Well, music, and Stuff.
So, most people know I’m a music guy…and I’ve been stressing about not doing enough music.
Now, not to say I’m not listening to music, but my music tastes have greatly varied all my life, from bands like Primus, to bands whose names I can’t even pronounce, I’ve always been very vast in my music library.
Most of my music has been metal, and Djent for the longest time. Lately, I’ve been going back down to older stuff from my childhood. I remember artists like Jonathan Coulton, and Cloud Cult, and have been revisiting them. Hell, I’m listening to Jonathan Coulton as I write this. Last night, I decided to listen to Rob Thomas before falling asleep.
I think my biggest problem with writing music was because what I would write wasn’t heavy, or emotional enough. I don’t know how many of my readers can really empathize with that, but it’s just like being in the right place, but missing the mark, you know?
Lately though, I’ve discovered that my biggest problem with my writing, is that I’m trying to be too technical, instead of making it with feeling, and fun. I’ve been too focused on what I feel like it should sound exactly like, rather than being honest with it. I’ve played guitar for years, but I mostly pick up an acoustic, and mess around. I’ve never been a guitarist in a band. I’ve always been a vocalist. And for months now, I haven’t even written lyrics, and it really makes me feel concern for the passion I’ve always had.
To be truthful about it, I’ve always wanted to be able to just play my guitar, and sing songs at a bar every now and again. Life kinda proved to be more than troublesome for me. Too much work, and personal issues needing taken care of. Christ, even when I have free time, I don’t really have the drive to better myself in music, and composing.
I’m starting to worry that I’ve kind of lost that drive. Has anyone else ever experienced that? I’m sure I’m not the only one. I do miss playing with other people, though. Bands, or just a friend who knows how to play.
Anyways, my Chiropractor stuff has been fairly well. Actually, I’m feeling so much better off than I have for a few years. When I wake up, I’m not in pain, and I don’t hurt all the time. It’s actually made me feel like I’ve got more energy. I’ve picked up my guitar, and learned some songs to play, mainly because of that energy boost.
I’m hoping that after more of these spinal, and neck adjustments will make me want to take initiate, and play more. Hell, I’ve always wanted to do more. I’ve been thinking about buying an electric drum kit for years now. I’m hoping that this little rut will pass, and I’ll get the music bug to take over again.
I’ve played music since I was 12, and I’m sure I still want that for a career, and do it for as long as my body will let me. My brain is going at a thousand miles a minute right now. Maybe I need to try different genres? Maybe I need to find more musical inspiration? Maybe try and set weekly goals? I dunno, maybe it’ll all just come to me.
Damn, I know I need something to happen musically soon. Anyways, do I have any musicians who read? I’d like to know what you like playing, and if you’ve had a long drought of creativity, and how you’ve overcome it.
I feel like this blog is kinda short, and I apologize if it is. I’ve just had a very long week, so I hope you understand.
I think that’s gonna do it for me. Please, answer those questions, or communicate with me by any means you find. Lemme know if you like the blog, or what you had for breakfast, or something.
I guess that’s gonna do it for me for now, friends. I hope you have a great week, and had an even better weekend.
Be back in a while.
-Alex.