My Melody hates Endos & Co

Run by an actual system who got tired of Endos/Willos/Tulpas taking everything 💕 ... I'm tired in general and slow to post but that's cause I'm sleepy

[syspunk-mymelody]

🐇🎀 Hello and Welcome to Syspunk-MyMelody's blog 🎀🐇

I'm going to make this short and sweet 💕

If you're an Endo, Willo, Tulpa, Polymind, etc, I do not want you here! You're an ableist who wants to feel special and you're so steeped in misinformation that you've forgotten that your foundations and beginnings are steeped in ableism and the denial of real systems as well as dabbling in cultural appropriation of aspects of Buddhism that are closed off to anyone not involved in that sect of Buddhists! You're disgusting! 💕

Also, my anon asks are turned off because if you're going to be an ableist, do it with your chest and don't hide behind the anon label with cowardice so others can block you too 💕 (Although, if you'd like to be anon, feel free to shoot an ask and we'll screenshot it and crop your user out)

You want to invade our spaces so bad because you think being a system is special because you romanticized abuse that a lot of went through as children, it's really gross 💕

About Us

- We're 30!

- We're an Intersex Puerto Rican system

- We're pagan

- We have a partner 💕 Who we love very much

- We'll be signing off with 🎀🐇 to represent our system on comments and posts

Do Not Interact

- Non-traumagenic systems - which I hate using that term as I'm pretty sure it was coined by endos but this means; endos, polyminds, willos, tulpas, etc.

- Pro-AI - you guys are straight up art thieves! Fortunately, that can't be considered art and generally looks like shit 💕

- Wiccans - because you all also like to steal from cultures (especially closed cultures) that don't belong to you and feign ignorance

- T.R.A.S.H. - Transphobes, Racists, Ableists, Sexists, Homophobes

- Minors - there's nothing bad about you guys, we have kids ourself, but we also have a tendency to try and fix All of the Bad Things™️ when a kid is in pain and it ends up taking all of our energy.

- Radqueers & TransIDs - you're yucky!

I'll add more as this blog goes on but that's it for now!

[anti-willo-miku]

We are people with CDDs. Use the proper terms.

(This is not about systems who prefer the term traumagenic, but rather non-systems/endogenics who refer to anti endo pwcdds as traumagenic. anti endo pwcdds likely do not want to be pushed into your origin labels)

[plut0-plan3tzz]

Having to say "you're so cool please don't be pro-endo" whenever I see a systemhood comic blog shouldn't have to happen. I should be able to find people with my disorder without fear of them being a hate group in disguise.

[anti-radqueer-rick-sanchez]

You aren’t “morally superior” for supporting “cisnazis” and pro contact and untreated paraphiles you’re just uneducated and disgusting.

[anti-willo-recluse]

"Haha look at awv blogs leaving!!"

People do not want to live rest of their lives to hate on a specific people, do they. It's almost like constant discourse are tiring people

[c00lskidd]

ppl cheering as if it wasnt getting ripped apart by endless harassment both from pro endos and other antis + the really weird shit that went on in the server

like why are you cheering? lmao. and even if they didnt leave for those reasons omfg who careeees

[clowncorps3]

A merry fuck you to the person in a discord two years ago who told me that medical and scientific accuracy should be prioritised over someones emotional safety in response to me saying that newly discovered and/or younger systems may say "alters are literally separate people in one body" as a way to process and cope with the fact they have this disorder.

A merry fuck you to the fact this person DOUBLED DOWN when I said that these systems may not be in a safe place (physically or mentally) to start looking at the (arguably very complex) science behind having DID/OSDD1/PDID.

And a final fuck you to the fact that this person went on a whole rant saying that you are not allowed to view your alters as separate beings, and that they didnt care if thats how your alters presented you have to treat them all the same way or youre anti recovery.

