you

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I'm Vincent, Grim works fine too

If you're not mentally ill you probably don't belong here <33

I speak French and English, I'm learning Korean and Japanese

He/him | 20 | aroace | ADHD, Autism, BPD | INTP

don't report just block

Tw for like a bunch of stuff I'm genuinely fcked

S3lfh@rm, 3d, mental health disorders in general, s@, su1c1d@l 1deat1on, ect.

(Sometimes I sound like an ass and I am but I'm working on being less shit)

Currently fixated on self destruction 😊

Idk if you guys wanna hear bout my hobies but like I skate I draw and I wallow in misery. (And I really really like death note) That's kinda what my days look like ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌ I like to talk about political stuff. I'm a communist so make of that what you want.

I'll add stuff if I think about it

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Got skinnier but my ass still wear the same clothes i did when i was overweight cus i dont want ppl to see me

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Fuuuuck I wish I could sh relapse as weel but last year was fucking hellish at work w open cuts

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Opened the lock folder for the first time in forever and holy shit. Didn't think my w8 loss was that pronounced nor did I remember what it rly looked like to be covered in cuts. Goddamn

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Fuuuuck man I js wanna apologize for being like this so much all the fucking time. Sucks ass. I suck ass. When ppl care for me I js can't help but think they're secretly hating every second of their time w me cus I'm such a miserable loser

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Puter tell me how to stop running away from every difficult thing in my life

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ohhh so the sorrow is bottomless, I get it

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Yk I've lost so much w8 but i didn't lose it where I wanted to. Like my body needs to stop tryna strip my muscles for energy and start using the fat stores designed for that

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Hopefully this doesn't become my life again and I can still hang out w my friend.

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How do you tell people you still love them even tho you wish you were dead

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I wish she was awake rn

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I think I'm in love w my internet friend dude. It's fucked things up so bad cus I can't be loved. I want so badly to but I can't. I've been getting more avoidant w her as time passes. She cares too much I can't do this I can't I can't I can't.

It's so scary to be loved and to love back something deep in my soul tells me relying on ppl can only lead to disaster but the only disaster here is me. Nothing bad will happen if I allow myself to be appreciated but it fucking petrifies me to think about being vulnerable w someone.

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Mealspo is quite odd to me cus on one hand yeah that does seem like smt I would eat w/o a fuss but like ain't no way I'm actually making that. I will survive off of omading ramen and that's baller

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Oh how I missed the incredibly painful shits 😒 when I think about my Ed I go "yup more of sitting on the toilet forever w the worst cramps, dizziness and circulation to the legs fully cut off cus my boney ass provides no cusion"

Stomach is so fucking dramatic you can handle waiting a bit for your food why you do this to me

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Man I'm in such a shittier spot this relapse. I actually got friends but I can't bear the idea that they could get to know me frl

Friend msgs me "oh wyd" scrolling edsh tumblr of course ARGGGGG

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Do i feel better now that I'm back on my bs? No I feel worse but idgaf I'm starving and I hope it kills me