my friend is visiting me in my convalescing (gritty is on ltir) and we are simply discussing rarepairs that have never seen the light of day before (ilia malinin/ryleno, dlarken/drai)
posted a stranger things robin/nancy pwhl au fic and moved all my hrpf to a collection to anonymize them (but they’re still up!) anyway that’s all the fic updates i have for yall if any good trevor in philly fics drop pls link me xoxo
this blog is basically dead these days but my asks and ims are always open if yall are looking for a fic or want to discuss whatever hyperfixation is making me insane lately (aftg)
once again: happy hockey big bang! the podfic eafay70 did of don’t know what you’ve got (til it’s gone) was such a great listen, and it made me want to focus a bit more on audio storytelling for this playlist. it’s three playlists-one from nolan’s perspective, one from tk’s, and one from nico’s, but each playlist features the same artist in the same order. it was definitely a new challenge but it was a lot of fun to try something new. there’s also a version with all the songs
we start with gracie abrams, because it was listening to her songs that made me want to try and do it this way.
nolan
i love you im sorry - gracie abrams
I was a dick, it is what it is / A habit to kick, the age-old curse / I tend to laugh whenever I'm sad / I stare at the crash, it actually works / Making amends, this shit never ends / I'm wrong again, wrong again
the wedding song - renee rapp
I would have sang it to you soft and sweet / You'd want it every anniversary
feel - fletcher
Doin' time, tryna heal / Do anything so I don't feel you
after the party - the menzingers
But you just want to dance in a basement / You don't care if anyone is watching / Just as long as you stay in motion / We put miles on these old jean jackets / Got caught up in the drunk conversations / But after the party, it's me and you
this song always makes me think of tk and nolan, but it fits extra well in this fic when nolan and tk are in that weird in between of friends and something more
the story of us - taylor swift
Oh, I'm scared to see the ending / Why are we pretending this is nothing / I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how / I've never heard silence quite this loud
back to me - john allison weiss
Another damp dark room and I'm spilling my guts right out / About the love I knew that I'm learning to live without
if only - dove cameron
Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? / If only I knew what my heart was telling me
sometimes an artist has a huge discography. other times they don’t and you pull out a banger from a dcom soundtrack. much like my pets: if it fits, it sits (on the playlist)
home - catie turner
I don't take spoonfuls of romanticism in my tea / But this is not a love song / It's my truth I have to speak / Oh, you are so important to me / And I won't let you go
I won't let you go / Cause wherever you are is home
be alone - paramore
Yeah, we could be alone / But never get too low on me / We could be alone together
heaven - petal
But I will take your voice rolling over me always
gimme love - carly rae jepsen
Cause I want what I want, do you think that I want too much?
nico
that’s so true - gracie abrams
Think about your dumb face all the time
too well - renee rapp
I get so sick of myself, can't stop overthinkin' / I heard you're happy somewhere else / But I don't forget too well / I get so sick of myself, can't stop reminiscin' / I heard you're happy somewhere else / But I don't forget too well
becky’s so hot - fletcher
Cause Becky's so hot in your vintage t-shirt / Oh, she the one I should hate / But I wanna know how she taste
this is THEE nico song for this in my opinion. yeah yeah nico’s too nice to threaten to hit tk, but like. he’s got eyes, alright? he sees the appeal
casey - the menzingers
And I bet I sound like a broken record / Every time I open my mouth / I want to wander around the city with you again
holy ground - taylor swift
We had this big wide city all to ourselves / We blocked the noise with the sound of 'I need you' / And for the first time I had something to lose / And I guess we fell apart in the usual way / And the story's got dust on every page / But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now
this and casey are both songs that are a little bittersweet, looking back at a relationship after it’s ended, and i think that’s what nico does a lot during this fic
new love - john allison weiss
There's no love like new love / You're moving on and all I want is you, love
we go down together - dove cameron
If you go down / Then we go down together / If you hold on / I might just stay forever / If you get hurt / I'll try to make it better / If you go down / Then we go down together
i luv him - catie turner
He's what I want / But I'm not what he needs
proof - paramore
Then I'll believe in what you say / There's nothing left for you to do / The only proof that I need is you
nature - petal
Every fiber of my being seems to scream to me / "You are now mine in a life we both know"
i really like you - carly rae jepsen
It's way too soon, I know this isn't love / But I need to tell you something / I really, really, really, really, really, really like you / And I want you, do you want me, do you want me, too?