With all thay being said, shout out to:

Systems whose alters present/function as fully individual beings

Systems who discovered years ago and are only just kow coming to terms with the fact you are "parts of a whole" (i hate this phrase personally it makes me uncomfortable)

Systems who are still not in the right mindset to get deeper into the science of a CDD beyond how they form

Systems who prefer to be treated as individuals with their own wants and needs and opinions and thoughts

Systems who cannot safely view complex medical information about having a CDD

Systems who use the "separate people in one body" explanation to help out new splits ESPECIALLY if the new member is distressed

Systems who are unable to mask because they are so elaborated

Systems who do not experience possessive switches but STILL are individual

Systems who are healing better by functioning as individual members rather than just one big glob

[anti-willo-dee-johnson]

“the future is plural” = “we want people to mistake their non-CDD mental disorders, neurodivergence and things that are just literally normal as plurality, and harass the systems who tell us the truth”

[anti-willo-miku]

> Open syscourse tag

> Anti endo complaining about pro endos thinking something that a vast majority of pro endos do not believe and then generalizing the entire community based off of it.

> Pro endo complaining about anti endos thinking something that a vast majority of pro endos do not believe and then generalizing the entire community based off of it.

> Close syscourse tag

I am considering making a “list of common syscourse strawman” post including:

- endos claim to have cdds without trauma (most of them don’t)

- anti endos think pro endo cdd systems dont belong in cdd spaces (most of dont, we just dont want you in ANTI ENDO spaces. the greater cdd community isnt an anti endo space)

- anti endos think that only pwcdds can experience dissociation (most of us dont)

- anti endos think that nobody else can use the word system in any context (thats not what we’re saying)

im a little blurry rn so i cant think of any others but comment below ur least favorite syscourse strawman

as well as strawmen both sides use, such as:

- All (opposing side) does is harass, all (my side) does is help people

[c00lskidd]

OH YEA teeechnically i dont wanna consider myself awverse anymore but im super lazy and dont wanna change users so blehhhhhhhh. but anyway yea cause the infightings stupid and weird so if u see posts from me that r like... not awverse centered thats why! but ill still b reblogging any awverse posts i agree with so like not much will change anyway.. mayb this was a pointless post but idk the direction things r going in is weird, id get more in detail but im worried itd cause even more infighting or harassment :/

[anti-willo-miku]

Some things I think should be talked about more in CDD spaces because I’m tired of pro and anti endos saying “cdd spaces are too alter centric” and then doing absolutely nothing about it:

- Co morbid conditions, including vulnerability to addiction (be normal abt addicts or die by my blade)

- Anhedonia , apathy , or just the general difficulty processing emotion that comes with chronic dissociation

- How damn isolating the condition can be

- How systemhood can intersect and affect/be affected by other identities (the unique experiences of poc systems, physically disabled systems, neurodivergent systems, queer systems, etc)

- Suicidal ideation

- Time loss

- Identity disturbance and issues with identity beyond the existence of alters

- Phobias developed by trauma

- Amnesia and the ways it can manifest

- CDD representation in media, either coded or explicit, and ways you relate to them

- P-DID and OSDD systems and their specific experiences

- How to advocate for yourself as a pwcdd in medical / professional spaces

Although, I can understand why a lot of this stuff isn’t talked about to an extent. It can be deeply personal and dangerous, especially if you participate in syscourse where pro/anti endos or endos themselves may use that information to hurt you for your opinions.

( CDD systems of any stance may interact as long as your intent is not to convince me of non cdd plurality. Non CDD systems please leave, your opinion is not wanted here. Nobody cares what you have to say on this topic. )

[anti-willo-miku]

And when we do talk about alters, lets also make sure to bring up:

- Abuser introjects

- Fusion and integration (without cenorship of it or acting like it’s triggering)

- Alters with very different beliefs from the rest of the system (I refer to them as Ego-Dystonic Parts)

- Alters reenacting abuse internally

- Communication tips, both internal and external

- Self advocacy between parts

All of these, including the things I listed above are normal symptoms of the disorder. Do not be ashamed for experiencing these.

( DNI applies as above. A non-cdd plurals opinion on alters is not relevant to me. You don’t share our experiences, you do not deserve a say in CDD spaces. )

[million-with-a-b]

waiter...waiter...more system comic blogs that aren't endo friendly please

[sadhoc]

there is a very real tendency of teenagers with anxiety disorders self diagnosing with considerably more stigmatized and impairing mental illnesses (e.g. schizophrenia, DID, personality disorders), but the best response to that isn't to get angry with them for "appropriating" lol. instead you show them coping resources for the problems they're actually having and deemphasize diagnostic categories in general. if an 18 year old is claiming to have alzheimer's, they're probably making an innocent mistake and are in genuine distress. be kind.

[mariaalenkoshepard]

Also I think this trend comes, at least in part, from how brushed aside anxiety disorders can be. If your parents and teachers dismiss you with 'oh everyone feels anxious', then inevitably you're going to start thinking that there must be something else going on with you

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

”You must feel very scared right now; let’s talk about how to help you personally, tailored to your symptoms” will always be more helpful than “stop faking (X) for attention”. If theyre that desperate for attention or an explanation, something is wrong.

[notwritinganyflufftoday]

An addition specifically for young people with memory issues and concerns about that.

Depression can mess with your memory a lot. A lack of sleep also affects it.

It may not be Alzheimer's, but there might be other factors at play that are just as important to take seriously.

[syspunk-mymelody]

Updated my blog name!

Anti-Willo-My-Melody ➡️ Anti-Endo-My-Melody ➡️ Syspunk-MyMelody

Just so y'all know who this is 💕

Apparently there was some... yucky stuff going on in the AWV discord server involving introjects (how dare an introject come from a controversial source /s) and I just, don't wanna be associated with that.

To my fellow introjects/fictives/factives please know that with this disorder, you can't control if a part becomes attached to a source and that's okay. You don't have to source seperate for someone else's comfort and if you are source seperate, you shouldn't have to defend yourself and explain over and over that you are not your source. You don't have to act like your source, you don't have to be your source, you can just be you.

I only know some of the situation from links that were given to me by the wonderful @sysc-verity and I had been in the discord for about a week, but the vibes were off and gave me an ick so I left.

The other reason I changed my account name is... seeing the AWV fall apart over whether to harass radqueers and no-contact paraphiles due to the new blankqueer labels that were popping up seemed so incredibly stupid. The AWV formed to stand against ableism and now it seems that it was such a fickle thing that it easily divided over whether or not to harass people, yes even if they are horrible people.

What bothered me about this is, starting with the radnormal term, anyone deemed a "predator" - including ex-radqueers and no-contact paraphiles who were in therapy - was okay to be harassed, attacked and driven off. Which is no better than what radqueers and transIDs do.

Then we started getting more blankqueer labels which added nuance to the radnormal term by adding "just block, don't harass" which never goes that way (plural-blocklist is a good example for this). The intentions might be good, but that isn't going to stop people from using their new found label to attack others.

Anti-radqueer and anti-harassment are both just fine terms. They're simple, concise and you don't have to look up what they mean.

Part of me is sad that it all fell apart due to stupid labels, but it was fun while it lasted.

🎀🐇

[immortalmiku]

I'm so tired of people armchair diagnosing everyone with DID 🫩

Someone could be like "yeah I act differently at a funeral than I would at a party" and there'd be a million comments like "ermmm... Have you heard of plurality??"

Let's stop watering down a complex disorder to just "thing where you get alters"??? Let's stop trying to inform people about a condition without even knowing the basics of how it works???

[envious-fox]

FUCKING PREACHHH!! No, dissociation does not indicate did. Amnesia does not indicate did. Identity disturbances does not indicate did.

THERE ARE TEN DOZEN DISORDERS IT COULD BE INSTEAD!!!!

[syspunk-mymelody]

Exactlyyyyy like there's a lot of overlaps with multiple different personality disorders, you can't automatically hop to the most complex one

[anti-willo-solivan]

hey.. guys.. guys... someone on here—i dont know which one, but they're in our community i believe—has made a post relating to empowered multiples and stated that Sigmund Freud coined endogenic. I cannot find the post for the LIFE of me, but I saw a screenshot and I genuinely got really mad because now we're spreading misinfo without any sources for the hell of it. Sigmund Freud did NOT coin 'endogenic'. The term came from endogenous—a word used by early psychiatrists like Emil Kraepelin in the late 1800s to describe the biological roots of mental disorders—and in online psychiatry and early Tumblr around 2014, the term endogenic was made. Check your sources before making info posts, I literally BEG you.

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[hello-nekomura]

blankqueer discourse is a huge reason the awverse died

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[the-pyxis-nautica]

idk if it’s just me but has anyone noticed more anti-endo blogs also being anti-contradictory labels

like

“oh hey cool blog!” dni lesboys “oh…”