tk
risk - gracie abrams
I’m not proud / Guess I'm just scared of you shooting it down / You can just talk, and I'll stare at your mouth / It could be bad, but I wanna find out
i was between risk and in between for tk, and in between isn’t on streaming, but risk also hits the nail on the head
i do - renee rapp
When we're saying, "I love you" / I mean it different than you do / Terrified I always will even after the day / You look at somebody else and you say / "I do"
lead me on - fletcher
So why don't you just lead me on? / 'Cause something is better than nothing at all / Yeah, I want you to lead me on / 'Cause something, yeah, something is better than nothing / Yeah, something, your something is better than nothing at all
tk truly does spend so much of this settling for all he thinks he can have, and i feel like this song really encapsulates that
time table - the menzingers
As time tables suggest / We were only just friends / In constant motions, covering stilts / I’ll give you a dollar for another ride home / Or something to mix with your Coke
say don’t go - taylor swift
Oh no, oh no, it's not fair / 'Cause you kiss me and it stops time / And I'm yours, but you're not mine
i had to do it - john allison weiss
If my heavy heart were strong enough / I'd stay and let you keep it / But to know you is to love you / And I don't want to love you anymore
sand - dove cameron
I saw the end when we began / You couldn't love the way I can / I tried to bargain with the stars / For more than half your heart / But you have more pieces of me than the desert has sand / And I have less pieces of you than I can hold in my hand
(wish i didn’t have to) lie - catie turner
I don't hate you / I just hate the way I love you / And I hate the way I tell myself I'm fine / I wish I didn't have to lie
looking up - paramore
Could've given up so easily
I was a few cheap shots away from the end of me
left a mark - petal
i was born to kiss your mouth / i was born to be the dust / i was born to cover you / i was born to leave a mark / i was born to be the light / to be the light inside your room / i was born to be the dust that covers you
runaway with me - carly rae jepsen
This is the part, you've got to say all that you're feeling, feeling / Packing a bag, we're leaving tonight when everyone's sleeping, sleeping / Let's run away / I'll run away with you
happy hockey big bang to those who celebrate! i have once again had the chance to create secondary works for a couple of incredible fics, like in love, or whatever.
i really wanted to build a playlist with songs that feel like summer and the shore, and capture those feelings the same way this fic did. you can find the playlist here and you can see the track listing below the cut with some key lyrics pulled out
I'm a sucker for an aching heart / Gotta suffer for the sake of art / And I want you cause you make it hard
foolish one - taylor swift
Oh, you haven't written me or called / But goodbye screamin' in the silence / And the voices in my head are tellin' me why
enough for you - maisie peters
And that hole in my chest gets a bit bigger / And it dawns on me / All the things that I couldn't see / It was perfect as long as it wasn't real
that was then - emily james
We were a summer kissed red but oh that was then / And this is now
(un)lost - the maine
I'm not looking for anything in particular / But I'm far more desperate than you think
maybe dont - maisie peters (ft jp saxe)
Yeah, I run from the things that I want the most / You said, "I get that's what you do, but maybe don't."
i left a party for you - pilar victoria
I know how you feel, if this is real, what do I do?
closer - tegan and sara
Here comes the breath before we get, a little bit closer / Here comes the rush before we touch, come a little closer
in the movie version of this fic i directed in my head while reading it, this song would be playing softly in the background of the arcade while luke shows trevor how to play pinball
i wanna be your girlfriend - girl in red
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath / I don't wanna be your friend
generally, i try to do songs from the perspective of the pov character, but this song just felt so trevor in the fic that it had to make the cut
hurt - sasha alex sloan
I freak out every time we get closer / Cause I'm scared that it's just gonna hurt
treacherous - taylor swift
And I just think you should, think you should know / That nothing safe is worth the drive / And I would follow you, follow you home
harry and sally - taylor bickett and charlie pittman
Cause it isn't killing me we're not in love yet / We're just in the part, we're just in the part / Right before we figure it out
i saw your face - emily james
We could sit in silence / While this feeling finds its space / Keep the moment gentle / As it settles into place
the reasons - the weakerthans
I know you might roll your eyes at this / But I'm so glad that you exist
technicolor - sainte
Fell into you like the sea / You broke my fall / And you pulled me deep / I think that you should know this uncertainty has got me restless / Counting myself to sleep
millhouse - maisie peters
But in you, darling, I trust / Oh, everything's coming up Milhouse
love in real time - the maine
I've never felt so / Comfortable / In the middle of the summertime / Working on our / Love in real time / Making all this / Love in real time
sorry for disappearing i have had 911 brain rot for months and i adopted a dog and ive been reading a lot of books so this blog is probably largely inactive until the season starts up again unless i decide i need to reread the mcstrome tag again and make every xana song about them
anyway if anyone wants to get invested in this silly lil firefighter show you can find my totally normal primer and it's outline, a doc of fic recs, and also the episode guide i'm working on to try and details are the gross and or fucked up shit that occurs in this show here
